"Are you a coward?" A beautiful girl stood behind me. She looked at me with a mocking tone and gaze.
It was the first time I saw her. I was shocked by her beauty. I didn't know why there was such a beautiful girl in this world. The moment I saw her and heard her words, I felt insulted. Only after many years did I understand that it was the feeling of not wanting to be looked down upon by the woman I loved.
The young me stood up and puffed up my chest. I gathered my courage and said, "No, I'm not a coward!" I shouted as if the louder my voice was, the more courage I had.
The girl looked at me and smiled. She threw a knife at me and said, "Prove it to me."
I didn't know what to do and took the sharp knife. "What? What do you want to prove? How can I prove it? "I was a bit confused.
"Aren't you very brave? Have you forgotten about the giant lizards that killed our comrades? They ate all of our classmates in front of you. Prove it to me. Ask our classmates to take revenge. Go and finish what they were supposed to do. "The girl turned and walked away, leaving me standing on the spot with the knife.
The giant lizard cave.
The lizard carcasses were piled on top of each other. I came. I did it. I used nerve anesthetics to knock out all the lizards and killed them all.
Before this, I didn't even have the courage to dissect a small lizard on the dissecting table in the science lab. Every time I held the knife or saw the carcass of a dead animal, I would feel disgusted and terrified.
But after I killed all the lizards today, I realized that I didn't feel any discomfort. No, that's not accurate.
In fact, after I killed the first lizard, I finally realized why I didn't fit in with the other people on this planet and in school all these years.
It was that I didn't feel anything! I didn't feel happy or sad. I couldn't feel any emotions. However, I had the fear of losing my life. After I raised the butcher's knife and slaughtered the first lizard, even the remaining fear left me. Maybe fear was the only thing that allowed me to live a normal life like a normal person.
And now that I don't have any feelings anymore, I become very strange. However, everyone thought that I was normal because I could smoothly dissect the lizards in science class. Moreover, he was able to write a dissection report with a high score. I was twelve years old.
Other people thought that I was very normal, but I felt that I was becoming more and more abnormal. Because I don't have any emotions, I want to find something, even if it's fear!
Because when I lost all my emotions, my life became meaningless. I even felt that I should die at once.
At this time, the beautiful girl appeared again. I swear, I did not see her at school. But she was wearing a school uniform.
I had looked for her everywhere in school, but there was no news. Now she appeared in front of me and said, "What is my little boy confused about?"
The moment I saw her, I suddenly recovered a trace of emotion. I can feel the feeling of being alive.
"I don't feel anything. I don't have any emotions. I want to feel something, but I can't feel anything. "
"Perhaps it's because you haven't understood the true meaning of life?"
"True meaning?"
"Yes, why not do some bigger scientific experiments and dissect something more interesting?" The girl smiled charmingly. Under her encouragement, I dissected more and more animals, and the volume became bigger and bigger.
At her instigation, I dissected more and more animals, and they grew larger and larger. I desperately wanted to know the answer, because only then could I find the medicine to release myself. I urgently wanted to know the answer, because only then could I possibly find my own medicine to free myself.
In this world, only I am like this. After I dissected the Mountain Apeman, I still didn't get the answer.
This is the closest species I know of to intelligent creatures. This is the closest I know of an intelligent species. But where is the true meaning of life? Why can't I find it?
"Maybe we should change our target." The girl smiled. She brought me to a beautiful garden on the planet.
Two of my classmates were hugging each other behind a rock.
"What are they doing? Are they behaving intimately? " I was very confused, I didn't know the meaning of a man and a woman hugging each other and exchanging saliva.
"That is love, my little boy." The beautiful girl laughed at my ignorance.
"Love?"
"Yes, it is the sweetest and most enjoyable feeling in the world. With love, you can feel the whole world! "The girl's voice resounded in my ears.
I couldn't resist the urge. I couldn't wait to feel that feeling. "What should I do?"
The girl blinked her big, cunning eyes. "What do you think?"
And so, the first dissection class of intelligent creatures began. But unfortunately, I still couldn't find the thing called love in the dissection.
Where does this feeling come from? How is it formed? Why did it make people feel so good about it?
The disappearance of my classmates caused a commotion in the school. But no one thought that they had been murdered. Because there had been no murders on Titan for more than a million years. Everyone had forgotten what murder was. Even the law didn't mention how to deal with murder.
And I was still alive on this planet. No one knew what Thanos had done. Everyone was looking for the missing classmates.
At home, my mother, the mother who had gone mad, saw through me. She knew what I had done.
She had piqued my curiosity. I am a monster. I can confirm that now. But how did she give birth to a monster?
I dissected my mother on the dissection table. But I still couldn't find the answer I wanted.
I also knew that I couldn't stay on Titan anymore. I wanted to find the beautiful girl to escape with me, but I couldn't find her.
So, I could only seize a spaceship and fly into the vast universe.
I began to wander in the universe without a fixed place to stay. I joined a group of space pirates and robbed wherever I could. Don't misunderstand, I wasn't in charge of killing. I dissected many creatures, but it was all for research purposes. I hated killing.
Then, I met a woman, fell in love (if that counts as love), and had children. Then, I got tired of it. Then, I changed to another group of pirates, and the cycle continued.
I kept looking for love, as if I had had it before. I was looking for my feelings, but I kept getting lost.
Until one day, the beautiful girl appeared again.
PS: The growth of Thanos the Destroyer is still very important. This story is basically from the official comic, Rise of the Destroyer. But I believe that many readers won't read the original comic. So, I still have to write this story.
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