"In fact, there was a time when I also thought that I was a monster," Ravenclaw said calmly.
Elwyn did not look at her eyes. He never thought that Ms. Ravenclaw had endured so much.
He knew that all of her reactions were simulated by her high intelligence. He knew that Ms. Ravenclaw was the smartest wizard in the world. This title was still recognized by all wizards after thousands of years, and no one could surpass it.
However, Elwyn did not know what kind of pain and torture Ravenclaw was behind all of this.
Perhaps in the eyes of other wizards, Ravenclaw was a monster. Even she described herself as such.
Absolute wisdom that abandoned all feelings was really a terrible magic talent.
"Perhaps some wizards wanted to obtain this talent because it would make them stronger and colder. As long as they could realize their ambitions, they did not care about the price. But I hate it. Speaking of which, this is probably the first time in my life that I have felt emotions. That is, I hate my talent, and I even hate myself." Ravenclaw said slowly and shook her head. "No, I'm not sure if this is a kind of emotion. Maybe it's more appropriate to describe it as hatred transformed from wisdom. My people hope that I can use this talent to lead the Ravenclaw family, but all my reason tells me to give up this talent. I don't want to be the strongest or the smartest wizard. I just want to be a normal person. Is this too much? "
Elwyn was silent. Yes, was this request too much?!
This might be the humblest and most common wish he had ever heard, but for Ms. Ravenclaw, it was extremely difficult.
"When I was young, I used to crazily look for a way to give up this talent. I even thought of dying. I wanted to end my life, so that I could stop being a terrible monster …"
"Professor, you are not a monster!" Elwyn said. "You are, you are the greatest wizard."
Was Ms. Ravenclaw a monster? Of course not. She was one of the greatest wizards in the world.
Whether it was the establishment of Hogwarts or the various efforts to fight against the Evil God, these were enough for everyone to remember her contributions.
Dark sorcerers like Lord Voldemort were the real monsters. He used bewitchment as a method to bring pain to the world.
Ms. Ravenclaw wasn't like that. Even though she was intelligent enough to see through people's hearts, she chose to use it to make herself more like a normal person. Perhaps this was what Ms. Ravenclaw had been pursuing for most of her life.
"Thank you, Elwyn. You are kind and can bring warmth to others. Like Godric, Helga, and Salazar, I'm glad to have met you. Perhaps it's because your existence makes me feel more like a complete person. " Ravenclaw smiled and said, "Since you have been to the Time Titan, you should have seen the memory I left on the Coronet, right?"
Elwyn nodded. He remembered very clearly that at the end of that memory, Ravenclaw, in order to find a way to give up her talent, resolutely jumped into the Great Whirlpool of Charybdis. There, the sea churned wildly, the waves splashed, and the torrent was turbulent. The powerful tearing force in the center of the whirlpool was enough to tear everything in it apart.
Even so, after Ravenclaw jumped into the whirlpool, Gryffindor did not hesitate to jump in.
In the turbulent whirlpool, he held Ravenclaw's hands tightly and would never let go, no matter what danger lay ahead.
Even if it meant death, Gryffindor wanted to be with Ravenclaw.
In that memory, as a bystander, Elwyn clearly felt Gryffindor's thoughts.
He believed that these thoughts must have been clearly conveyed to Ms. Ravenclaw, even if she had no feelings...
"The moment the whirlpool sucked me and Godric in, I seemed to feel something." Ravenclaw closed her eyes as if she was recalling carefully. "It was a warm and strange feeling. They came from Godric's body, flowed slowly with my blood, and finally flowed here."
She placed her right hand on her chest, where her heart was.
"I think this is love, happiness, and the feeling I've always wanted. At that moment, my wish finally came true! " Ravenclaw said, "Even though this trace of feeling is so weak, they really appeared in me. I felt warmth, I became a normal person, and my soul truly integrated into this world."
"Professor, did you find a way to give up this talent in the end with the Time Titan?"
"No, I didn't ask him for this matter." "The moment Godric jumped into the vortex with me, I had already found my love. I am satisfied with this. There is no need and no need to search for more." Ravenclaw smiled and said, "The moment Godric and I jumped into the vortex together, I had already found my love.
Was this enough to satisfy her? Really …
"After that adventure, Godric and I found Salazar and Helga, and the four of us founded the Hogwarts. I felt that I finally found what I should pursue, a dream that was more meaningful than obtaining feelings." Ravenclaw said, "Later, I gave birth to Helena. I thought I would be like a normal mother... but I didn't do it. I didn't understand what a mother's love was at all. I just repeated what I did when I was four years old to imitate other mothers, but I never thought whether what I did was suitable for Helena. Sigh, even if I felt feelings, I'm still not a normal person! "
Helena's tragedy was indeed related to Ravenclaw, but after knowing everything, Elwyn felt that she should not be blamed.
It was not that Ms. Ravenclaw did not want to do well, but she really could not do it. In a sense, she was a pitiful person herself. She was more qualified than others to blame fate and the world, not others to blame her.
But there was one question that Elwyn still did not understand. He asked, "Then why didn't you stop Barrow just now?"
"Everything you saw in the forest was a spell at the soul level. Neither you nor I actually left the Hogwarts, so it was impossible for us to do anything, "Ravenclaw said in a low voice. "Our souls followed Coronet's magic to find another magic that exists in this world. This connection only exists at the soul level."
"If I used Phantom Manifestation …"
"There's no magic that can make me appear in the depths of that primeval forest in an instant," Ravenclaw said. "I don't want to explain anything, Elwyn, but I hope you can believe that I don't want Helena and Barrow's tragedy to happen. This desire is far greater than the desire of others. Maybe because I can't feel sorrow, so their deaths dealt a greater blow to me. In a place that you can't see, my soul and those insignificant feelings are being interrogated by wisdom … "
Her voice was still so calm, but there was a hidden sadness that bordered on despair.
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