Time continued to pass and the start of the BoB Tournament was approaching bit by bit.
Just as Rozen was comforting Yasna and the others, in a cafe in Tokyo, Shi Nai was also holding a cup of coffee and looking at the passers-by outside the window. Unknowingly, she fell into a daze.
"Miss Chaoda … Miss Chaoda … Miss Chaoda …!"
After an unknown period of time, such a voice came into Shi Nai's ears.
"Ah!"
Shi Nai came back to her senses and looked opposite her.
There, Gong Er sat helplessly.
"What are you thinking about? Miss Chaoda? "
Gong Er looked at Shi Nai with worry in his eyes.
"I … I'm not thinking about anything!"
Shi Nai forced a smile at Gong Er and denied it, but it made the worry in Gong Er's eyes thicker.
"Since I asked you out, you've lost your senses and spaced out a few times. It was the same just now. You suddenly stared at the scenery outside the window in a daze. It's not like you at all." Gong Er looked at Shi Nai hesitantly. Finally, he said, "Did something happen? If you need my help, please let me know. It's okay. "
Gong Er showed his closeness and gentleness to Shi Nai as usual.
This made Shi Nai blame herself in her heart. How could she be so abnormal and make Gong Er worry?
Actually, Shi Nai also knew that her current state was not right. She was not like her usual self at all. She was so straightforward and unreasonable.
However, Shi Nai just couldn't control herself.
In his mind, the conversation from the day before appeared once again.
"If I don't kill him, it will be my turn to be killed. Even the people around me will be killed."
That young man made such a declaration to her directly.
"So, I have to kill him. I have to kill him no matter what. Even if I have to do it again, I will still make the same choice."
These words set off a huge wave in Shi Nai's heart. She couldn't calm down at all.
Because these words resonated with Shi Nai's heart.
Shi Nai thought like this.
(Back then, wasn't I the same …)
As a result, she became a girl who had to constantly fight to overcome the biggest weakness in her heart.
However, Shi Nai was the same as Rozen.
Even if Shi Nai knew that things would turn out like this, he would still make the same choice if he had to choose again.
The reason was simple.
(If I don't do that, then it will be my turn to be killed, and even the people around me will be killed …)
In that case, apart from killing him like Rozen, did Shi Nai have a second choice?
No.
Therefore, Shi Nai did not regret making that choice at all.
However, there was one thing, really only one thing …
(If only someone could understand …)
Shi Nai couldn't help but think about this a few times.
Over the years, many people had said to Shi Nai, "I understand. It must be very painful. It must have been hard on you." However, Shi Nai kept repeating these words in her heart as she listened.
"Have you killed anyone?"
If not, then how can you say that you understand?
This made it very difficult for Shi Nai to trust anyone, which was why she had always been so unsociable.
But now …
(If it's him …)
If it was that young man who could say those words that resonated with her, then she would definitely be able to understand, right?
Understand how painful it is for me.
It was because of this thought that Shi Nai couldn't help but chase after that young man and talk to him.
No, even now, Shi Nai really wanted to talk to that young man again.
She wanted to ask him, since he had never regretted it and would still make the same choice again, then why was he able to maintain himself and not show such an embarrassing weakness like her?
Was it because he was strong?
It must be, right?
It was because he was so strong that he could overcome such things and be so calm and collected even when he was crazily killing in the Land of Death.
Then, here came the question.
(How can I become as strong as him?)
Shi Nai kept thinking about such questions, which was why she was absent-minded so many times today.
(What should I …)
Shi Nai couldn't help but be lost in thought again. She didn't notice that Gongji, who was sitting opposite her, was looking at her with more and more worried eyes.
Under such worry, Gongji's eyes were also filled with uncomfortable emotions.
It couldn't be helped.
"… Is it because you met that person that Asaita-san became so strange?"
Gongji asked in a low voice.
"Wh … What?"
Shi Nai was slightly stunned.
Looking at Shi Nai like this, Gongji's eyes became even more uncomfortable.
"I'm actually a little worried." Gongji said in a disappointed tone, "Because Asaita-san is a little different than usual. It makes me feel like you might run away to somewhere far away at any time."
Such words made Shi Nai feel a little uncomfortable.
That was because this was no longer a conversation between friends.
Shi Nai felt that the current Gongji didn't seem to be yearning for her as a friend. Instead, he seemed to be yearning for a higher level of relationship.
This made Shi Nai feel a little uncomfortable more or less.
At that moment, Shi Nai could only answer perfunctorily.
"Where can I go? Aren't I still here? "
Shi Nai was already feeling a little confused.
But this made Gongji look at her, and his eyes began to burn.
"I only hope that Asaita-san is still the same person as before." Gongji's voice seemed to be filled with heat as he said, "You're still the same cold and aloof person who won't be shaken by anything and is very strong."
"Is … Is that so?" Shi Nai couldn't help but look away and said, "Maybe you're just mistaken. I'm not strong at all."
Speaking of this, Shi Nai's tone also became depressed.
"You know that too, right?" Shi Nai said in a low voice, "I have a fatal weakness that can't be called strong. As long as that weakness is still there, I will always be the me that lived in the past."
It was rare for Shi Nai to reveal her inner thoughts.
However, in exchange, Gongji's response became even more enthusiastic.
"But, Asaita-san in the game is different." Gongji said eagerly, "Asaita-san in the game can freely control powerful weapons, and you're such a powerful sniper. I was the one who brought you to play GGO, but you've completely surpassed me without me realizing it. Even when I persuaded you to allocate your ability points to AGI (Dexterity), Asaita-san didn't completely listen to my advice. Instead, you raised your STR (Muscle Strength) according to your actual situation."
Like this, Shi Nai was already one of the strongest players in GGO.
At least, among the snipers, there was no player who was stronger than Shi Nai.
"I think that's Asaita-san's true self."
Gongji's voice and gaze became more and more passionate.
"That cold sniper is the real Asaita-san. I've always believed that."
Hearing this, Shi Nai slowly lowered her eyes.
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