Twenty years ago, in Jinping Villa, the sunset dyed the maple leaves.
???? That was the last time Zhao Ya saw Gongzi Ling and Xie Anping standing side by side, admiring the red maple leaves dancing in the wind under the sunset.
The autumn maple could only burn with the most beautiful color when it was withered, just like Xie Anping's pale face that had been sick for a long time had a touch of red.
????? In the sunset, Xie Anping stretched out her hand, trying to stop the falling maple leaves. Gongzi Ling held Xie Anping's hand tightly, trying to stop her from leaving.
The scene of falling red leaves was engraved in Zhao Ya's memory forever. It was the most beautiful and tranquil scene she had ever seen in her life.
But the scene belonged to the immortal couple, and she could not tolerate any dirt on it.
Therefore, she could not bear to desecrate it, and did not dare to step forward to defile it. She hid quietly in the depths of the maple forest, like a bug that could not see the light.
????? Twenty years later, in Jinping Villa. Spring and autumn had passed, and people were no longer the same.
The person who looked at the maple leaves hand in hand with Gongzi Ling was sleeping under the green tomb. At this time, the person beside him was a new person.
What had not changed was that Zhao Ya was still hiding in the depths of the maple forest, looking at the scene that did not belong to her. But this time, her mentality was different …
Zhao Ya leaned against the maple tree and looked at Xie Lingyan coldly in front of the green tomb. Her eyes were full of mockery and ridicule.
She was too far away to hear what Xie Lingyan and Gongzi Ling were talking about, but she could guess.
This little girl should have been told the relationship between her and the person in the tomb.
Thinking about it, she should call Gongzi Ling uncle. Zhao Ya thought maliciously.
From the first time Xie Lingyan stepped into the villa, she saw the hidden feelings of this little girl, just like Xie Anping saw through her.
But she did not stop it, nor did she expose it, because she had already foreseen today's result.
In other words, she had already expected today's result.
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The connected bloodline created a similar face. Zhao Ya had always been curious about Xie Anping, who got everything she wanted. If he encountered a situation where he could not love her, what expression would he have?
Pain? Shame? Helplessness? Or despair?
Perhaps the answer could be gleaned from Xie Lingyan's face, which was very similar to hers.
But in the end, when she saw Xie Lingyan trembling and kneeling in front of the wordless tombstone to pay her respects to her nephew, she did not laugh as she had expected.
Instead, she felt sympathy for Xie Lingyan and could not bear to look at Xie Lingyan's expression.
They were all losers who couldn't love, so what was there to fight about? In the end, the living still couldn't beat the dead.
Zhao Ya even suddenly felt that?? If Xie Lingyan could really make Gongzi Ling stay, it would be better. At least, Gongzi Ling would not have to participate in the battle for the Tomes of Arcane for the sake of a person who had died long ago. He would not have to challenge the Three Religions and Six Dao, and the countless strong enemies of the Human and Demon Clans.
Zhao Ya fell into a daze as she thought about it. Until a familiar voice called her back.
"Come out, it's getting dark." Gongzi Ling was still standing in front of the tombstone, but his voice was like a whisper. It seemed that he had already noticed her presence.
Knowing Gongzi Ling's ability, Zhao Ya was not surprised. She tidied up her appearance and walked out of the forest. When she did not see Xie Lingyan, she resumed her usual tone and asked vengefully, "Where's your niece?"
Gongzi Ling said lightly, "She suddenly had an important matter to attend to in the sect, so she left first."
Knowing that Xie Lingyan must have found an excuse to leave because she was upset, Zhao Ya purposely said, "Heh, what important matter could it be? She stayed in the villa for so long and left without saying goodbye."
Gongzi Ling said, "Jinping Villa is free to come and go. Why force those who should leave?"
Zhao Ya's eyes turned and looked straight at Gongzi Ling. "What about Gongzi? When do you plan to leave without saying goodbye?"
Gongzi Ling also looked at Zhao Ya and asked, "What about you? Do you plan to force me to stay?"
