A mother and wife falling into the river at the same time, a child with no mistakes and a large group of mischievous children standing on the two sides of the track, your loved ones tied up on the torture instruments, and Huai Caoshi's mocking and contemptuous words at this moment. These were the most common problems in the world. These problems might make many people feel struggling, from the inside out, from the roots of their hair to their toes, endlessly painful. However, for Xu Le, these problems were just some extremely boring hypotheses.
"Don't be in a hurry to refute me with those specious logic. For a moralist, morality is only useful as long as it does not harm their core interests. Once your core interests are threatened, you will not hesitate to begin to play the role of the crying victim's family, unwilling to give up a single piece of flesh, but still wanting to seize the moral high ground. "
Huai Caoshi coldly waved her hand. In her hand was the life of the slum woman. She wanted Xu Le to die by himself. In her eyes, this was just a joke, but this kind of joke was a bit vicious, directly attacking the heart of those moral peddlers.
Xu Le listened quietly, and then slowly opened his mouth to reply as usual, "No, of course I won't commit suicide, but I am not the kind of person you are talking about. As for this … I won't explain."
His eyes were bright and burning. Without any emotion, he stared at Huai Caoshi under the broken wall across from him and said, "If anyone tries to harm innocent aunties, including you, the only response I can make is to use all methods and power to kill the other party and then save them."
Kill? Kill him and the entire steel industry of the Empire like a wild beast? Huai Caoshi's eyes narrowed slightly, and she lightly laughed.
"I know what you are laughing at. You are laughing at my overestimation of my abilities, laughing at my whimsical thoughts." Xu Le's voice was hoarse as he replied, "That is because you don't understand what kind of person I am. If you really force me to go crazy, I will become a dog, a dog that salivates fiercely, staring at your calf bone, and no matter the cost, I will pounce on you and viciously bite you a few times. I will bite you until you are covered in wounds and ooze endlessly, transmitting my virus to your body."
"Don't force me."
"I will really become a dog, a mad dog."
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"Are you threatening me? What right do you have to threaten me now? "Huai Caoshi frowned and said with a trace of unfathomable emotion.
Her Highness' lamentation came from Xu Le's self-description. She had not expected that the young man opposite her, who was known for his steadiness and forbearance in the Federation, would be able to so calmly describe the birth of a mad dog. Furthermore … it really made her feel a chill.
This man was clearly in a desperate situation, so why did he still dare to threaten her?
"If that woman named Susan dies, what can you do? Even if you manage to escape, what can you do? "
"In this universe, other than His Majesty, there is no one I truly care about. No matter how much you kill, it will not make me sad or regretful at all."
"Or are you going to keep killing people in the Empire? Like a violent and stupid terrorist who keeps assassinating nobles and military officers? "
"Maybe."
Xu Le's eyes were still bright and even burning as he looked at the wall opposite him.
That warm little courtyard in the slums, that mother and son who had treated him with the greatest kindness in the world, were now in an unprecedented crisis. If something really happened to Susan and her son, he would not be able to accept it.
"It's not maybe, it's definitely."
"If anything happens to Auntie and her son, and I manage to escape this time, I will use the rest of my life to kill all the Empire's nobles I can find at all costs. In those few decades, there will be a calm and patient mad dog wandering your land. I bet you won't be able to catch me again. In fact, if it wasn't for that beautiful bastard outside, you wouldn't have been able to catch me this time either.
"If you can't catch me, Tianjing Planet will continue to bleed.
"Executing a mother and her son who were not dangerous at all because of anger and forcing me to turn into a rabid dog should do you, your emperor, and your empire no good."
After saying this, Xu Le stopped talking. The dark cell returned to silence. Only the long and steady breathing of the two people could be heard.
"Even if the people you want to kill are innocent according to common moral standards, you will still kill them?"
"That's right."
"This does not conform to your moral standards."
Xu Le was silent.
Huai Caoshi was silent as well.
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"Although I don't think you can escape, I don't know why, but I am willing to agree to your request and let that Auntie of yours go this time." Huai Caoshi said expressionlessly, "According to what we said earlier, you have to agree to a condition of mine. Of course, this condition has nothing to do with the war between you and me."
"Okay." Xu Le replied quickly. The sweat on his back had already drenched his entire body, flowing across his wounds. It was extremely painful.
"I have seen your files many times and know what kind of role you played in the Federation. You are not a naturally bloodthirsty and violent soldier. You are more like a boring and righteous youth who places morality above his head … This time, for the sake of two citizens of the Empire, you are actually willing to go against your own principles … It seems like you are really scared."
