"Who exactly are you?!"
Han Qiongzhi turned around and asked loudly. The Li Qingshan in her memory was addicted to wine and women, easily angered, liked to joke around, would feel pain, fear, and guilt, but he would never show such a weak expression.
Even in the deepest and most desperate situation, facing an undefeatable enemy, he would roar and throw out one last punch, until he died.
"That's right, who am I?" Li Qingshan played with the wine cup and said with a self-deprecating smile, "Probably the lord of the demon domain, the king of the demon gods or something like that!"
That was him in the eyes of all living beings, a god that all hopes and wishes were placed on. And Li Qingshan, was just a mortal.
The ear-piercing buzzing in his ears could no longer be ignored, the black rainstorm in his chest drowned everything.
Han Qiongzhi's question shook all the peace in this small courtyard. The fiery red figure seemed to be burning, shining so brightly that people could not look directly at it.
His gaze went past her, following the mottled yellow mud wall, climbing up the thatched roof, climbing up the chimney, following the wisp of smoke, all the way to the depths of the sky.
In a trance, the mottled mud wall was like a towering mountain, the thatched grass was like a forest of swords and spears, the chimney was a lonely city at the peak of the mountain. Above the lonely city, there was no smoke curling up, blue sky and white clouds, it was clearly smoke soaring into the sky, black clouds pressing down on the city.
Kacha! A crack appeared on the wine cup. Unknowingly, his expression changed.
The crowing of the chickens and barking of the dogs in the village, all stopped, falling into a terrible silence.
Han Qiongzhi's eyes widened, suddenly shocked. His entire body emitted a dreadful and terrifying aura. The black figure sitting in front of the square table, was like a Buddha that continued to grow larger and larger, turning into an abnormally steep and cold black mountain. The sharp peak had already pierced through the sky. No matter how hard she tried to look up, it was difficult to see his full appearance.
So high, so unreachable, he had already changed, he was no longer the man she was familiar with, he had become a god that she could not understand.
"His pain, is also not something I can understand!"
Han Qiongzhi felt a stabbing pain in her heart, and it took her a long time to calm down. She couldn't help but stare at him in a daze. His expression was fleeting and indifferent, but it contained a terrifying madness and killing intent. It was as if he was immersed in a dream of a bloody massacre.
She blamed herself for making things difficult for him. They clearly wanted to be husband and wife for a day, talking about the past and drinking together. Why couldn't she give him a moment of peace? Then, she would send him on his journey to the battlefield that belonged to him.
"Qingshan, Qingshan!" An anxious voice woke Li Qingshan from his dream.
He blinked his eyes. The mud wall was still mud wall, and the thatch was still thatch. This was not a battlefield, but his hometown. The person in front of him wasn't an enemy, but a lover.
Han Qiongzhi shook his shoulders hard. Although her eyes were filled with tears, she bit her lips as if she had made up her mind. She said gently, "You're right. This is your business. I shouldn't interfere. Hurry up and continue eating. When I'm done, I'll drink with you to my heart's content! "
"Sorry, I was distracted." Li Qingshan focused his mind and smiled. The crack on the wine cup in his hand healed.
The village was still filled with the sounds of chickens crowing and dogs barking. Smoke curled up from the chimneys. It was as if nothing had happened. It was also as if they had reached some kind of tacit agreement. Some things shouldn't be looked into.
Li Qingshan reached out his hand to wipe away the tears on Han Qiongzhi's face. He smiled and said, "What are you crying for? Your man isn't dead yet!"
"Hmph, it's good that he's dead!" Han Qiongzhi said angrily.
This kind of inauspicious words was not a taboo for them.
She, who was born in the Military School, had never taken the words "life and death" too seriously. Just Now, even if she heard that he had died in battle, she might not lose control of her emotions like this. She would only silently prepare to avenge him. If she succeeded, she would succeed. If she failed, she would die. It wasn't a big deal.
It was just that the fledgling, high-spirited young man was too deeply engraved in her heart. For a moment, she couldn't admit that he was the same person as the lonely man in front of her.
Moreover, this kind of change was too unexpected. She originally thought that he would be even more high-spirited and complacent after advancing bravely until he was on par with the gods.
"What kind of suffering did he go through to turn a man like that into this?"
She resisted the urge to ask. She returned to the kitchen and continued to prepare food.
Li Qingshan looked at her busy figure and sighed silently. He really wasn't a person who liked to moan and complain. Scars weren't glory. They were just scars left behind by injuries.
Of course, it wasn't a disgrace. It was just that when you showed your scars to others, those who hated you would only laugh at your incompetence and weakness, and find pleasure in it. Those who love you will grieve for you, and even advise you to change to another path.
He didn't want to be laughed at, nor did he want to be grieved. He definitely didn't want to take another path. No matter how painful and difficult it was, this was the path he had chosen. He wouldn't have any regrets even if his bones were crushed.
At this moment, he had an urge to tell her everything. He didn't want her to be disappointed in him, and he wanted to receive her gentleness and sympathy.
