What was emotion? The knowledge in his mind gave Luo Yuan the answer in an instant.
In psychology, emotion is a relatively strong psychological reaction to external stimuli. It is an expression of concern, love, or disgust for people or things. It is a special form of human reaction to objective reality, and it is a person's experience and attitude towards whether the objective things meet the person's needs.
In physiology, emotion was the physiological feedback of life seeking benefits and avoiding harm. It included the secretion of hormones and electrochemical reactions.
However, no matter how much Luo Yuan understood emotion and its definition, he realized that he could not experience it personally.
He could not feel hatred or hatred. He did not have any special feelings towards the Glassians, not even a trace of emotion.
Other than the desire to destroy, there were no other feelings. However, this feeling did not come from hatred. It was an instinctive reaction when faced with threats. It was like a tiger being provoked by a sheep, resulting in the desire to kill.
He could not feel love, friendship or family. Even if his woman came to disturb his peace and waste his time, he would feel a little annoyed. He hated communicating with people, regardless of who they were.
To Luo Yuan, who could handle hundreds of millions of terabytes of information, it was an intolerable thing to communicate with a few bits of information per second.
However, after thinking about it, he did not find anything wrong with it. To him, emotions were unnecessary. They were even a burden to him in his pursuit of power.
The powerful calculation ability of his brain had gradually made his view of things more rational and data-driven. His behavior had become instinctive to seek benefits and avoid harm.
Seeing that Luo Yuan did not respond for a long time, Wang Shishi stopped crying. She looked at Luo Yuan and said in disappointment, "Brother Luo, do you really have nothing to say to me? Don't you mind?"
Luo Yuan stopped thinking and said impatiently, "I don't think so. Huang Jiahui and the rest are still waiting for you. You should go back now!"
Wang Shishi's heart turned cold as she listened to his cold and heartless words. She was completely disheartened. After a while, she suddenly smiled strangely and asked, "Brother Luo, am I pretty?"
"Of course you are." Luo Yuan did not know what she was talking about. Even though the new humans were growing, Wang Shishi was still the best among them.
Wang Shishi took out a shuttle. It was an emerald green shuttle with two sharp ends. It had a jade-like texture. It was the weapon that Luo Yuan had given her during the apocalypse. It was also her most beloved item. She held the shuttle in her hand and said in a hollow voice, "Don't worry, I'm going to kill you.
"Do you still remember the first time we met? At that time, my parents had gone out and never came back, leaving me alone. I was scared and hungry, and it was you who gave me food. After that, you dragged a little girl like me, who was a burden, all the way to the Reconstruction Area. Without you, I would have died long ago."
No one knew Wang Shishi well. She had met Luo Yuan when she was not even 14 years old. Since then, Luo Yuan had been her everything. Her love for him had been the purest and most passionate of all. Wang Shishi did not understand Wang Shishi at all. She had met Luo Yuan when she was not even 14.
While other women had given up on Luo Yuan, her heart was still warm. At the same time, she could not accept Luo Yuan's coldness.
Luo Yuan could predict what would happen next, but he did not feel anything. He just watched quietly.
"You saved my life, so I'm returning it to you today. I want to see if you will still be indifferent when I die."
Wang Shishi looked at Luo Yuan longingly before stabbing her own temple with the sharp shuttle in her hand.
This sharp shuttle made from the scales and horns of high-level creatures easily pierced through her temple. Her life was like fireworks, beautiful and fleeting. In the next moment, Wang Shishi's body trembled, and she fell to the ground in a poignant manner.
Luo Yuan was unusually calm throughout all of this. He did not move an inch and did not even try to stop Wang Shishi from dying in front of him.
It was as if he was detached from the world and looked at everything coldly from the perspective of a third party.
The scene of Wang Shishi falling to the ground kept replaying in his mind. Countless memories related to Wang Shishi appeared in his mind.
Her naivety, her passion, her attachment, and a few other memories flashed through his mind.
Finally, a sorrowful emotion appeared in his mind. At first, it was like a spark, but it quickly grew and occupied his mind. He suddenly felt pain and reluctance in his heart.
His sense of alienation from the world quickly disappeared, and he suddenly came back to his senses. Looking at Wang Shishi, who was gradually becoming colder, a trace of humanity appeared in his eyes. He sighed softly, and in the next moment, a strong will surged out.
The entire Space City was slightly shaken!
His eyes became empty and there was no focus. The whole world in his eyes had become a world of atoms. The terrifying calculation ability of his brain allowed him to clearly record the changes of atoms in the surrounding picoseconds. This memory ability also allowed him to easily reverse the current state of the atoms during this period of time.
The terrifying power shrouded the entire hall. Every atom in the hall was controlled by his Will and began to reverse the flow.
The next moment, the cold body gradually regained its warmth and the stopped heart started beating again. It was like a replay. Wang Shishi stood on the ground again and the blood flowed back. Finally, the sharp needle was pulled out of her temple inch by inch.
The entire process was like a reverse of time.
…
"You saved my life so I'm returning it to you today. I want to see if I die …" Before Wang Shishi could finish her sentence.
"Wait!" Luo Yuan said.
"What are you trying to say?" Wang Shishi's hand trembled and stopped what she was doing. She asked coldly.
"Just now, you asked me if I would still be indifferent to your death. My answer is no! Thank you, Shishi. I think I've understood something! "Luo Yuan said. His tone was still cold but there was a slight difference.
"What did you understand?" Wang Shishi heard it and her will to die was quickly disappearing.
"The meaning of life!" Luo Yuan thought about it and replied.
Wang Shishi left not long after. She was confused and happy at the same time.
…
After Wang Shishi left, Luo Yuan instantly appeared near the star. He closed his eyes and lay horizontally in the void, letting the star's gravity pull him as he rotated around it.
This time, he finally felt that something was wrong.
Something was wrong and it made Luo Yuan completely awake!
He realized that every decision he made was not based on his own will, but the result of calculation and analysis. Just like when Wang Shishi committed suicide in anger, according to his analysis, her death would not affect him in any way. Therefore, even if he could easily stop her with a finger, he did not do anything and let it happen.
His powerful calculation ability seemed to have turned his consciousness into a puppet of his calculation ability. His consciousness was gradually weakening and becoming secondary.
This situation did not happen all of a sudden but it was a gradual result.
When he first entered the fourth dimension, although his emotions had become indifferent, it was not as serious as it was now. He would care about the opinions of others, especially Chen Xinjie. He would be troubled by his enlarged body size and would try to shrink his body size by any means possible.
However, as time passed, his emotions began to fade and he gradually began to rely on the powerful calculation ability of his brain to make decisions. Rational thinking became the dominant factor. He could not differentiate between the subjective thoughts and rational thinking. He was slowly walking into a maze.
It seemed like there was nothing wrong with this as all the decisions were correct. Humans could lie but cold data and logic would not. However, in fact, the price to pay was the result of the weakening of his subjective consciousness.
In the end, his Will was still too weak. Facing the powerful calculation ability of his mind, he could not control it.
His Will gradually assimilated in the sea of data. For the past three years, his Will did not grow. Instead, it had deteriorated to a certain extent. Previously, he was confused by his thoughts and could not find the reason. Now, he was shocked and completely awakened.
Will was not the coldness of not being affected by anything. It was also not the ruthlessness of looking at people like ants. It was the performance and persistence of subjective consciousness. It was the embodiment of oneself.
If there was no subjective consciousness, life would become a machine that could carry out logical calculations. No matter how powerful and omnipotent one was, it would only be a low-level creature that only had the instinct to seek benefits and avoid harm. It would lose the meaning of life.
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