In the struggle, Chu Yunsheng's hand gradually moved away from her lips.
But she didn't dare to call for help. Once others found out, she wouldn't have the courage to face her daughter.
Although her clothes were stripped, she was unusually calm. She was not a woman with ordinary wisdom. After the initial panic, she quickly realized that the more she struggled, the more likely it would stimulate the violent nerves of the perpetrator. She tried to stall for time and tried to be gentle.
"Little Chu, auntie can give it to you, but it's too unhygienic now. Can you take a shower first?"
…
It didn't work. Chu Yunsheng was still tearing her clothes.
In the face of failure, she was not discouraged. She immediately changed her mind and said,
"Little Chu, you are still young. You can't ruin your life because of a moment of impulse. If you need, auntie can introduce you to a girlfriend. She must be prettier than auntie, and more suitable for you. "
…
She emphasized the word "auntie", and her tone was very sincere. But it still didn't seem to have any effect. Chu Yunsheng began to tear off his own clothes.
Facing another failure, she still didn't give up. As long as she didn't take that step, she would still have a chance. She held Chu Yunsheng's hands tightly and said, "Don't worry, I'm not going to let you go. I'm not going to let you go."
"Little Chu, think about it. If you do this, what will your friends think of you? What will Yingying think of you? How will your aunt and uncle in the hospital believe that you would do this kind of thing? And your cousin, you are the elder brother, what will they think of you? "
…
This time, her words seemed to have hit Chu Yunsheng's weak spot, causing his crazy and excited and ferocious pupils to slightly shrink, and the movement of his hands also slowed down. He seemed to be hesitating and struggling, or in other words, he was fighting with some kind of uncontrollable desire that was magnified.
Noticing the subtle changes in Chu Yunsheng, she immediately understood where Chu Yunsheng's weakness was. She let go of her left hand, which was basically useless to stop Chu Yunsheng, and went to do something more meaningful. She took Song Ying's photo frame from the bedside table, held it in front of Chu Yunsheng, and said quickly,
"Little Chu, you have a family. If you do this, not only will it hurt you, it will also hurt them. I also have a family. You will hurt me and Yingying. "
Chu Yunsheng gradually stopped moving. His hands and feet were stiff. The voice that was full of desire was still overwhelming, because it felt that it would not hurt anyone. However, although his rationality and calmness were like a small boat in a raging sea, it did not seem to collapse like before.
She shook Song Ying's photo and continued, "Little Chu, think about it, if you really do this, how do you want me to face Yingying? How do you want my daughter to see me? Also, you are still young and will have children in the future. How do you want your children to view you and their father in the future?! "
The last sentence was like a sharp sword piercing Chu Yunsheng's weak spot. He jumped up from the bed in "panic" and took a few steps back!
In his mind, a calm and rational voice reverberated.
You really can't hurt anyone!? How will you face your daughter? You're not fit to be a father!
…
That loud voice was wrapped in an extremely cold murderous aura, stepping out from the hundreds of millions of fragments, like a cold blade in the hands of the most heroic warrior, rushing towards the instinctive desire in his consciousness. With the full help of the black gas, both sides barely managed to forcibly suppress the monstrous tempting voice.
The external force that seemed to have suffered a heavy blow seemed to sigh in relief silently, but it also seemed to sigh worriedly, and then retreated without a trace, as if it had never appeared before.
At the moment when the tempting voice was about to disappear, Chu Yunsheng vaguely heard a very small, almost fleeting and wonderful girl's voice, as if it came from a distant fairyland. It was the most beautiful music in the world, mysterious but extremely beautiful, making people involuntarily have a kind of yearning.
Then, he felt that there was a kind of bondage in the depths of his soul being loosened, as if he was suppressed in a damp and suffocating dark swamp and suddenly had a trace of clear air.
Unfortunately, the song could not be understood, nor could it be figured out, or even remembered. At the moment when he woke up, it disappeared without a trace, as if the door from which the song came was closed again.
…
"I'm sorry!"
Chu Yunsheng, who had regained his sanity, turned his back, faced the messy desk, and tried to find the words to say, but in the messy room, all the words seemed pale and powerless, he could only say these three words.
He regretted it so much that he wanted to kill the thing that caused the trouble. Anyway, this thing in the world of the Pseudo-Monolith was basically useless except for causing trouble. However, he actually knew very well that the thing that caused the trouble was not the innocent thing. Whether it was hormones or sex hormones, physiological stimulation could not cause him to lose his mind, let alone make him act like a beast.
The problem was himself! To be precise, the problem was in his self-consciousness.
Whether it was the seductive voice, the panic and anger that drove the black gas, or the huge and cold question at the end, they were all his own voice, his own ideas, his own consciousness, and his own emotions. They were not imposed on him by anyone or any external factors!
