After issuing such an order, Xiao Ruxun stayed in the study alone and fell silent for a while.
Suddenly, a voice rang in his ears.
"Xiao Ruxun, you really make me hate you to the extreme."
This voice sounded very familiar to Xiao Ruxun. More than a year ago, he had heard this voice in the Lugouqiao Barracks outside the capital. He did not feel that it was unfamiliar.
"Do I really make you hate me that much? Why? Why do you hate me so much? "
Xiao Ruxun's expression did not change.
"Are you not worthy of my hate? Many of the things you have done have made me hate you, especially this matter. You actually want to lay your hands on Yuan Huang? "
"Otherwise? He slandered me and slandered me in front of my subjects. As an emperor, how can I tolerate such a person? "
"You met him in Korea and were close friends. When you went to Myanmar, he gave up his official position and came to Myanmar to follow you. He assisted you and recruited friends for you. He brought his disciple and son to Myanmar and left his hometown to settle in Myanmar. He worked hard to stabilize the situation for you. Do you dare to say that without him, you can govern Myanmar well?"
Xiao Ruxun shook his head.
"No."
"Am I right? You know that without him, you wouldn't be where you are today, but you still did such a thing? "
The tone of the voice was thick with disdain.
"There is a saying that I have never understood before, but after so many years, I finally understand what it means."
"What saying?"
"The bottom determines the head."
Xiao Ruxun smiled. "When I was studying in school, I felt that this saying was so vulgar and disgusting. I felt that those who changed their original hearts were weak-willed people who forgot their roots and should be cut into pieces. I couldn't understand how they could forget their original hearts.
At that time, I swore that one day when I ascended to a high position, I would always remember where I came from and where I wanted to go. I would never forget the hard work and struggle I had once put in. I would always remember my true self at that time. I would have a conscience and do things according to my conscience.
But after so many years, I suddenly felt that I was very funny, very silly, very naive, you know? The moment I sat on the throne, I was very happy. I was very happy, but also a little confused. But do you know what I felt the most? It was fear.
I'm afraid that I'll lose this position. If I have a heart of stone, this position will have a magnetic force that will make it impossible for me to leave. Do you know how wonderful it is to have power in your hands? Do you know how wonderful it is to have the supreme power of the world?! "
"Is this the reason why you forgot your heart and where you came from?"
"Isn't that enough?"
Xiao Ruxun's face was full of doubt. "Power, power, isn't that enough? Let me tell you, no matter how much money you give me, I will not give up my power. No one can give up their power! Money is like a castle made of sand. When the sun shines on it, when the wind blows, it will collapse.
Power is different. Power is like the Great Wall of China that stretches for tens of thousands of miles. No matter how the wind blows, the sun shines, the rain, or the fire burns, I will not move. This is the difference between power and money. Therefore, I have always felt that the most valuable thing in the world is not money, but power. Is there anything more valuable than power in the world? "
"So you want to abandon Yuan Huang, abandon your past self, and embrace your power?"
Xiao Ruxun looked as if it was a matter of course.
"Of course, what else? What else do I want? Can I still pursue it? No, what is more powerful than the Emperor? What I want to do now is to maintain my power. Everything I do is to maintain my power.
Yuan Huang is not sensible, doesn't know when to advance or retreat, and is unreasonable. He is just an old man. Why can't I abandon him? Give me a reason not to abandon them. Come and persuade me. The world of the Daqin. He calls himself the Daming Old Man. What does he mean? What does he mean? "
"Have you forgotten all about your friendship?"
"Friendship? What is that? "
Xiao Ruxun laughed. "The Emperor, the Emperor! Since ancient times, the Emperor had always been a loner. How could there be any friendship? Don't make me laugh, okay? From the moment I decided to overthrow the Ming Dynasty and establish a new one, I was destined to be alone. If I cared about friendship, do you think I would sit in this position? "
"Don't you care about the people who have fought with you?"
"Why did Liu Bang kill the meritorious officials? Why did Zhu Yuanzhang kill the meritorious officials? Didn't those people have friendship with them? But why did he kill them? "
Xiao Ruxun laughed even more happily. "My ass determines my brain. Nothing can escape this sentence. Really, if you were to sit in my position, you wouldn't be able to escape either. At this point, you're still talking about friendship? What you want to see is a legend, right?
No, not a myth. It's a fairy tale, a bedtime story for babies. Please, we are almost 30 years old. Can you be more mature? "
"Have you really made up your mind?"
"Of course, of course I have. He wants to Daming, so I will fulfill his dream. Isn't that good?"
"Can you really do it?"
"Of course, of course I can do it. I am the Emperor."
"Then why are you crying?"
"Crying? Are you kidding me? I will … "
Xiao Ruxun's expression froze because he suddenly found that his vision was blurred.
He touched his eyes lightly and a drop of water stuck to the tip of his finger.
"You know what you are doing, don't you?"
"You also hate yourself for being so unscrupulous, don't you?"
"You are also thinking about the past with Yuan Huang, right?"
"You are actually in pain, right?"
"Don't you hate yourself for doing such a thing?"
… …
The questions were like iron hammers hammering into Xiao Ruxun's heart, painful and suffocating.
"Enough."
Xiao Ruxun stopped the meaningless questions.
"You are afraid."
But the voice was unwilling to stop.
"I said that's enough!"
Xiao Ruxun's breathing became heavy.
"You are really afraid. No matter what you say, you are afraid. You …"
"Enough! Enough! Enough! Enough! I said that's enough! "
Xiao Ruxun slammed her fist on the small table beside her, directly smashing it into pieces.
"Your Majesty? Your Majesty! What happened? "
The eunuchs outside the door probably heard the commotion and called out.
"… I am fine."
Xiao Ruxun heard the commotion outside and quickly regained his composure. "Go to the Investigation Department and call Zhou Yao over. Go now!"
"Yes!"
The servant outside the door immediately left.
Xiao Ruxun took a deep breath and then slowly exhaled, calming his restless heart.
He did not expect such a thing to happen at this point.
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