Huai Caoshi narrowed her eyes and said indifferently, "For a person who has never been afraid of death to be scared to this extent, it is truly rare."
Xu Le was silent. Ever since he had confirmed that Auntie Susan could die at any moment, an unprecedented sense of fear had taken over his entire body. Because of this unprecedented fear, he had become crazier than ever. Furthermore, this extreme craziness was hidden in his extreme calmness, and it was clearly transmitted to Huai Caoshi's mind.
It was also because she felt this craziness that Huai Caoshi made her final decision.
"I don't like the so-called tragedies of fate. Those are all dogsh * t, dogsh * t written by Schiller." He lowered his head tiredly and replied, "My life may not be a comedy, but a good person should always have a happy or peaceful ending."
He raised his head and looked straight at the dark wall and the vague figure. He said, "Actually, you're wrong. Many people in the Federation have also misjudged me. Even my closest friends have misjudged me."
"I am afraid of death. There is no one in this world who is not afraid of death. When I was four years old, I was lying in my bedroom, staring blankly at the sometimes gray and sometimes red sky. That day, I fell sick. I was very sad to discover that the scenery around me would not change, but we would fall sick. Of course, I don't care if I feel uncomfortable when I am sick, but the problem is that you will die when you are seriously ill, and you will also die when you are old. After you die, you don't even know what it is to feel uncomfortable. "
He raised his left arm, which was the only arm he could barely raise, and wiped the sweat from his forehead. He lowered his head and said with a smile, "What is death? There is nothing in death. Those little metal toys, the slag in the mine that shines like diamonds, and the little sister who can't speak with a face as cute as an apple — none of them can be seen, touched, or felt."
"There is only darkness and silence."
"No, there is not even darkness and silence."
"I don't know if I have ever existed or done anything. There are no traces to prove that I have ever existed. If I disappear, perhaps there are people who care, but I can't feel their care."
"Because in death, even … I … do not exist."
"This is very scary."
"Too scary."
Xu Le raised his head and said very seriously, "How can you not be afraid of such a scary thing? Those who are not afraid are idiots, or rather, they do not realize how precious it is to have self-awareness. "
"But the problem is that this most terrifying thing is unavoidable. Then what should we do?"
"Continue." Huai Caoshi's eyes narrowed in a weird angle. With a rare smile on her lips, she looked at the man of the Federation who was very different from his usual self.
Xu Le's eyes narrowed, too, as if he was recalling the past and sorting himself. Subconsciously, he waved his hand, as if to drive away the scary prospect, and continued, "Since it is unavoidable, of course, we will have to live more comfortably while we are alive."
"That is probably the reason why we should enjoy the most pleasure while we are alive."
"What kind of pleasure?" Like a cynical subordinate, he shrugged his shoulders, frowned, and quickly dispersed. He said with a smile, "The education rules of human society are too strong and have been deeply rooted in our consciousness. Respect for the old and love the young, loyalty and integrity, these moral views are like a whip. If you touch it, your heart will be whipped. Some people can endure it in exchange for things like money and power, but I don't understand why I have to endure it. I just do things according to these moral requirements of human society. I don't want to be whipped in my life and live with a clear conscience. Isn't that a pleasure?"
"This whip is actually a fire, a fire in my heart. When I see those unfair things, those disgusting things, I can't help but burn them. When I burn those things clean, I feel that my eyes are clear and my mood is good."
"Living like this does not necessarily make my heart strong, but it is comfortable enough."
"I am afraid of death, and I am not a messenger of justice or a young man. I am just a guy who lives according to his likes and dislikes and the whip of morality in order to seek happiness in life."
"But if the whip of morality is whipped in the wrong place one day, and I feel that it is unbearable, then I will no longer believe in the placebo of life and become a monster that I don't even know what I will be."
"The hidden starting point of this state of survival is only to make my life more pleasant. It is the restraint of human civilization for every individual."
"Back to the whip again."
"Fine, what I want to say is that this is not selflessness, but the greatest selfishness."
Xu Le's bright eyes flashed, and he opened his hands and said, "In the end … I have deceived the entire universe. Sometimes, it is a bit embarrassing."
The prison cell was quiet for a long time. Huai Caoshi's voice, full of emotion, rang out, "If there is more of such selfishness, it is not a bad thing."
At this moment, another voice rang out in the quiet room.
"So, it seems that our whole family are selfish people?"
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