Li Yao recalled his fierce battle with 'Extraterrestrial Devil Mo Xuan' in Hundred Flowers City and the soul-stirring battle with 'Extraterrestrial Devil Lu Qingchen' in the space battle.
At that time, he had thought that the few extraterrestrial devils were the most dreadful existences. He did not know that the greatest ticking time bomb had been right next to him and could explode at any moment!
Now that he thought about it, he could not help but feel scared and sweating hard.
Long Yangjun smiled and went on. "At that time, I thought that I was' merely 'an elite warrior of the Nuwa civilization reincarnated, too. So, I was perplexed by the two voices that came from deep inside my head. Even though I swallowed tremendous resources with your help and had the help of the super crystal processors, I could not completely solve the mysteries in my heart.
"It was not until I returned to the depths of the Land of Eternal Night a second time and entered the laboratory of the Pangu, especially when I was electrocuted brutally by the resurrected Pangu. When billions of electric currents pierced through my soul, most of the mysteries were shattered, and I was truly awakened. I realized … who I was exactly!
"That explains a lot. Not only am I an elite warrior of the Nuwa Clan reborn, but I was also infected with the power of the Pangu when I was still in the embryo state. I am an existence with dual destinies. In that case, everything makes sense now!"
Li Yao's heart suddenly tightened. He asked, "What kind of 'destinies'?"
Long Yangjun sniffed and said, "They are just boring things like resurrecting the Pangu and the Nuwa Clan, conquering the universe, suppressing mankind, destroying the world, and so on."
Li Yao was stunned. "If so, you clearly had ten thousand opportunities to take action, in Hundred Flowers City, at the critical moment in the space battle, or even deep inside the laboratory of the Pangu. The odds of success were very high. Why didn't you take action?"
Long Yangjun was amused. Blinking her glittering eyes, which seemed to be covered in thin crystals, she asked, "Why would I do such boring things?"
Li Yao was completely confused. "Didn't you say that the most important thing in your life was to figure out who you were and then accomplish your destiny? Now that you have been awakened, you know what your 'destiny' is!"
"Wrong!"
Long Yangjun nodded and said matter-of-factly, "You didn't understand me. I am fulfilling my own destiny, not the destiny that other people have given me."
Li Yao blinked. "Is there a difference between the two?"
"Of course."
Long Yangjun fell into the driver's seat comfortably and said with a casual smile, "Let's say that you suddenly have a weird dream one day, or rather, a solemn, unquestionable, and overwhelming voice pops up in your head and tells you that you are actually a person with a great background, and that you have been given a sacred, glorious, and unshirkable destiny before you were born, which is to eat sh * t.
"May I ask, will you take such a mission as the goal of your life, the meaning of your life?"
Li Yao: "… This is different, right?"
"What's the difference?"
Narrowing her eyes, Long Yangjun looked at her long, sharp fingers that were as sharp as sabers and said softly, "If you don't figure out why you are doing it, conquering the world, controlling people, and destroying everything will be no different from eating sh * t."
Li Yao thought for a long time. "However, this is the destiny that the Pangu and the Nuwa Clan and your creator have given you."
"Therefore, if your parents ask you to eat sh * t, you will do it obediently, right?" Long Yangjun asked.
"Let's just talk nicely and not bicker, alright?" Li Yao asked.
"I'm just giving you an example, considering that your analysis and comprehension abilities are rather low!"
Long Yangjun said with a smile, "All in all, the weird voices in my head, the boring things that ask me to find a certain base, release the Nuwa Clan, resurrect the Pangu Clan, conquer a certain planet, occupy a certain fortress, bewilder people, deprive them of feelings, and so on, are all 'missions that other people have given me', but they are not 'my real mission'. If I am going to follow the voices and do those things, I have to understand the meaning behind the missions first. Do you understand? I can't just do whatever a voice in my head asks me to do!"
Li Yao nodded slowly and almost felt awed by Long Yangjun. "I think I understand what you mean now."
"In fact, you should feel lucky. The entire Xing Yao Federation should feel lucky that the 'original body' of the Nuwa Clan was corrupted by the power of the Pangu Clan," Long Yangjun said gloomily.
"I believe that you've noticed it too. Both the Pangu civilization and the Nuwa civilization have fatal flaws. They walked on two different extremes. If they did have the concept of 'morality', it must've been entirely different from that of human beings right now.
"If the Pangu civilization is an excessively strict, ruthless father, the Nuwa civilization is an unscrupulous, indulgent mother. While the father's way of education is highly problematic, the mother's way of education is not necessarily correct, either!
