[What is jealousy? It's a state of mind. I never knew that life after letting go of jealousy would be so beautiful.
Unfortunately, I understood it too late.
I'm sorry for being late, my brother.
Yan Chongjun]
The Yan family in the Flower Market was one of the top families. All the men were praised, except for me.
It could even be said that very few people in the Flower Market knew that the Yan family actually had two sons and not one.
How did all of this happen?
Looking at the dirty and messy cell in front of me, looking at my roommate who was trembling because of his arrival, I let out a sarcastic smile.
Not to him, but to myself.
It seemed that my actions were so cruel that even my roommate was afraid. After all, this was a prison for serious criminals.
Suddenly, tiredness was like pure white snow, slowly cleansing my murky world.
"Hey, let me tell you a story."
Not caring if the person opposite me was willing to listen, I began to talk about a scene that was deeply etched in his bones.
"There was a little boy who was caught when he was three years old because of his mother's carelessness.
At that time, the kidnappers didn't realize that his family background was very strong. They thought that he was just an ordinary child and were prepared to sell him.
When the little boy's father and grandfather heard the news, they rushed to rescue him.
Fortunately, the little boy was saved. However, he was also unlucky because he didn't listen to the kidnappers during that period and was beaten up badly.
He was locked up in a small dark room, deprived of food, whipped, slapped, punched, kicked, and many more.
This created a huge shadow in the little boy's heart. During his hospitalization, even his father didn't dare to come into contact with him.
Only his brother who was four years older than him could say a few simple words to him.
If that was the case, he might have been able to slowly get better.
However, the woman who left him behind, who should be called mother, came looking for him in a panic. Seeing him like this, she thought that it was his brother's fault.
She started to beat his brother in front of him.
His already fragile nerves were once again beaten up, and the little boy completely broke down.
He started to reject everyone and only lived in his own mental world.
Ten years passed just like that. During those ten years, he was muddle-headed.
Other than his grandfather, father, and brother, the number of times he saw the person called mother could be counted with two hands.
When he needed his mother the most, she wasn't there.
When he didn't need her, she came back in the name of caring for him. However, the little boy didn't need her anymore.
Slowly, the little boy grew up. His father didn't like to talk, so the boy thought that his father didn't like him.
Grandpa was serious, and the boy with a gloomy heart thought that Grandpa didn't like him either.
Since they didn't like him, then he wouldn't like them either. This was what he thought at that time.
However, when he saw his grandfather and father praising his brother and smiling so kindly and happily, he felt indignant and jealous.
Why was it that they were all their children and grandchildren, but only their elder brother could receive such treatment?
Especially when a girl walked into his line of sight, he completely exploded.
That girl was really beautiful, not because of her looks, but because of her eyes.
It was like a glass bead, without any impurities. It was so clean that the boy's heart could only hold one person.
He chased after her desperately, trying to get her attention.
She was very gentle and never spoke harshly to him, but as soon as he confessed, she would reject him verbally.
The boy didn't understand. It was only later that he found out that the girl had fallen in love with his brother.
Not long after, she got together with his brother. Jealousy swelled like a balloon.
In the end, he chose to walk the path of hostility.
He learned hypnosis from his grandfather, drugged the girl, and took the opportunity to hypnotize her.
As long as she woke up, the person she fell in love with would be him.
All of this was well planned, but his brother came back early and interrupted, and then the girl disappeared.
In the future, he thought that his brother was the one who targeted him and even set up a death trap.
In the end, it wasn't his brother, but the person who should be called mother who took the girl away.
She was afraid that the brothers would kill each other, so she thought that she had done the right thing and hid the girl.
She even helped him deal with the aftermath. Between his brother and him, she also chose him.
The boy once mocked that woman, saying that she was pathetic and laughable.
She didn't cherish it when she should, and only felt sad after it happened. What was the use?
Actually, how could he not know that she really cared about him? But he really didn't need it anymore.
Because, his heart couldn't move anymore.
He always felt that way.
However, reality seemed to take pleasure in hurting him every time. That woman died in a car accident.
She died just like that. She died suddenly.
At that time, he felt that this year's April Fool's joke was really not funny.
The moment he personally covered the girl with the white cloth, he realized that it wasn't a joke.
The hedgehog shell that the boy had been wearing was broken. The last person who really cared about him was gone. He knew.
Did he regret it?
He didn't regret it, right?
Because he knew that this kind of ending was actually the best.
His brother wouldn't be in a dilemma when it came to their mother, and she wouldn't have to face the hatred of her two sons.
Speaking of which, her death was also a kind of relief. "
He raised his head and leaned against the wall. His thoughts drifted to god knows where.
Mom, if you can hear what I'm saying, then rest in peace.
Hating you is too tiring. I don't want to hate you anymore.
Being jealous of my brother is too tiring. I want to let it go.
As for her, I don't know if I can forget her, but I will try my best.
"What happened after that?"
While I was deep in thought, I heard the person who had been curled up in a ball quietly poke his head out and ask softly. His big eyes were filled with nervousness.
This was the first time he had spoken in a few days. I thought it was quite strange.
He chuckled. "After that, he became the stain of that family."
"In order to destroy them, he hid a lot of things that shouldn't be seen in that family. He even degenerated himself."
"After that, he left that family. It wasn't that the family didn't want him anymore, but that he couldn't afford to."
Unknowingly, my vision became blurry. I touched my hand in confusion and felt a cold liquid.
So he was crying?
He regretted it, right? Yes, he regretted it.
In the end, I couldn't lie to myself.
"Don't, don't be sad. I … I can't go out anyway. In the future, we'll be together."
It was the first time I heard someone say such words to me, but it was in such an environment. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
But the tears that slid to the corner of my lips told me that it was sweet this time.
I couldn't help but think, if I had calmed down and not been jealous of my brother back then, would the things that happened later not have happened?
If I had been more rational and told my grandpa and dad my thoughts, would I have gotten what I wanted long ago?
Unfortunately, these were all false. After all, I was the one who cut them off.
"Okay, we'll be together in the future."
It was quite good to have someone to accompany me for the rest of my life.
At least, I wouldn't be so lonely.
Thank you, idiot, for being willing to accompany me.
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