Chapter 3176
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My greatest achievement after going abroad for the past few years was learning to smoke.
I learned to smoke only because sometimes, when I'm anxious and desperate, I need something to fill the void.
These few days, my addiction to smoking has been very strong. I've treated it as a form of spiritual food. Whether it's numbing or decadent, at least it can fill the gap in my heart.
The sound of a lighter being ignited was exceptionally clear in the silent night.
I took a deep breath, and the smoke came out from the tip of my nose. Out of the corner of my eye, I inadvertently saw a shadow on the ground. I followed the shadow and looked up until I saw a pair of cold eyes that were as deep as the abyss. I was instantly stunned on the spot, at a loss for what to do.
Dongyu stood motionless under the street lamp. His tall and straight figure was almost the fulcrum of my line of sight. His handsome face looked even fairer under the light.
In my memory, he always had a gentle and elegant temperament. But now, this temperament had become a little cold. A pair of cold and deep eyes silently stared at me. His gaze slowly moved down, and finally landed on the cigarette butt that was emitting sparks between my fingers.
His appearance caught me off guard. I hadn't even thought about what kind of expression I should use to face him.
Just like when I was young and did bad things behind his back, I was caught red-handed. I threw away the cigarette in my hand awkwardly, trying to pretend that nothing had happened.
He only looked at me in silence. It was as though he wanted to see enough of the past eight years in this quiet moment.
I felt that he seemed a little unfamiliar. I didn't recognize him anymore. If it weren't for his eyes and brows, which were still the same as in my memory, I wouldn't have been able to recognize this man at first glance. He was the Dongyu I'd been longing for.
Dongyu, this name gave me joy and sorrow, but I couldn't love him.
I'd been thinking about this for eight years, but I still couldn't figure it out.
But …
Fate was really unfair.
I clearly knew that it was impossible between him and me.
However, when I came to this world alone, he still had to give me hope and tenderness. Then, he used the bloody reality to turn it into a sharp blade and cut my heart into a bloody pulp.
Who asked Dongyu to be the only person I could rely on in this vast world?
In his childhood memories, he occupied such a large part of the country.
I don't know who else I can rely on other than him, who else can I miss.
If he hadn't been such an important part of my life, I definitely wouldn't have fallen into this fate of eternal damnation.
I stood there awkwardly, my hands trembling behind my back as I stared down at my toes.
I bit my lips out of habit so that it wouldn't seem to be trembling too much.
I couldn't pretend to be relaxed and calm in front of him like I did with Su Qi. I even thought of escaping this place and returning to my rented apartment in Los Angeles, hiding in my turtle shell like a turtle.
However, Dongyu's gaze never left my face. It was as if he was frozen in place, or as if time had frozen. He looked at me silently, as if he wanted to carve my facial features into his mind, into his bones.
After a long time, he finally opened his mouth and spoke in that extremely familiar tone. "Xiachun."
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