I've become the villain's daughter! "
Song Ching-wan's lips twitched into a smile.
"Moreover, that kid leaves early and returns late every day. I don't know what he's busy with. The Family Lu is like an empty haunted house. It's cold and cheerless.
"At that time, I was thinking that it would be good for Lu Enron to get married. At least she would have Yu Zheng to accompany her. For the rest of her life, she would have someone she could rely on. But Lu Junhan didn't. He was all alone. How could I be at ease?"
Lu Enron, who was standing at the door, closed her eyes as tears streamed down her face. She had not expected her aunt to think this way.
Lu Junhan also pursed his thin lips. His deep, dark eyes darkened.
As Song Ching-wan spoke, it was as if she had returned to that time. Her eyes reddened again, and even her hoarse voice was choked with sobs.
"I was thinking that even though he didn't like women or children, at least he wouldn't be lonely if he had a child. When the time came, what would he do if I left him alone? So, I started to urge him to find a woman to have a child with. At that time, I also thought that if I could see Lu Junhan or Lu Enron's child before I died, I would die without regrets."
Lu Qidong raised his head and closed his eyes. His eyes reddened again.
Song Ching-wan took a deep breath and smiled again. "But I was still very lucky. A few months before I died, I met Li Li. Although it wasn't a boy, the little girl was so cute. She was even cuter than the child I imagined two years ago. It didn't matter whether it was a boy or not. At that time, I felt that I could die without regrets."
Lu Qidong was stunned.
He had thought that Song Ching-wan's death wish was only made because she was suddenly afraid of pain. But he had not expected that Song Ching-wan had already thought of this a few months ago!
At that time, she had already given up on treatment and had begun to slowly wait for death!
Actually, he was the one who understood her the best.
At that time, he had thought of giving up because it was too painful. That kind of pain was not something a person could endure.
Song Ching-wan had been ill for at least three or four years.
Over the past few years, the pain and weakness from the chemotherapy had caused her body to be cut open every time she went on the operating table. After the surgery, the incision would ache and she could only lie in bed, unable to move.
The feeling of being trapped in a hospital bed without freedom, and the feeling of being pricked by countless needles, was indeed worse than death!
He could endure it once or twice, but if it happened too many times, he would be afraid.
Song Ching-wan spoke again.
"But, brother, look how good it is now. Brother, you've come back from the dead. Now that I can see you for the last time, I can die without regrets. Lu Junhan already has a child, and she is so cute and sensible. She also knows how to take care of her father. I can die without regrets. Dad also often comes back to the Family Lu to fish now. He also eats with us, just like when we were young. The whole family is together now, and I can die without regrets. And these few days, Lu Enron has also started to come back to the Family Lu. She no longer hides in her room. The last knot in my heart is about to be untied. Really … Look how good it is now! In the beginning, there was no one in the Family Lu. Now, all the people in the Family Lu are slowly coming back. In the past, the Family Lu was at most an empty house, unlike now. Everyone always gathers together. You see … There, there is nothing better than now. "
Lu Qidong looked at her. He clenched his teeth fiercely and did not allow himself to sob out loud.
Song Qingwan's eyes were full of tears. She laughed and softly said, "I'm sorry.
"So, I really don't have any regrets now. Even my life now is something that I did not dare to imagine two years ago. This is much better than the ending I thought I would have before I died two years ago. Really, at that time, I was thinking that if I went, if there were one or two people by my bedside, I would be thankful. "
Lu Enron, who was outside the door, could not control himself. He covered his mouth tightly, but his tears could not stop falling from the corners of his eyes. He was sobbing uncontrollably.
She regretted it.
In these three years, she should have come back often.
She should not have forgotten to go home because she wanted to repay her debts as soon as possible and work so hard to earn money.
Just as Auntie had told her before, she could paint whenever she wanted. But if she did not accompany some people now, in the future … she might not have the chance to accompany them anymore.
Auntie was talking about Dad at that time. She said that Dad was already old and did not have much time left. She asked them, as his children, to come back to accompany him sometimes. Maybe, Auntie was not only talking about Dad, but also … herself.
Auntie herself did not have much time left.
Song Ching-wan: "Actually, in these two years, I have been reflecting on myself. I feel that I have been a failure in my life. The Lu clan did not develop well, and we still had to rely on Lu Junhan. I also did not protect my Family Lu well, causing the Family Lu to fall apart. And in the blink of an eye, Lu Junhan has grown into such a reclusive and introverted person. Lu Enron, on the other hand, has not matured at all. He is still so weak and weak. Sometimes, I even think that if I die, what would I do if you blame me in the afterlife …"
Lu Qidong closed his eyes. "You are my most beloved sister. How could I blame you?"
When Lu Qidong woke up and saw that Lu Enron and Lu Junhan had grown up safely, he did not wish for anything else. He only wished for the safety of his children. Song Ching-wan had already achieved that.
Song Ching-wan did not reply. She only smiled with tears in her eyes.
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