Compared to the ending, when I first met you, it was so beautiful. — — Qiye
I never knew how to love her, I only knew how to hurt her, and I never had her.
Now that I think about it, perhaps it was all my fault. I let her down.
I also accepted the ending.
But when others called her Empress, my heart would unconsciously twitch and I would feel suffocated.
She was still the Empress, she still lived in the palace, but she would never stand by my side again.
Rong Jing put me under house arrest in a palace. He didn't deliberately humiliate me, but I felt that this was the greatest humiliation to me.
The winner was king and the loser was in the wrong.
But … …
I would always think of what happened when I was young. Father loved her a lot, and because of this, everyone was good to her.
The Crown Prince was good to her, Second Brother was good to her, and even the Eldest Princess was good to her.
Only I … …
Only I didn't treat her well, only I didn't curry favor with her.
But she might not know that I also did it. It wasn't to curry favor, but because I couldn't help it.
At that time, my status was low. Although I was a prince, I was even worse than the sons of many ministers.
She was high above. Even if she wasn't Father's biological daughter, she was still so dazzling.
I remember that it was a snow banquet.
That day, it was snowing heavily and the palace was holding a banquet. It seemed like it was her first time drinking, and she ran to the imperial garden with a red face.
Father was worried that she would get hurt, so he sent many people to follow her, but she still ran around and threw herself into my arms.
That was the first time I hugged her, and the only time I hugged her.
Her crystal-clear eyes looked at me, making my heart tremble for the first time.
It was like all the thoughts in my heart had disappeared, like a spring breeze.
At that moment, I was shaken.
If there wasn't so much power in this life, and I only had one person, perhaps it would be a beautiful thing.
But my status … … compared to her, the difference was so big.
It was probably because this feeling was too strong, making me feel like I should have everything that didn't belong to me.
But I had to be strong, strong enough to overshadow her, and then have her stand by my side.
Standing there, I was the only one who could see the invisible position.
Then, she would make everyone else envious of her.
But the more time passed, the more I realized that I was gradually blinded by the so-called power.
If I hadn't used her, if I hadn't used her to help me, perhaps I wouldn't have been able to obtain the throne.
The Crown Prince was kind and generous. He had always been diligent and loved the people.
I know he's not bad, but there can only be one King in the Qi Kingdom, and that must be me, no one else.
I used her step by step. I knew that my father loved her dearly, I knew that she had a tiger tally worth three hundred thousand taels, and I knew that she would never reject me.
I had hesitated for a long time about sending her away from Rong. At that time, I kept telling myself, "Don't worry.
Just this once, just this last time. As long as she gets Rong Guo's important secret, I will definitely bring her back.
Then let her be by my side forever …
Unfortunately …
Unfortunately, I let her go this time, but I can't wait for her to come back.
No, she did come back … but she was no longer by my side.
I've never regretted any of the decisions I've made in my life, but I've never told her my feelings for her.
If, if there was a chance to start over … …
I hoped that I could go back to the night of the snow banquet, the moment she bumped into my arms, I said to her, "Love at first sight, no deep feelings. Next year, Jin Xiu, will you marry me?"
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