[Don't doubt your own charm, and don't be jealous of other people's talents. If it's yours, it's yours. If it's not yours, it'll be taken away in the end.
I only hope that I'll be able to take responsibility for my actions while I'm still alive.
— — — Shao Zhanggui]
When did I start doubting myself? It was when Duan Zhimu appeared.
His excellence, his handsomeness, and his identity gave him a lot of advantages.
Before he appeared, I would always be the most eye-catching person in the crowd.
But after he appeared, I became a foil. A man shouldn't care about these things, but from a certain perspective, it only made me care more.
Charm is the most important factor no matter where you are, and I lost to him.
After returning to China, this situation didn't slow down at all. He walked further and further away, but I stayed in the same place.
When I met that girl called Jin Jia Jia, I thought she was interesting, but it was also because I knew she was the same kind of person as me.
I helped her and provided her with other avenues because I wanted to see if the final result would be as he guessed.
I watched her jealousy towards Xunmi, watched her frame Ji Xunmi, and watched her beautiful face gradually become ugly.
At that moment, I understood that there was no need to wait for the final result. The answer was already out.
But once the game started, there was no chance to stop halfway.
As the game continued to develop, I seemed to see myself in Jin Jia Jia.
Why was she jealous of Xunmi? Because Xunmi's appearance took away her attention.
Why was she unwilling? Because Xunmi didn't have to do anything to get what she couldn't get even if she worked hard.
Why did she hate Ji XunMi? Because Ji XunMi had everything that every girl wanted: intelligence, talent, beauty, family background, and a lover.
It wasn't an exaggeration to say that Xunmi was the public enemy of women. She was too outstanding, so outstanding that people unconsciously set their eyes on her.
I was the same. The first time we met, I met her with the person I wanted to defeat.
But she only looked back at that person. What was I thinking at that time? It was indeed the case.
The second time we met, I was also with that person. This time, I was the one who appeared first, but her gaze was still on him.
What should I say? There was nothing much to say. After all, I had already expected this.
He still remembered that he had asked her a question. Was there really such a lucky person who was blessed by the heavens?
Her answer was so straightforward that at least I understood what she meant.
She was saying that even if Jin Jiajia and I became that kind of people, we would be slowly swallowed up by the darkness.
She's really a special person, so special that I want to chase after her.
Fortunately, I knew I had no chance, so I didn't waste my time.
When Jin Jiajia told me that she wanted to give it her all, I nodded in agreement. It was time for the final result.
I had already calculated the outcome, and I was indeed going according to that. Unfortunately, I still made a slight miscalculation.
I thought that person would kill me or wouldn't let me return to my country so easily.
But I didn't expect that not only did I come back, but other than that beating, there was nothing else.
Although the family gave a lot of conditions, it didn't seem to be worth it in comparison.
He couldn't guess or understand what the other party was thinking, and what he wanted to do.
But soon, I found out that there was a problem with the family's business that couldn't cope with it.
The partners broke the contract one after another, and they were investigated for tax evasion and so on.
Fast and accurate. This was something that he would do, and only he would do it. After all, the family's strength was also very strong.
It took more than a month to suppress the matter a little, giving the family some time to breathe.
At that time, I received the news that the two of them were engaged. I quietly went, and the moment I saw the two of them, it was as if all the good things were added to them.
But at that moment, I couldn't feel any jealousy or envy, and I didn't feel any unwillingness.
It wasn't that I couldn't compare to that man, but I went in the wrong direction from the beginning, and used the wrong method.
I don't know where it came from, but everyone's appearance in this world was special to some people.
And those people would be happy, sad, or have all kinds of negative emotions because of his appearance, but they wouldn't deny the existence of this person.
As long as he looked at the same thing from a different angle, he would find that, in fact, many times, some things were really, really beautiful.
I chose to do it this way, and the effect was really good.
Today was the day I left this land again, and I might not come back in the future.
"Number 1865, someone came to visit."
Sitting on the chair outside, I waited for the person who was as lost as me, but not as lucky as me.
In fact, until now, I didn't know if she would have become like this if I hadn't interfered in her life.
Maybe it would be better than now, or maybe it would be worse than now. No one knows what hasn't happened yet, right?
"Jiajia, are you okay?" Looking at the person in front of me with a sallow face and completely cloudy eyes, I almost couldn't recognize her.
She seemed to be very emotional when she saw me, but she didn't say anything for a long time.
I was a little confused, what's wrong? "Is there something wrong?"
"You … can come to see me, I'm very happy, thank you."
Also, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for the previous life, and this life.
But we can't go back, your future won't have me, and I don't have any future.
"We are friends after all, I'm going to leave here, and I don't know when we will meet again in the future."
"Jiajia, stay here, don't think too much, when you finish your sentence, go to another place and live a good life."
Although I wanted to help her, I realized that I couldn't do so.
They had already missed once, and they couldn't continue to make mistakes.
Some things have to be learned, only then will you remember it firmly, I always told myself.
But I didn't expect that she would choose to commit suicide in the end.
When I left the police station, I went to A University, and it was really a place with a strong student atmosphere. It was really good to be able to relax people's mood.
A beautiful place, the memories left behind should also be beautiful.
Goodbye, my past, goodbye, the us that can't go back.
I don't know what the future will be like, but I know that my future will be very beautiful.
Because without worrying about nothing, I won't be bound by superficial things.
Now, I'm a fish in the vast sea, and a bird in the sky.
[The world is fine, but people worry about nothing.]
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