【There are some things that can only be understood after experiencing them.
Little did they know, it was already too late to understand them.
I only regret that if I had understood them earlier, would things be different now?
— — — Ge Qianqian】
It's been ten years since the modeling competition, and I've been in this world for eleven years.
The first year was muddle-headed, but I didn't think I was paranoid at that time.
Maybe if it was someone else, they might not be as rational as me.
Reading novels is my biggest hobby, I read them in class, after class, and before going to bed.
This was the first time that I had seen a character with the same name as me. I had an unknown fondness and expectation for her, but her ending and ending made my heart ache and anger, and even more so, I was filled with rage.
I think that people who like to read novels will often put themselves in the shoes of a character in the novel, and use her perspective to taste the character's experience.
Naturally, I was no exception.
After becoming Ge Qianqian, I had a deeper understanding of the helplessness of having someone who was better than you in every aspect. No matter how hard you tried, you would never be able to turn things around.
Plus, I knew the plot, so I chose to steal everything that belonged to her.
No, it should be said that when I saw the novel, I was jealous of the female lead.
Now, the hatred and jealousy just doubled, but I couldn't control it, and I didn't want to control it.
Every time I attended an event with her, people would always talk about how good Xunmi Wen was, and how good Xunmi Wen was.
Not only that, but at the end, they would also say that you still have a lot to learn from Xunmi Wen.
Or, to be able to have such a good teacher and helpful friend, I should cherish it.
I was like Xunmi Wen's little follower, a little tail, a little shadow, never getting a proper look.
I would never be mentioned by others, and every time I was mentioned, I would just be treated as a stepping stone for Xunmi Wen.
I don't know if others can understand this feeling, but I felt it was unfair.
I was jealous, and I couldn't accept it.
They only saw that I wasn't as good as Xunmi Wen, but why didn't they see that I was already better than many others?
Why do you only compare me with Xunmi? Why don't you compare me with a few others who are not as good as me?
Why do I have to become the target of ridicule every time, while Xunmi Wen always stands at the top?
At that time, I didn't understand why. I only thought that once Xunmi was gone, I would become the center of attention.
I already had thoughts of revenge in my heart, and they started to expand and invade my mind. Slowly, I took the first step.
She seduced her boyfriend, Bi He, who was also the male lead of this book.
I liked her a lot when I read the novel. Perhaps it was because I was looking at it from Ge Qianqian's point of view.
The male lead was good to the female lead in all kinds of ways. He loved, spoiled, and was gentle. Ge Qianqian also liked him carefully.
But now, Ge Qianqian had become me. I wouldn't be so stupid to think that I wasn't as good as Xunmi and that I wasn't good enough for Bi He.
I didn't hesitate to snatch it. The sweetness was really sweet, so sweet that it made me feel like I was floating.
I thought of all kinds of ways to coax him to scheme against Xunmi with me. The first step was also very successful.
She shouldn't have been able to get up, but who knew that she would be lucky enough to turn the situation around and become the victim.
It was also because of this incident that I saw Bi He's character clearly.
He was irritable, fickle, male chauvinistic, and liked to hit women.
Many times, I couldn't help but wonder if the male lead who was gentle to the female lead was the same person.
Or was it because I wasn't the female lead, so I was destined to not be liked by the male lead?
The more I refused to accept it, the more my anger and anger became.
Just when my rationality was about to collapse, I met him, the person I was willing to love for the rest of my life.
Even if I lost both my legs for him, as a model, I understood what it meant to lose both your legs. But I never regretted it.
Only because he was worth it.
He would quietly accompany me when I was frustrated, and make me happy.
He would firmly stand by my side when I was despised by everyone.
He would use his connections everywhere, and even knelt in front of his parents, begging them to help pressure the organizers to not remove her from the competition.
He would also secretly help me threaten the organizers when I was overestimating myself for the first place.
After being rejected, he still felt that he couldn't help her because he didn't have the ability.
When Bi He drove his car crazily towards me, he didn't hesitate to push himself away and use his flesh and blood to block for me.
How could I not love such a man? How could I not do my best to be with him?
At that time, I was almost desperate. Seeing that he was about to be hit by the car, I scrambled up from the ground and wanted to rush over.
It was a very short road, but it was like the distance between the sea and the sky. I couldn't reach him for a long time.
Fortunately, Wen XunMi's car had knocked Bi He's car aside, saving his life.
At that moment, my legs went weak and I knelt on the ground, tears falling all over the floor.
I was so glad that I didn't scheme against Xunmi.
I was so thankful that she didn't turn a blind eye to what had just happened because of what I had done in the past.
I felt even more ashamed. I also understood why Xunmi was the main character back then, why she was everyone's favorite.
It was because there was always something about her that you liked very much, something that you wanted to chase, something that you wanted to get close to.
It was just that she was blinded by jealousy and unwillingness in the beginning, so she couldn't see anything.
Bi He was sent to prison. Xunmi and her husband went abroad and stepped onto another stage of her life.
I also stepped onto the screen again. I still wanted to prove to the world that even if I wasn't as good as Xunmi, I was still outstanding.
I experienced a lot in four years. Just as I was about to step onto the international stage, a turning point appeared.
Bi He was released from prison. He couldn't find Xunmi to take revenge on, so he actually chose to make a move on Yu Chen.
The moment I hugged Yu Chen, I smiled: "Yu Chen, in this life, I can finally do something for you."
I thought that I was going to die. Maybe it really was that saying, 'a scourge lives for a thousand years'.
Only my legs were crushed and completely crippled. Other than that, there were no other problems.
When I opened my eyes again, I knew that it was time to leave that flashy circle.
People can't do wrong because in the end, they will pay for it.
No matter how much time has passed, a debt is a debt. Sooner or later, it will be paid back.
Xunmi, I'm sorry, but I'm still jealous of you. It's just that this jealousy is not mixed with any other factors.
"Why are you out in the wind again? What if you catch a cold?" Xie Yu Chen walked into the garden and gently carried me inside.
No matter how much time changes, it can't change the feelings between us.
Yu Chen, thank you for loving me.
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