People will always grow, and some of the feelings that were originally ignored will slowly start to grow in their hearts. Just like Nangong Zhe, Nangong Rou, who was sitting next to Nangong Rou, when she was young, she enjoyed her brother's hard work for her. Even though the days were so difficult, for Nangong Rou, it was her most cherished time.
But as time passed, Nangong Zhe, who she and her grandfather had high hopes for, did indeed show his brilliance, and let the whole ninja world give him the title of "Yama".
Originally, Nangong Rou thought that she would still be happy for her brother's achievements like before. But things didn't go as she wished. Nangong Rou didn't know why there were a lot of feelings in her heart that she didn't have before. And these complicated emotions became stronger after the appearance of Mashiro. In the beginning, Mashiro was still very immature and blank. Whether it was for life or for herself, she didn't have any understanding of herself.
But slowly, Mashiro changed little by little. Mashiro, who was originally a little natural, began to slowly learn how to cook, wash, and take care of a family. Nangong Rou was also one of the beneficiaries of this change, but in her heart, she was very unwilling to accept such care.
So, Nangong Rou also forced herself to change. Nangong Rou, who was so lively and active, changed, became more gentle, became more caring, and became like another Mashiro. But the more she changed, the more confused Nangong Rou's heart became. Because Nangong Rou found that no matter how she changed, there was no way she could be as careful and gentle as Mashiro.
Mashiro was like the incarnation of the word "gentle". Every day, he was as gentle as water, taking care of Nangong Zhe, taking care of Nangong Rou, and taking care of Little Linger, who was like the original Nangong Rou. What kind of feeling was that? If a name had to be given, perhaps only a word like 'sense of crisis' would be appropriate, right?
When Nangong Zhe said that she would always be his family, Nangong Rou didn't know why, but her heart was filled with an inexplicable resistance. It seemed that she didn't want to be Nangong Zhe's family. Nangong Rou had something more that she longed for. But these were words that Nangong Rou couldn't say, and Nangong Rou didn't dare to say it.
Nangong Rou's hand that was holding the green jade gourd tightened. The originally cool and gentle feeling of the green jade gourd made her feel as if she was holding a piece of ice that would never melt. The coldness invaded her palm, attacked Nangong Rou's blood vessels, and eroded Nangong Rou's heart.
Silence, Nangong Rou could only remain silent. Everything passed in silence. Nangong Zhe drank the wine that his sister poured for him, and Nangong Rou poured wine for Nangong Zhe again and again in a somewhat mechanical manner. Finally, Nangong Zhe seemed to feel that it was enough, so he gently covered his wine cup with his hand. Obviously, he didn't want his sister to continue pouring wine for him. Nangong Rou immediately understood. She plugged the green jade gourd's stopper back and turned around to walk back into the house.
Nangong Zhe stood on the eaves, enjoying the cold night breeze. Mashiro also slowly walked to Nangong Zhe's side.
"You heard everything?"
Nangong Zhe knew that Mashiro had come to his side, so he asked Mashiro. Nangong Zhe's voice sounded a little weak, and it was unknown whether it was because of the wine or because of his emotions. It was as if he had no energy at all.
"Actually, I know myself very well. I'm a complete idiot when it comes to matters of the heart. I don't understand why my sister and I have become like this. It puzzles me and makes me blame myself. She's my sister, but I didn't fulfill my responsibility to take good care of her … "
"It's not that you don't understand …" Mashiro didn't sit respectfully beside Nangong Zhe like before. Instead, he leaned lazily against the eaves and sat opposite Nangong Zhe, "Actually, you know what Nangong Rou is thinking about, what I'm thinking about, and even what Little Linger is thinking about."
"But you chose not to understand. Because if you understand, you have to face it. If you understand, you have to accept change. But you don't like change the most. It can even be said that you're the most afraid of change. You only hope that your life can be as you imagine it to be, unchanging and peaceful. "
"So, you chose to escape. Even Rou'er, Little Linger, and I have to escape with you. This isn't a big deal. Who doesn't want to escape from something? Even if you're called 'Yama', a role that's close to being the judge of life, you're still an ordinary person in this world. "
"Your pressure and your sense of responsibility have already exhausted you. So, escaping isn't shameful. It's even somewhat effective. But, some things have to be faced in the end. So, although I don't hate you for escaping, it's best that you don't escape for too long … "
After saying this, Mashiro also left. Nangong Zhe knew that Mashiro was telling the truth. Did he really not see through it? Did he really not understand it at all?
Emotions were a very important difference between humans and animals. Because of their desire to survive and reproduce, animals begin to act on their own. On the other hand, humans wrapped their bestial nature with a layer of chains called emotions, which made them different from animals.
But, weren't emotions also a weapon that hurt humans? Nangong Zhe was afraid. As a person who had been injured countless times on the battlefield and had been on the brink of death countless times, he was very afraid at this moment. Nangong Zhe didn't want to face it because once he did, there was a possibility that he would be injured. Nangong Zhe didn't want to participate in such a gamble.
But Mashiro was right. The path of escape would eventually lead to the end. He had to face it eventually …
As he thought about it, Nangong Zhe's heart became particularly irritable. Nangong Zhe, who had been restraining himself from drinking, took out his green jade gourd again. This time, he didn't use a wine cup. Instead, he poured it directly into his mouth. Nangong Zhe didn't know how much of the precious Drunken Immortal Wine was wasted because of his rough actions. However, Nangong Zhe didn't feel any heartache or regret. Instead, he continued to drink the wine in his mouth.
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