Chapter 1494
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The smile in Lu Jinshen's eyes instantly faded. He pursed his thin lips and did not say a word.
Tong Qiao buttoned up her shirt and looked up at him. "You're still trying to hide it from me?"
Lu Jinshen and Tong Qiao looked at each other without saying a word.
Tong Qiao was furious. He was still trying to hide it from her. He was still trying to hide it from her. She put her hands on Lu Jinshen's side and tried to get up.
Lu Jinshen's large hand pressed down on her waist and refused to let go.
Tong Qiao pulled hard on Lu Jinshen's strong arm and he instinctively relaxed his grip. Tong Qiao got up from his body and turned to walk towards the door. She was so fast that it was as though she wanted to step out of the ward.
"Yufei has depression."
The deep voice behind her made Tong Qiao stop in her tracks. She stood there for two seconds before she turned around and looked at Lu Jinshen, waiting for him to continue.
Lu Jinshen sat up on the bed and patted the edge of the bed. "Come sit here."
Tong Qiao stood there without moving. She was still angry. If she hadn't left, would he not have told her?
"I didn't want to not tell you. I was just thinking about how to tell you," Lu Jinshen explained.
Tong Qiao stood there for a few seconds before she walked back and sat down on the edge of the bed. Lu Jinshen was a patient, so she wouldn't really leave.
Lu Jinshen held Tong Qiao's small hand and squeezed it gently. "Sheng Difei said that Sheng Yufei had depression not long after Zihua left, but because she was pregnant, she couldn't take medicine and her condition worsened. She almost committed suicide, but Sheng Difei saved her in time. Sheng Difei then told Zihua's parents about Sheng Yufei's pregnancy. You know what happened after that."
Tong Qiao frowned. "So Sheng Yufei didn't say that she was pregnant herself?"
Lu Jinshen nodded. "I never suspected that Yufei would have feelings for me because I saw with my own eyes how much she loved Zihua. Back then, Yufei was the one who took the initiative to pursue Zihua. Although Zihua also liked Yufei, he felt that in our line of work, our lives were always in our pockets. He didn't want to hold Yufei back, so he kept rejecting her."
"Then how did they end up together again?" Tong Qiao asked.
Lu Jinshen reminisced. "No one would have thought that Yufei could persist for so long. She pursued him for three years. Many people in the army secretly called Yufei sister-in-law and admitted that Yufei was Zihua's woman. Zihua was the only one who didn't admit it. That was until we completed an important mission. During the celebration party, everyone helped Yufei get Zihua drunk. After Zihua got drunk, he confessed that he liked Yufei too much and didn't want to hold her back. The two of them hugged and cried. That night, they were together."
Tong Qiao hadn't expected Sheng Yufei to be so infatuated. But … "Since she liked Zihua so much, why did she fall in love with you?"
Lu Jinshen didn't answer Tong Qiao's question directly. Instead, he said, "Sheng Difei said that Yufei slowly walked out of her depression two months after she came to the Lu family. During those two months, I knew that Yufei wasn't in a good mood. She would often sit on the bed alone and stare at the window in a daze. Once she sat there, she would sit for an entire day. Sometimes, she would hug her blanket and cry until she fell asleep."
Lu Jinshen's face was full of self-blame. "I was too careless. I only thought that she hadn't recovered from Zihua's departure. I didn't know that she had depression, and it was very serious."
Tong Qiao held Lu Jinshen's hand and comforted him. "This isn't your fault. If she wanted to hide it from you, how would you have known?"
"Qiao 'er, did you know? I've been married to her for five years. When we were together, it was either Ziqian or Zihua. " Lu Jinshen's elegant hand pinched the space between his brows. "From her words and actions, I could tell that she missed Zihua very much. So, I didn't believe that she would have other thoughts about me."
Tong Qiao suddenly remembered that she was the one who had called Lu Jinshen and let Lu Jinshen hear Sheng Yufei say that she liked him. Could she have done something wrong?
Lu Jinshen adjusted his emotions for a while before continuing in his deep voice, "Sheng Difei said that Yufei only treated me as a replacement for Zihua, and that Ziqian and I were the only sustenance for her feelings. He also said that ever since I married you, Yufei's emotions slowly began to fluctuate between good and bad. It was only when I took Ziqian away from her that she completely broke down. That's why she did something like betraying us."
Sheng Yufei only saw Lu Jinshen as a substitute for Xu Zihua? She had never loved Lu Jinshen?
This theory was too sudden. Tong Qiao found it hard to believe. "Sheng Difei might have said this to help Sheng Yufei get away with it. Or, Sheng Yufei's death made Sheng Difei angry and want to take revenge on you. He deliberately said this to make you feel guilty."
"When Yufei died, her emotions were very off. She wasn't like her usual self at all. I went to her place and found medication to control her depression. Regardless of whether her feelings for me were real or not, it was true that she was suffering from depression, but I didn't realize it. Zihua died for me, and now Yufei …" The pain in Lu Jinshen's eyes was obvious, and his expression was full of self-blame.
He raised his hand and pinched the space between his eyebrows. "Ziqian saw his own mother die in front of his eyes. He hates me. He hates me for not saving his mother. So from that day onwards, he ignored me and stopped calling me Dad …"
Tong Qiao was shocked. When she sent Lu Ziqian off at the station today, Lu Ziqian did not call for Lu Jinshen. She found it strange, but she never thought that Lu Ziqian would hate Lu Jinshen because of what happened to Sheng Yufei. She only thought that Lu Ziqian had been traumatized recently, and he had always been afraid of Lu Jinshen. So … "Could it be that you're overthinking it?"
Lu Jinshen hoped that he was overthinking it. However, he had watched Lu Ziqian grow up. How could he not see the change in the way Lu Ziqian looked at him? But in order not to worry Tong Qiao, he nodded slightly. "Maybe I'm overthinking it."
Tong Qiao looked at Lu Jinshen, who was in so much pain, and her heart ached. She hugged him gently. "Don't be like this. None of this is your fault. You've already done very well. After Zihua left, you did your best to take care of his wife and child. You even sacrificed your first marriage. Although Sheng Yufei was sick, she did do a lot of things to hurt you and me. Perhaps this was her fate. She went to find Zihua. This may be a relief for her. "
Lu Jinshen smelled the faint fragrance on Tong Qiao's body and listened to her softly trying to comfort him. The frustration that had been building up in his heart for the past few days seemed to slowly dissipate from his heart.
"Ji Ji told me about what happened that day. You didn't not want to save Sheng Yufei. You just wanted to buy time for the sniper. Ziqian is still young and doesn't know anything. When he's older, he'll understand … In my heart, you're my god. You're indomitable and you don't let anyone down … After a while, when Ziqian calms down, let's go to Uncle Xu's place to see him, okay?"
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