Chapter 755
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In fact, I've been aware of my abnormality since last December. I used to write slowly, and sometimes it was very difficult for me to write a story. But no matter what, the feeling of rushing the manuscript was both painful and happy. As long as I put my heart and soul into the story, I could clearly feel the joy that writing the story brought to me.
But since last December, writing wasn't something that made me happy anymore. I felt that every word and every sentence that I wrote couldn't satisfy me. I even started to get tired of the stories that I wrote and tired of the online novel industry.
This feeling increased day by day in January of this year. I often sat in front of the computer for a few hours and couldn't write a word. In fact, I had a general outline and a detailed outline. I was also very clear about what to write next, but I just couldn't write it. It was like there was water in a reservoir and the faucet was open. But I didn't know where the faucet was broken, but not a single drop of water came out.
Since January, my condition became worse and worse. Not only did I hate writing stories, but I even started to hate myself. Sometimes, I would even have the idea of deleting all the manuscripts, outlines, and settings that I had written in the past nine years. I wanted to smash my laptop and completely quit the online novel industry.
It wasn't until the end of February that I realized that there might be something wrong with my mental state. Then, I contacted a psychiatrist that a friend recommended. Sure enough, the diagnosis was mild depression, and he was now receiving medication.
I didn't want to say this. After all, this illness was a mental illness. It wouldn't be good to say it out loud. But I still owe everyone an explanation for the update problems in the past few months. I'm especially sorry to my friends who really liked the book "Monster Paradise". After careful consideration, I decided to say it out loud. At least, I could let everyone know what happened so that they wouldn't have to wait for no reason.
Actually, I still don't know why I got this illness. But since I'm here, I'll take it as it comes. I'll try my best to overcome the illness and I'll try my best to write the story. Don't worry about me. I'm in a much better state than I was in February. If I update, it might still be unstable for half a month, but it should be better next month.
Well, that's all for now.
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