When she woke up, she saw a white ceiling.
The smell of disinfectant echoed with the monotonous ticking of the instrument.
Luo Xian raised her eyes in confusion and heard hurried footsteps outside the door. The awakened doctors pushed the door in and gave her a comprehensive examination.
They didn't miss anything.
Then, they were puzzled to find that the originally weakened soul seemed to have been reborn from a cocoon, but it wasn't damaged or better than before.
There was no change.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Although they couldn't find any reason to explain this situation, there was no way to dissect or do any in-depth research. Some people wanted to give it a try under the ban, but after being glanced at by the old man who was leaning against the wall, they obediently gave up on this bold idea.
In the end, they could only leave with the conclusion that everything was normal.
Only the father and daughter were left in the ward.
Elder Luo blew a breath and closed the door. Finally, he looked at his daughter who had woken up. He looked at her carefully for a long time and shook his head in confusion.
"It feels like nothing has changed."
"Yeah, it seems to be the same as before."
Luo Xian looked down at her hands. She didn't seem to care about everything that happened to her.
It was just difficult to understand.
The characteristics of the abyss still remained in her, but the human part didn't decline at all.
She wasn't reborn as a human, but she didn't die as a monster either.
The two sides mixed together again in an unpleasant way … But this time, there were no benefits like before. After losing the strengths of both sides, all the flaws of both sides were retained.
Without the brutality and cruelty of the abyss, she was given the weakness and limitations of a human …
Was this a success or a failure?
No matter how she rejected the past and how much effort and determination she put into it, at best, it just changed the position of the two sides on the scale.
She didn't fall into the abyss, nor did she return to the human side.
Instead, she wandered between the two sides.
She looked completely different from the past, but her essence didn't change at all. This kind of appearance really made people feel helpless and unbearable from the bottom of their hearts.
"How funny, Xiaoxian."
The old man shook his head and saw through the failure of this effort at a glance. "This is your essence. It can't be changed, even if you are given love …"
He made a decisive judgment without any warmth.
He was already well aware of the outcome of this farce.
There were some things in this world that couldn't be changed with hard work alone, no matter how strong one's will or desire was. The physical world never relied on Origin Substances, and if you tried to use Origin Substances to interfere, you would have to be prepared for the situation to worsen.
The more you want to get, the more the world will give you, but what you get may not be the result you want. In the end, other than emptiness and disillusionment, there was nothing left.
That was how hell was created.
Regardless of the literal meaning of 'hell', it was all the same.
"Did you find anything, Xiaoxian?"
"I don't think so."
Luo Xian tilted her head and thought for a while. Then, she laughed self-deprecatingly, "I seem to have lost a little more … I always feel that the losses outweigh the gains."
After losing his original ferocity and predator nature, he was given a weak sense of compassion, but the hunger and inadequacy in his heart had never been satisfied.
She was still incomplete.
The old man nodded, not minding it at all. He just bent down and squeezed his overly sturdy body into the small sofa. He crossed his legs and asked, "So, did you learn anything?"
"If you want to say it, I don't think so."
Luo Xian shook her head and sighed regretfully, "I was given a sense of compassion, but the desire to kill something in my heart became even stronger.
Is this what you meant by getting worse, father? After experiencing what love is, not only was I not satisfied, but I also yearned for that kind of thing even more … "
Happiness was obtained through death, love was obtained through killing.
No matter what, there was no way to make up for this natural flaw.
The temporary satisfaction caused the monster side to temporarily retreat, but the desire for something that had once been obtained was thousands of times stronger than before.
It would only become crazier.
"It's okay. Don't you still have father?" Elder Luo slowly got up and reached out to her, "Let's go home."
"No, father."
Luo Xian thought for a while, shook her head, and said seriously, "I already have someone I want to kill."
"… Hm? Is that so? "
"Yes."
Luo Xian smiled. Until now, a trace of rosy appeared on her pale cheeks, and her dark eyes were filled with joy, expectation, and love.
"What kind of person is he?" The old man scratched his head in confusion, "Can you introduce him to father?"
"Father, haven't you already met him?"