Their eyes met and it was as if time had stopped. Zhao Ya wanted to find a trace of hesitation in Gongzi Ling's eyes, but in the end, she was defeated.
Zhao Ya lowered her head and avoided Gongzi Ling's gaze. She mocked herself, "Force me to stay? Am I worthy? The wings of a peacock only pursue the shadow of the departed. Everything else is not valuable and is not worthy of Gongzi Ling's stay. "
Gongzi Ling comforted her in a low voice, "I know you are angry, but I promise you that the battle for the Tomes of Arcane will be my last attempt. No matter what the result is, I will not search for the method of resurrection. Do you not believe in my promise? "
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"I do not believe." Zhao Ya smiled sadly and shook her head lightly. "Gongzi Ling's promise is worth its weight in gold. But in this aspect, I do not doubt you. I understand Young Master too well. She's your weakness, your Achilles' heel. Time and time again, you've flown into an impossible path for her. You're like a moth flying outside a lampshade, injuring yourself until you're covered in cuts and bruises. Every time you see a glimmer of light, you'll repeat the cycle until you break through the lampshade, until you pounce towards the burning candle flame … "
Zhao Ya raised her head again. Her eyes were no longer cold but were filled with worry and concern. "The battle for the Tomes of Arcane is not just about the candlelight, but the fire that burns the world. The Three Religions and Six Dao, humans and demons are all affected by the Tomes of Arcane. Now that all the forces have gathered in Leshan, a great war is about to break out. If Gongzi Ling enters the fray alone, it is tantamount to drawing fire to yourself. Even if Gongzi Ling is omnipotent, he …"
Gongzi Ling laughed and waved his sleeves to interrupt her worried words. "Ha, the Three Religions and Six Dao and the old dragon have already set up a grand show. Why should I be afraid to show up? Without being burned by fire, one cannot distinguish between pure gold and pure gold. Without this fire, it would seem that it was easy for me to obtain the Tomes of Arcane! "
"But I am afraid that Gongzi Ling will break his promise. I am also afraid that Gongzi Ling's promise will come true. I am afraid that this will really be your last attempt …" Because of the unbearable past, Zhao Ya used to seal her sincerity layer by layer like a cocoon. But at this moment, she was willing to tear a gap in the invisible cocoon and reveal her true feelings.
"Gongzi Ling, please don't go. You can't just live in the past. There are things in front of you that are worth cherishing. For me … for Jinping Villa, don't go!"
A gust of autumn wind suddenly blew, causing the maple leaves to fall. It was like a red rain, just like in the past.
The fallen leaves danced between Zhao Ya and Gongzi Ling. Zhao Ya could not see Gongzi Ling's expression clearly. After a long silence, she heard Gongzi Ling sigh.
"Who doesn't live in the past …"
The speaker might not have meant it, but the listener knew it. Zhao Ya's pupils shrank. The anxious and pleading expression on her face froze. The past came rushing back like a nightmare.
At this moment, she saw a hand pushing aside the maple leaves and patting her shoulder. It was Gongzi Ling who wanted to comfort her. But Zhao Ya instinctively screamed and stepped back, distancing herself from Gongzi Ling.
"I'm sorry. I forgot that you are obsessed with cleanliness. I was rude. But you don't even dare to touch me. How are you going to make me stay? "
Gongzi Ling retracted his hand. "I didn't intend to tell you so that you wouldn't be reluctant to part. But since you asked, there's no need to hide it. I will leave tomorrow night. After that, please take care of the villa."
????? After saying that, Gongzi Ling turned around and left.
He walked very slowly. As long as Zhao Ya stretched out her hand, she could pull Gongzi Ling and make him stay.
But her hand seemed to be very heavy. She couldn't reach it.
Until it gradually drifted further and further away, until it was out of reach …
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Her jade-white palms were spread open in front of her eyes. Sparkling and translucent water droplets rolled down from her fingernails that were soaked in balsam juice. They flowed along her five slender fingers and gathered at her wrist before falling into the steaming bathtub.