"I'm probably drunk." Li Qingshan pondered while tipsy. He used to think that she and Chao Tianjiao had many similarities, but now he realized that they were actually completely different. Perhaps the biggest difference was that she remembered what "Li Qingshan" looked like in the past.
Even though he had experienced many difficulties and dangers, that was the appearance he had always wanted to keep. Now that the change had begun, perhaps he should explain it to both of them.
Suddenly, he raised his head and drank the wine in one gulp. He said, "Qiongzhi, do you want to hear my story?"
"Go ahead! I'm listening! "
Han Qiongzhi's busy hands paused. Afterwards, she continued to prepare the dishes one by one and set them on the table.
However, Li Qingshan's voice was intermittent, as if he was preparing his words with great difficulty. "You … Hmm … I made a … choice. In order to obtain greater power, I originally thought … I originally thought I would never make a choice like that, even if it meant death!"
Han Qiongzhi listened attentively. She seemed to understand a little, but she was also rather doubtful. However, she did not ask anything.
"I've never told you how Little Ann and I met, right?" Li Qingshan's thoughts ran wild, but he did not start from his various experiences in the human realm or the Demon domain. Instead, he talked about the origins of everything.
Han Qiongzhi nodded.
"Back then, I was still in Crouching Ox village. I was much weaker than when I first met you. Heh, it really was miserable. I worked more than I ate, and I was always bullied. However, I actually never cried. I even named myself Li Qingshan, which means' why should I bury my bones in the countryside? Life is full of green mountains'.
"I'm actually quite stubborn. Just like the cow I raised, I'm not too afraid of death … However, later on, I met Little Ann. I cried. Although it had nothing to do with me, I just felt terrible, so I cried. At that time, I decided that I would avenge her no matter what and help her find a home …"
Li Qingshan's eyes were hazy from drunkenness. He rambled on, talking about many past events. However, he also mixed in the various experiences in the human realm, the Western Paradise, and even the Demon domain. He was disorderly, completely lacking his usual straightforwardness. Perhaps he really was drunk.
Many years later, in the depths of the Demon domain, he cried again. For the sake of a child, he made a decision.
Perhaps the ending of the story had already been decided at the beginning. He, who had not changed, had made the same choice.
No matter how much he yearned for the freedom of an eagle, he was destined to be a cow, and could only carry a heavy burden.
"I want to go to Qingqi Mountain. There's no other way …"
The sun gradually rose. Unknowingly, the whole table was filled with dishes. Han Qiongzhi sat opposite Li Qingshan and listened silently. She listened to those bizarre and dazzling encounters, listened to those distant past events, and listened to his painful choices again and again. There were several times when she wanted to stand up and hug him tightly in her arms. However, she didn't move. Instead, she clenched her fists and bit her lips, as if she was also making a painful choice.
When Li Qingshan finished his story, she suddenly lifted the wine jar, stood up, and gulped down the rest of the wine in one breath. Then, with a tipsy expression, she stared straight at Li Qingshan's eyes fiercely, as if she wanted to swallow him whole.
Li Qingshan was also taken aback. He looked at her in astonishment.
"I'm different from Little Ann. No matter what Li Qingshan becomes, it doesn't make a difference in her heart. As for me, I only fancy that Li Qingshan who will never change. Even though I know he's a big bastard, and I understand that there can't be any results, I'm happy in my heart, and I never regret it. "Han Qiongzhi said boldly.
Li Qingshan nodded: "I know."
"Then leave this world! Go die anywhere, and don't come back. If you need someone's power, just summon them. The Li Qingshan I know never looks back! "
Li Qingshan looked at her deeply. She was like a burning flame, so bright that he couldn't look at her directly. In the depths of the flame, her eyes were filled with the figure of "Li Qingshan".
"All of this, and me, are shackles for you!"
Han Qiongzhi pointed at the wine and dishes in front of her, and then pointed at herself. Her eyes flashed with a touch of regret, but she resolutely waved her hand, and the table full of wine and dishes were overturned. Then she turned around, and her back faced him: "You can go!"
Li Qingshan looked at the broken bowls and dishes on the ground, and the scattered food on the ground. She spent a lot of effort to personally make them. She almost didn't touch them, and they were all wasted.
Of course, as long as he moved his fingers, he could restore everything to its original state, but he didn't do so. He just looked at her back, and was stunned for a while. Suddenly, he smiled: "I understand. I'm going. "
Li Qingshan left, left this world, and ended this journey. Since he chose this path, he must walk it, and he couldn't stop.
Han Qiongzhi stood motionless in the courtyard, and only her shadow moved. Until the sun set in the west, and the sky was full of stars. Just like this, she passed the day. She suddenly raised her head, looked at the red new star in the distance, and poured all of her heart into it.
Outside the world, the buzzing continued to follow him like a shadow, never stopping. However, Li Qingshan suddenly heard a familiar voice. It was a special prayer.
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