Luo Xian thought for a while and recalled the past memory, "He's not like you, father, who could be indifferent to what I did. He's also not like the otherworldlings in the abyss who praised what I did. He's also not like the others who were afraid of my food and avoided me … After seeing my food, he actually wanted to taste it."
Speaking of the scene at that time, she couldn't help but smile, "Although he spat it out after just one bite and cried uncontrollably, he really didn't die."
"At that time, I suddenly thought — this is probably the arrangement of God, right?
When I was at my loneliest, a person I wanted to kill was sent to me, and a person I couldn't kill became my friend, constantly reminding me of the ugliness and distortion. "
"I don't know how to describe such feelings … but I want to kill him."
Luo Xian looked at her father and told him seriously,
"Or, it's the same if he kills me."
In the long silence, the old man looked at his daughter and raised his eyebrows in astonishment.
He didn't know if it was pity or pity, but he couldn't help but shake his head.
"… The first love in more than twenty years is actually one-sided? What a pity, Xiao Xian … "The old man sighed softly," Whether it's killing or being killed, loving or being loved, I'm afraid you won't get it. "
"That's enough, isn't it?"
Luo Xian still looked at him and calmly accepted this reality, "Didn't the books say that first love is always restrained and inexperienced? It's just that you can't get the result, it's not to the extent that it's depressing, right?"
The old man thought for a while and nodded, "That's true."
He asked, "So, are you planning to leave home?"
"Did you see through it?"
"A father has to understand his daughter, right?" The old man asked, "Where do you plan to go? Rome? America? The Russian Federation? London? Or outside of the present world? "
"I haven't thought about it yet."
Luo Xian thought for a while and shook her head, "I'll go out and walk around. Since I was born, I haven't been out of Jinling much … In this case, father will have a lot less worries, right?"
"Will you come back?"
"I'll naturally come and take a look when I pass by." Luo Xian said, "Although it's a pity that I didn't kill you, I also hope that you can live a long life and not die in the hands of others."
"I'll try my best."
The old man nodded indifferently. He looked at his daughter in front of him and felt that she was a little strange.
It's really hard to understand.
Did she grow up unknowingly? Or was it the magic of love that made people grow up?
But in any case, it was time for her to face the world alone.
It was like watching a fledgling who spread its wings to challenge the authority of the elders.
Under the harsh and strict scrutiny, his eyes became gratified and helpless, "The greedy evil spirit actually yearns for restrained love. How ridiculous, Xiaoxian … Do you have such a dream?"
"People always have dreams, right?" Luo Xian replied hopefully, "Maybe, one day, people like me can also be redeemed."
"Yes, maybe."
The old man nodded and gently stroked the girl's long hair with his rough big hand, full of kindness, "I hope you can enjoy this dream, Xiaoxian.
If one day you find that you've woken up from your dream, come back. I'll be here waiting for you. "
He said, "Then, I'll kill you —"
He would kill the monster he created with his own hands and bring the final relief to his daughter who had completely despaired of the world.
"Okay."
Luo Xian nodded, feeling the last tenderness of the old man.
This was the final agreement between father and daughter.
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When Huai Shi woke up in the same hospital, it was already a week later.
He only remembered that he dragged his heavy injuries to Yoo Dong-ri and drank a lot. After that, he fainted and fell to the ground. He woke up once in the middle, and seemed to be on the operating table. In his dizziness, he heard the chief surgeon's disbelieving sigh.
When he closed his eyes and opened them again, he was already lying on the hospital bed. He looked at the familiar ceiling and smacked his lips, feeling that something was wrong.
After a deep sleep and recovery, those injuries had already healed, but Huai Shi still couldn't get up. It was the aftereffects of using too much Origin Substance.
Before the crack in his soul healed, he would probably have a nervous breakdown and insomnia for a long time.
When he picked up his phone, he saw Yoo Dong-ri's message. He saw that Huai Shi didn't know when he would wake up, so he happily paid for a month's medical expenses and went to Shambhala alone for his so-called hot spring recuperation and hunting trip.
Huai Shi was extremely envious when she saw the photos of him with various young ladies in his circle of friends, as well as the huge humanoid robot that loomed in the background.
If he had known earlier, he would have been more shameless and followed him.
It would have been good to touch the robot!