At this age, he would not refuse to admit that he had a problem, nor would he bury his head in the sand to escape from reality like an ostrich.
He needed to analyze and analyze what the problem was.
He did not deny that there was a "wolf" in his heart. He didn't know whether people were evil or good. He only knew that the reason why people were different from animals, and the reason why people were different from extreme people, was that the human brain was a kind of restrained balance. It knew what could be done and what couldn't be done. Once the balance was broken, some kind of consciousness or emotion, such as hatred, anger, power, lust, or even spoiling, jealousy, etc., would take some unreasonable and extreme actions, such as murder, rape, deception, and so on. Although it seemed unreasonable, it did indeed follow the general law that what kind of consciousness governed what kind of action.
He had also been angry, desperate, and extreme. He had always thought that this was normal, that it was the eruption of emotions and needs, but if he became more and more angry, desperate, and extreme, then it was not normal.
It was not until today when he almost made a big mistake due to his impulsiveness that he realized for the first time that he had to face this problem. What happened today also provided him with the best opportunity to discover the problem. Unlike before, this time he could clearly remember the whole process of the whole thing, including the intense emotional conflicts in his consciousness.
He remembered that a psychologist once said that consciousness and emotions were also a kind of energy, but they could not be seen or touched. Now his thought was exactly the opposite. From the incident just now, he guessed that it was the energy that affected consciousness and emotions, and magnified emotions.
He didn't have much information, so he could only speculate from the black gas. Whether the black gas energy was the energy of destruction, he didn't know, but he knew one thing. The black gas could absorb panic, cause panic, and amplify anger, and so on. There must be some kind of energy that he didn't know that was amplifying the "wolf" in his heart, or the desire that made his hormones impulsive.
Perhaps it was because of the intervention of these messy energy that made his brain unable to maintain the established balance. Sometimes, it magnified anger, and sometimes, it magnified desire. Every time the balance was broken, it put him in a fatal situation.
If this was the root of the problem, then he could only think of two solutions.
The first was to eliminate the root of the problem. Without a root, the base number of the fire was zero. No matter how it was amplified, it would be futile. Although this method was effective, it was impossible to achieve. Chu Yunsheng didn't think that he was a bad person, but he also couldn't erase the evil thoughts that would pop up in his mind from time to time. Moreover, all kinds of conscious thoughts and emotions were the colorful meaning of living. If he erased all of them, he might as well die.
The second solution was to give him a taste of his own medicine. Now, the energy of the desire was growing, and the black gas that could suppress it was weakening, which caused the big mistake that he almost made today. So compared to the cultivation of Yuan Qi stage, it was more urgent to find a way to strengthen the black gas.
In the previous fierce ideological confrontation, he found that he was right about one thing. When he was in the Zhiwu forest, he also realized that as his strength became stronger and stronger, he became more and more arrogant subconsciously. Therefore, the balance in his behavior was actually broken by himself first. He couldn't blame others. Energy was just a tool to amplify conscious and unconscious use.
The root of everything was himself!
Perhaps only at this moment did he really understand a sentence that some of the senior practitioners had repeatedly said. All external things, including growth mucus, weapons, cultivation techniques, etc., were just tools, and cultivating oneself was the root.
He couldn't achieve the state of mind of the senior practitioners. Extremely strong martial arts, the change of environment, living alone in the world … These things had a great impact on his mentality. Compared to the peaceful state of mind of the senior practitioners, it was not an exaggeration to say that he was naive. Perhaps only by giving birth to a spirit could he finally solve this problem. However, he also understood the reality very well. With his current level, he was far from the peaceful state of mind of the senior practitioners, so he couldn't quickly solve the problem in the most correct way. This was a long-term process.
Therefore, in order to restore the original balance, he needed to use the black gas as a weapon to adjust the balance. It was also the only tool in his hand that could manipulate and interfere with the balance.
However, he still didn't know the source of the black gas, and whether it could be cultivated was even more of a mystery. There were no teaching materials for him to learn from, and no one could give him any guidance. He needed to explore everything by himself, or even create a new system.
Fortunately, he was not completely clueless. He knew that the black gas was related to his own changes in consciousness and emotions, but he would not use his own emotions to cultivate the black gas. That was completely suicidal. The only remaining clue was the strange effect of the Yuan Gathering Talisman when he used the Sky Piercing Arrow in the sky above the Arctic base.
However, even so, the risk was very high. He needed to figure out the principle of using the black gas to replace the Yuan Gathering Talisman, as well as the side effects.
This was also a complicated project that required long-term and unremitting research, and the current awkward situation was completely inappropriate.
From the small black bag on the table, he saw a business card with the Chinese word "Su Su" written on it. It must be her real name. At this time, a calm voice came from behind him.
"Turn around."
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