"Whether I am a pure member of the Nuwa Clan or a pure member of the Pangu Clan, nothing good will come of me once I am set free.
"If I were a pure member of the Nuwa Clan, an accomplice of chaos, and a kindred of the extraterrestrial devils, I would've conspired with the extraterrestrial devils in Hundred Flowers City or in the space battle. I would've even swallowed the new-generation extraterrestrial devils such as Mo Xuan, Lei Yuqin, and Lu Qingchen and replaced them, modifying the Xing Yao Federation in the way of the Nuwa Clan.
"If I were a pure member of the Pangu Clan, I would've certainly tried my best to deprive all the people of the Federation of their feelings, desires, and will after I annihilated Mo Xuan, Lu Qingchen, and the rest of them, transforming the Xing Yao Federation into a minor Alliance of the Holy Covenant. I wouldn't have any emotional fluctuation even if I had to obliterate the lives of billions of people for it.
"Thankfully, I am neither a Pangu Clan nor a Nuwa Clan, but a combination of them. When the two forces, the two ideologies, and the two beliefs collided, offset, and swallowed each other in the depths of my soul, there was room for me to think.
"Thankfully, when my real life began to sprout, the first person I met was you."
Li Yao pointed at his own nose. "I … So what?"
"It seems that you haven't realized your importance yet!" Long Yangjun smiled.
"Did you know that in the first hundred years after I was born, my mind had always been in a certain ignorant 'embryo' state? I did not really grow at all. Even though I was already 'Lead Eunuch Wang Xi', who dominated the Great Qian Dynasty, it was in fact just a role that I played. It was a disguise, a false personality that was built based on certain animal instincts. Or rather, I was just a larva that had not really metamorphosed into a butterfly yet.
"It was not until I reached the depths of the Nuwa warship that the shell that sealed and protected my mind cracked, and the real me began to awaken.
"At that time, the 'real me' was still ignorant and did not know the first thing about the world. My identity as a member of the Pangu Clan, as a member of the Nuwa Clan, and as' Lead Eunuch Wang Xi 'were just mottled memory pieces that were not enough to condense into my real self-awareness, personality, and thinking style.
"At that time, I met you.
"How should I put it? You're sometimes hot-blooded and impulsive, sometimes childish and laughable, sometimes terrifyingly low in intelligence, often flabbergasted, and sometimes too good at letting your imagination run wild. Every idea you come up with is worse than the last. Moreover, your appearance is sloppy, and you do things lazily. You don't have the slightest awareness of being a supreme being of the three dimensions …"
"Thank you," Li Yao said. "Just say 'but'!"
"But I was' naïve 'at that time. Now that I think about it, it's rather strange that I was influenced, influenced, or even tarnished by you without me knowing it," Long Yangjun mumbled.
Long Yangjun mumbled, "While it is true that you are a little silly, you have also shown me what a real Cultivator is like, and what a more independent, beautiful, and bright civilization of mankind can look like without the support, interference, and control of Pangu or Nuwa. You have shown me the third choice between absolute control and absolute freedom. You have shown me what courage, responsibility, and protection are, and what law, system, and honor are.
"Hehe. It is exactly because you are 'Vulture Li Yao', the dominator of three Sectors, and because I hang around with you all the time that I have such a mindset right now. That is why I consider the difference between ordinary people and Cultivators, the true meaning of life, and whether or not there is a difference between the destiny that other people have given me and my real destiny, and whether or not I have to listen to the voice deep inside my head to control or destroy everybody?
"If it was not you who discovered me but someone else … who was more selfish, who did not show me the bright and beautiful possibilities of human beings but wanted to get something from me through whatever means possible, hoping to capture me, interrogate me, and dissect me for the secrets of the Nuwa warship. Then, I would certainly not be what I am right now, and the Xing Yao Federation would not be what it is today, either.
"Furthermore, if it were not you who brought me to the Xing Yao Federation but Heiye Lan who brought me to the Black Wind Fleet or even the Imperium of True Human Beings and taught me to think in the way of the Immortal Cultivators and to view myself and the universe, I don't know whether or not I would have listened to the voice in my head and done something unpredictable in the Imperium."
"Therefore, I have to thank you from the bottom of my heart. At the very least, I am very satisfied with my personality and mindset right now. To a large extent, it is all because of your influence.
"The Xing Yao Federation, the edge of the cosmos, and even the wider world should thank you for turning me into what I am right now without causing immeasurable damage. From that point of view, you have saved the Federation and the world without us knowing it!"
"You're most welcome."
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