When he opened the internal app of the Astronomical Society, he saw a notice sent to him by the legal department. The secret trial of Ai Qing had already started yesterday.
Thanks to her excellent defense and Ai Qing's own ability and value, or perhaps because of some political transaction and protection that Huai Shi didn't understand, in the end, because she took the initiative to surrender, she was only sentenced to 20 years of border service, which was to be executed immediately.
Unfortunately, the place she was in charge of was a confidential organization and unit. Huai Shi didn't even know where she was going or how to contact her.
When he called the original phone, he only received a voice notification that the phone was turned off.
She seemed to have suddenly disappeared from the world that Huai Shi could touch, like a phantom evaporating in the fog, leaving without a sound.
Huai Shi didn't feel anything at all.
And another thing … was that for some reason, due to the recognition of Huai Shi's own talent and various reasons, he was promoted from a temporary 'action member' to an official military officer in the Astronomical Society.
Other than receiving partial legal immunity and the identity of an official member, under the recognition of the Dongxia genealogy, he replaced Ai Qing's original position and became the new inspector of Xinhai …
After two weeks, he would be able to receive the authority and information from the headquarters and become the representative of the Astronomical Society in Xinhai.
Originally, the inspector needed to go through training and assessment at the border of London before being officially appointed, but for some reason, when it was Huai Shi's turn, they were so perfunctory and careless, only sending an electronic notice and file verification.
How did he 'improve' like this?
"What is going on?"
Huai Shi sighed in confusion. 'After messing around, not only was he not removed from his position, he was even promoted?' What were those people from the central management department thinking? Shouldn't a young man like him, who had a mental problem, be trained more?
In the end, Huai Shi could only conclude — there was something wrong with their heads.
In any case, a salted fish like him was definitely not as responsible as Ai Qing. Basically, he would touch if he could, drag if he could, push if he could, and play if he could … The Astronomical Society wasn't even afraid of him, so what was he worried about?
He had full confidence in himself.
He wasn't sure about other things, but he was too good at digging his own grave.
Give me two months, and before the new year, I will be able to get rid of this position!
By then, the sea will be wide, and the sky will be wide, wouldn't that be perfect?
Huai Shi propped himself up and leaned against the headboard, finding a more comfortable position. Soon, he saw the small box between the fresh flowers on the bedside table.
The packaging was familiar.
He seemed to have seen it somewhere before.
When he reached out and opened the box, he saw the bright crystal lying on the black velvet, a miracle condensed from faith and prayer.
The light of divine grace.
Below the crystal, there was a small note. Someone had left a message in beautiful handwriting. It seemed to be a farewell, but there was no name written on it.
Huai Shi was stunned.
After a long, long time, he picked up the note in his hand and stared at the message. "The sun will rise as usual?"
He was amused.
No matter what happened, the sun would rise as usual, illuminating everything old or new, and then set as usual, throwing the good and the bad into the darkness.
Even if some things seemed to be an earth-shattering upheaval or an incredible miracle, no matter who was born, or who disappeared, or who came or who left … it would not stop.
This world would be the same without anyone.
And it was the same for everyone.
No one was indispensable, just like no one was impossible to exist.
There was no parting that was unacceptable.
"… Can't you just say goodbye?"
Huai Shi shook his head and sighed helplessly.
Where did she learn this hard-core way of saying goodbye?
Or was she really so strong that she threw the possibility of reuniting to the back of her mind and wanted to say goodbye to him forever? Let her be. Anyway, a scourge like her would cause trouble even if she was thrown to the border.
He would think about it when the time came.
Well, even if she came crying to him and asked his good brother Huai Shi to help her, even if she was willing to do anything in return, Huai Shi would never be soft-hearted!
Thirty years on the surface of the river, thirty years at the bottom of the river …
Don't bully the young for being poor!
Thinking of the scene of Ai Qing admitting defeat and begging him, Huai Shi could not help but laugh loudly!
After a long, long time, in the slowly rising sleepiness, he fell into a deep sleep.
Outside the window, the night passed little by little.
After an unknown amount of time, the dim sky lit up again with the soft morning light. A new day was coming, as if the old day was about to end.
The sun rose as usual.
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