"Then … where should I start? Let's start from when I was still a general. I was a very powerful general. I fought many battles and almost never lost. Although I killed many people and many were afraid of me, I knew that at the same time, they admired me and thought that I was amazing — I thought so too. "
"You were amazing," Sui Xiong nodded and said seriously.
"But later, I found out that all of this was just an illusion. All of my hard work, all of my hard work, all of my achievements, all of my injuries, the support of my soldiers, the recognition of my colleagues, and the trust of the King — all of it was worthless! Facing an enemy that had an overwhelming advantage, I could not defend myself at all. If I had not run fast enough, I would not have been able to protect myself. " The God of Light sighed deeply, and the evil aura on his face weakened. "When I was running for my life alone and was being chased by a large number of soldiers, what I felt was not fear or anxiety, but … emptiness.
"Emptiness, complete emptiness. It turned out that everything was fake. Nothing could be relied on. The only thing that could be relied on was myself and the sword in my hand! "
"Do you think that your sword came out of nowhere?" Sui Xiong laughed coldly. "Miners mine iron ore, smelters cast it into iron ingots, blacksmiths forge it into weapons, and maybe mages enchant it. Without them, where did you get your sword?"
The God of Light laughed again, not intending to argue.
Even if they would have to fight to the death sooner or later, even if they both understood this, at least at this moment, they were still sitting here and talking peacefully.
Since this was the case, why argue? It was a good thing for both of them to say what they were thinking.
Especially for the God of Light himself.
Only by saying it out loud could he feel more at ease.
Following that, the God of Light spoke a lot.
His life, his ideals, and his past.
And all of this, in the end, could only be summed up in one word.
Emptiness.
"Everything in this world goes from birth to death, and after death, it will follow the flow of the Great Cycle and reappear in other ways, going through a new cycle … It goes on and on, never stopping." The God of Light's expression was melancholic and full of vicissitudes of life. "In such a cycle, be it love or hate, victory or defeat, none of them can overcome the power of time. Everything will eventually disappear under the scouring of the Great Cycle, leaving not a single trace. Only this cycle will never stop … In such a world, isn't everything I've done and experienced back then very empty? "
Sui Xiong didn't say anything. As an artist, of course, he could understand this feeling of emptiness.
Therefore, he said, "There will always be emptiness, but we are all immortal gods who transcend time. As surpassers, we don't need to feel empty. "
"Surpasser? Even though he had become a god and was immortal, he had not truly surpassed the Great Circulation. From ancient times till now, it was unknown how many gods had fallen. Had they truly obtained eternity? Even the gods who had lived since ancient times, those who were even older than the Great Circulation. They are just struggling at death's door! " The God of Light said with disdain. "Either they hide in their own world, or they hide in places where no one can find them. Or they become slaves to the Great Circulation and work hard to maintain the stability of the Great Circulation. Isn't this emptiness? I can't see what value there is in such a life! "
Sui Xiong couldn't help but ask, "Then in your opinion, is there no value in me leading everyone forward, correcting the wrong things and rules, and building a new and better era?"
"Your thinking is very similar to mine. If you can't find your own value, then let others confirm it for you," the God of Light said. "After I became a god, for a long period of time, I was immersed in this kind of life. I led the human race forward and won again and again. Finally, we became the strongest race in this world. I found happiness in everyone's happiness and found value in everyone's trust and admiration. This filled the emptiness in me. "
Sui Xiong nodded. "You did very well at that time. Even I have to admire you."
The God of Light revealed a warm smile, but it quickly disappeared. "However, emptiness cannot be filled. It is always there, bothering me."
Sui Xiong looked at her face, which now had a little bit of humanity, and sighed secretly.
The God of Light was undoubtedly an outstanding hero. He could defeat all kinds of enemies, but he could not defeat the emptiness in his own heart. Perhaps this was what the Xianxia novels that he had read before he transmigrated meant, "External demons can be defeated, but internal demons are hard to guard against."
But on second thought, the reason the God of Light worked so hard and kept moving forward was to fill the emptiness in his heart. If not for the existence of this "internal demon," perhaps he would not have had such earth-shattering achievements and would not have reached the heights he had today.
Between success and failure, it was difficult to judge which was good and which was bad.
After the God of Light sighed, he said, "I talked to my teacher about the pain in my heart. My teacher said that he could not understand my pain, but he felt that the emptiness and pain I felt was probably because I was not on a high enough level and could not see far enough. Perhaps a great Divine Power is enough to make the whole world look at you, but above this, there is a higher realm. "
"So, we began to study the great Divine Powers and how to reach such a realm."
Sui Xiong nodded lightly. Most great Divine Powers were studying how to reach the great Divine Power level. Even though their reasons were different, perhaps "wanting to see the scenery at a high place" was the same.
It had nothing to do with good or evil. Wanting to be higher, faster, and stronger was the innate instinct of all living creatures.
"We've looked at many different paths and tried many different methods. In the end, my teacher thought that no matter how strong a great Divine Power is, he could not break through and become a great Divine Power. There is a fundamental difference between the two. So, if you want to break through, the most reliable way is to adjust your own nature and let yourself improve from there. And to do this, you must first find your own nature — eliminate all external interference, and find the most fundamental, the most basic thing. Find your true 'self.' "
Sui Xiong narrowed his eyes. He remembered that Morani had shown him the scene before the God of Knights had fallen.
At that time, the priesthood of the God of Knights was constantly weakening, and in the end, even the most basic priesthood was gone. But his power became stronger and stronger, beyond imagination.
"My teacher decided to personally test this path. He tried and failed," the God of Light said with a sigh. The God of Light sighed and said, "Even if he is strong enough to rival a few great Divine Powers, his essence is still not strong enough to withstand such an attempt. But from the glory of his last moment, I think that the path he found was correct. It was just that he did not have enough power to continue down this path. "
Sui Xiong was stunned. Then he understood and could not help but sigh.
Before, even when he became a great Divine Power, he had no way of understanding the situation of the God of Knights at that time. It was only now, beyond the attributes and rules, that he truly understood what had happened at that time.
What the God of Knights found was actually not the path from a great Divine Power to a great Divine Power, but the first step from a great Divine Power to a Surpasser.
"My teacher is really amazing. When he was only a great Divine Power, he already saw the path to becoming a Surpasser." As a Surpasser, the God of Light of course understood the truth of the God of Knights' step. As he spoke, he showed a look of admiration. "Although he was too biased towards his youngest student, this did not affect his wisdom."
"… Are you talking about my big brother? The God of Knights did not even tell Him his true identity. Is this called bias? That old man passed the throne of the Human Master God to you and even used his own life to find a way forward for you. Are you still not satisfied with this? "Sui Xiong frowned and could not help but refute.
"You will not understand. To my teacher, to really care about a person, is not to interfere with them, not to restrict them, and to let them develop freely. Only when they need help the most … That is how he treated Yorgaardman. And I am just a successor that he found to take over his job after he was seriously injured in the war with the ancestor beasts! "
Sui Xiong shook his head. He really could not understand the God of Light's thinking.
He could not help but wonder if the God of Light, Wuther … had already gone crazy?
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