Zhao Ya looked at her hand in a daze. It was flawless, pure and white like a hibiscus that had just come out of the water. But Zhao Ya still felt dirty.
Not only her palm, but every inch of her skin, every pore, and even every drop of blood on her body felt dirty.
So she took three baths every day. Other demons said that she was obsessed with cleanliness. But she felt that even if she took out her skin and soaked it in water, ten times, a hundred times, or even ten thousand times, she couldn't wash away the filth on her body.
This dirty palm didn't deserve to make Gongzi stay …
"If it were you, what would you do?" Zhao Ya thought of Xie Anping again. Xie Anping, who had a weak appearance, was the bravest woman Zhao Ya had ever seen.
She dared to go deep into the Southern Border and challenge Gu Xuanke, who she didn't dare to look at.
She dared to expose the sore in Ling Xiao Sword School for a demon girl like her who had been sold into a pit of ten thousand corpses.
She dared to destroy her extraordinary cultivation, leave the sect, and marry into Jinping Mountain Villa alone.
She dared to bid farewell to Gongzi Ling softly and face death with a smile …
"You must be able to reach out and make Gongzi stay without any scruples, right?"
Zhao Ya touched her white neck. She seemed to be asking, but also seemed to be answering herself.
Another secret of hers was hidden under her neck. It was the parasite that Gu Xuanke had left for her. It was a symbol of humiliation, slavery, and lack of self.
So, ever since she escaped from Gu Xuanke's clutches, she tried everything she could and finally removed Gu Xuanke's divine sense from the parasite.
But for some strange reason, she still kept the Gu worm in her body. Without the divine sense to fill it, the parasite was always restless. Zhao Ya felt that the parasite was like her, empty, and always yearning for something to fill its empty shell.
It was not until Xie Anping died that her and the parasite's appetite were satisfied at the same time.
She wanted to become the person she longed for and envied the most, or drag that person into the abyss with her. She did not know which motive was more important. Anyway, before Xie Anping died, Zhao Ya used the parasite to invade Xie Anping's divine sense and took away all the memories of Xie Anping and Gongzi Ling.
Since then, she would enter Xie Anping's memory every night when she slept. In her dreams, she became the person she wanted to be the most, and did what she wanted to do the most …
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It was the same this time. The feeling of helplessness made Zhao Ya tired both physically and mentally. Unknowingly, Zhao Ya closed her eyes and started to have that dream again.
In the dream, she was Xie Anping. The elegant Xie Anping, the clean Xie Anping.
What Zhao Ya did not have the qualifications to do, Xie Anping did. So, she reached out and grabbed Gongzi Ling who was about to leave.
Gongzi Ling turned around. When he saw her, he was shocked at first, but then he was overjoyed. He shouted and danced like a child, then hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear.
Gongzi Ling hugged her very tightly, as if if he let go, she would disappear. That warm and strong embrace made her breathing quicken and suffocate.
She could not hear what Gongzi Ling was whispering in her ear. But she did not need to hear it clearly, because Gongzi Ling's hot breath was blowing on her ear. It was enough to make her head hot and dizzy, as if she had drunk the best quality Nu Er Hong …
Finally, Gongzi Ling's hot breath got closer and closer to her earlobe. It was like a flame that was eroding her soul, burning her body, making her feel weak. She was embarrassed and excited at the same time. And that flame was still moving gently, from her earlobe to her cheeks, then to her neck for a moment before moving towards her lips …
Gongzi Ling's actions became more and more unrestrained, making her forget that they were outdoors. Finally, she was extremely embarrassed. She clenched her fists and hit Gongzi Ling.
???? Her fists were soft and seductive. Gongzi Ling let her act coquettishly and laughed loudly. After a few hits, he pulled her into his arms again and signaled to the bedroom with his eyes.
Her cheeks were hot, but she lowered her head and did not make a sound. Gongzi Ling laughed loudly and walked towards the bedroom with her in his arms …
But he left Zhao Ya on the spot!
Zhao Ya felt as if she was splashed with a bucket of cold water, extinguishing the heat on her body.
