Looking at Jun Xuanji, for some reason, Gu Qingfeng felt very uncomfortable in his heart.
Perhaps it was guilt, or perhaps it was self-blame.
Gu Qingfeng felt that he had caused Jun Xuanji to become like this. If he hadn't teased her back then, there wouldn't have been such a love-hate relationship. If he hadn't been so heartless to her back then, Jun Xuanji might not have fallen into depravity and lost herself …
Even now, Gu Qingfeng still didn't know if Jun Xuanji was telling the truth when she said that she had feelings for him back then, or if she had other motives.
But he still felt very sorry for Jun Xuanji.
"Don't feel guilty … and don't … blame yourself."
After drinking a jar of Hell's Impermanence wine, Jun Xuanji stared at Gu Qingfeng and said softly, "I … chose to lose myself … and it has nothing to do with … you."
"Don't … have emotions, don't have any emotions … because emotions … will become your fetters."
"If a person doesn't even have seven emotions and six desires," Gu Qingfeng said lightly, "then what's the point of living? What's the difference between you and a walking corpse? "
"With seven emotions and six desires … there will be fetters. With fetters … it's easy to … graft karma …" Jun Xuanji stared at Gu Qingfeng's dark eyes and said absentmindedly, "Back then … I … perhaps … did it to graft karma with you …"
"Ha!"
Gu Qingfeng laughed. "Even if you did it to graft karma, I'll accept it."
"Why?"
"At least you gave me a very complicated memory, didn't you? Otherwise, wouldn't my life be too monotonous and boring! " Gu Qingfeng jumped down from the plum blossom tree and stretched his back. He looked at the round moon that was faintly discernible in the night sky and said, "Moreover, it is my honor to have such a great beauty like you to take over my karma."
"One day … you will regret it …"
"What day is' one day '?" Gu Qingfeng squatted down and picked up a few plum blossom petals. "I've always lived in the present. As for the future, I'm sorry, I can't be bothered to think about it."
"You … have you really decided to continue ridding yourself of your sins?"
"What else can we do?" Gu Qingfeng played with a few plum blossom petals and shook his head, "I've already fallen into the abyss of original sin, there's no other way. The only way is to climb up. I'll climb out the same way I fell in."
"But … have you ever thought about … a very scary problem? If you want … to get rid of the original sin, you have to understand the original sin … and … when you truly understand what the original sin is, it also means … that you have completely fallen in … and can no longer … climb out …"
"There's an old saying that I'm not sure if you've heard of it." Gu Qingfeng replied, "Put yourself in a hopeless situation and fight to live. If I want to get rid of the original sin, I have to understand what the true original sin is. As for whether I can get rid of the original sin after understanding the true original sin, I have to break it and then establish it …"
After pausing for a moment, Gu Qingfeng continued, "Let's leave it up to fate. No matter what the outcome is, I have to take a gamble. Life is a gamble. What if I win this gamble? Even if I lose in the end, it's still a loss. At least, I've tried my best and won't regret it or have any regrets. That's enough. It can be considered as an answer to my heart."
Looking at Gu Qingfeng, Jun Xuanji shook her head slightly and said, "You can't win … you'll definitely lose."
"Sister, I haven't even started betting and you're already criticizing me? Why? Do you have so little confidence in me? "
"When you … decided to rid yourself of the original sin, you've already lost …"
"What do you mean?"
"Because when you … truly understand the original sin, you'll … discover … that you've already become the original sin … you've already become the original sin … how can you get rid of the original sin? Can you … get rid of yourself? "
Hearing this.
Gu Qingfeng didn't continue playing with the plum blossom petals. He casually crushed them and scattered them on the ground. He stared at Jun Xuanji and said, "How can you be so sure that after truly understanding the original sin, you'll definitely become the original sin?"
"The me standing … in front of you … is the original sin."
When Jun Xuanji said this, Gu Qingfeng wasn't too surprised because he had already guessed it. He said, "In order to get rid of the original sin, you once sought the original sin, but later discovered that you've already become the original sin … so you chose to bury your soul and bury yourself after becoming the original sin, right?"
"Maybe it is, maybe it isn't … I … forgot …"
Gu Qingfeng continued, "After burying the original sin's soul, you used a wisp of your consciousness to reincarnate … hoping to start anew. But you probably didn't expect … that after reincarnating, you'd meet me, a person of the original sin. You also didn't expect to have karma with me. When you awakened the memories of your previous life, you discovered that after burying the original sin's soul, you still couldn't get rid of the original sin … so you chose to lose yourself … right?"
Jun Xuanji repeated those words and said absentmindedly, "Maybe, maybe not … I … forgot …"
"Whether it was karma or fate that brought us together, I don't know. The only thing I know is that … there's no karma between us." Gu Qingfeng said calmly, "Perhaps it was the original sin that caused you and I to meet, or perhaps it was already destined … Who knows, who knows?"
Silence.
Silence again.
Jun Xuanji didn't speak. Gu Qingfeng didn't speak either.
The plum blossoms were falling, the breeze was blowing, time was passing, and the night seemed to be disappearing.
"Since that's the case …"
After a long time, Jun Xuanji spoke again and asked, "Will you still try to get rid of … the original sin?"
"Of course. I've said before that I have no other choice … this is the only path left. I've also said that I've decided to take this gamble. It doesn't matter if I win or lose, but I have to give myself an explanation."
"What if … in the end … you become the original sin?"
"Then I'll become the original sin."
"What if … in the end … you can't get rid of the original sin?"
"Then I won't be able to get rid of it."
"What if … in the end … you get lost too …"
"Then I'll get lost."
Jun Xuanji stared at Gu Qingfeng. After a long time, she asked, "Why?"
"There's no why." Gu Qingfeng also stared at Jun Xuanji and smiled. "I want to become the original sin and get lost with you. Is this reason sufficient?"
Hearing this, Jun Xuanji's faintly discernible figure suddenly trembled. A complicated look flashed across her blurred and hesitant eyes. Then, she turned around and closed her eyes. "You will … regret it …"
"I've never known what regret is in my life."
As he spoke, Gu Qingfeng walked over and hugged Jun Xuanji from behind. But suddenly, Jun Xuanji's figure disappeared like a bubble. She disappeared without a trace, as if she had never existed.
"Hahaha!"
Gu Qingfeng laughed loudly. Although he didn't know where Jun Xuanji went, he knew that Jun Xuanji could definitely hear him. He shouted into the night sky, "Jun Xuanji, wait for me. I'll do my best to end everything that you want to end. If I can't, I'll also become the original sin and get lost with you … Then we'll continue our previous fate, hahahaha!"
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