Just now, she was still sharing the same body with Xie Anping, and there was no distinction between them.
But now, it was the perspective of a bystander, just like how Gongzi Ling took Xie Anping out of her body but left Zhao Ya behind.
Zhao Ya was anxious. She wanted to rush over, but her feet seemed to be nailed to the ground.
???? She struggled with all her might but to no avail. Seeing that Xie Anping was leaning in Gongzi Ling's arms and walking further away, she finally cried, "Gongzi, gongzi! I'm still here! I'm still here! "
— — That was her protest, but it was also her pleading.
Suddenly, she heard the insects chirping loudly, drowning out her cries and pleading. In the chirping of the insects, she could faintly hear an old and terrifying voice.
"Little butterfly slave, your gongzi doesn't want you anymore. It's better for you to obediently follow the old ancestor in Southern Border, hehehehe!"
Zhao Ya was shocked. She looked around blankly, searching for the source of the voice. She shouted in self-deception, "Impossible, you're dead, you're dead, you're not here anymore!"
"If the old ancestor isn't here, there's still me!" At this moment, another voice came from behind her, and at the same time, a pair of hands violently wrapped around her waist.
Zhao Ya turned around, but her eyes were so frightened that they almost popped out. Behind her was Tie Shan!
"You … you!" Zhao Ya felt like she fell into an ice cave. She was dumbfounded and speechless.
???? Tie Shan smiled and said, "You new little Gu slaves, I'll teach you some rules. When the old ancestor isn't here, I'm the boss. You have to learn to serve me well."
???? As he spoke, he came forward and tore her clothes. Zhao Ya wanted to kill him, but her body was weak and powerless. Her Qi sea was empty, and she couldn't use any demonic primordial qi.
"Don't do this, please don't do this …" Zhao Ya resisted for a few times, and suddenly burst into tears. "Master Tie, please let me go. Didn't I give Han Fu to you? Go find Han Fu, if it's not enough, I'll find another female demon for you! "
Tie Shan didn't speak, but just smiled obscenely. As he smiled, his facial features began to change horribly again.
Strange yet familiar faces appeared in front of Zhao Ya: the fat man who took her body, the other insect seedlings that she killed with her body, the lackeys of Tie Shan's followers, the chief of Southern Border who enjoyed her as a gift from the Gu God …
???? Ugly, dirty, greedy, obscene … those faces that Zhao Ya wanted to forget but couldn't. They smiled obscenely, drooled, and rushed toward Zhao Ya …
???? "Ah!" Zhao Ya suddenly woke up.
It was pitch black. Where were Xie Anping, Prince Zhong, Ling … and those demons?
???? Only the sound of insects was still in her head.
"Squeak — squeak — squeak — squeak — squeak — squeak —" went on and on, as if they were laughing at her.
The water in the bathtub was already cold, but there was still a trace of warmth between her thighs.
This made Zhao Ya feel even more despicable. She bit her lips so hard that they were bleeding.
It was like this every time. It started from a sweet dream, but was pulled back to reality by the noise of insects.
The more beautiful the dream was, the more cruel the reality was.
Zhao Ya had wanted to completely remove the Gu Parasite and stop making illusions to deceive herself and others.
But she was like a butterfly in a cluster of poppies. She knew that the sap was poisonous, but she couldn't pull herself out.
Her lips had been bitten, and she tasted the blood. She was ashamed and angry, but she didn't know who to vent it on. Was it Xie Anping, Prince Ling, or herself?
Finally, she gritted her teeth and blamed the culprit for everything. "Gu Xuanxing, you'd better be dead, or I'll kill you myself!"
But at this moment, she suddenly heard the sound of mosquitoes, which seemed to be mocking and sneering.
Zhao Ya's heart trembled inexplicably. She raised her eyes to look at the source of the sound. She saw the tiny mosquitoes gathered on the bronze mirror, and the many insects lined up in a sentence.
"Die Nu 'er, the Ancestor is at the top of the back mountain. Come and kill him!"
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