When Han Leng saw Zhao Youyue's gentle response, he felt as if he was back in his first year of high school. She had the same short hair, and she was thick-skinned. She would come to his door and ask him to write a remorse letter, and even throw money at him …
He did not know why, but when he recalled this incident, his heart softened. He knew very well that Zhao Youyue was like the clouds in the sky. He could not touch her no matter what, and could only look up to her. However, he could not help but want to get closer to her, even if it meant doing something meaningless and self-gratifying.
In his private notebook, who knew how many pages were filled with her, whether it was poetry, prose, or essays. It seemed that as long as he thought of her and her gentle smile, he could not stop his pen.
That was once his biggest motivation for writing. Even the inspiration for "Beautiful April" came from a scene where he secretly saw Zhao Youyue playing the violin amidst the falling cherry blossoms.
However, "Beautiful April" eventually deviated from his original intention, which made him feel very strange.
Whether it was the long-haired Zhao Youyue or the short-haired Zhao Youyue, it made no difference to Han Leng. The long-haired goddess Zhao Youyue reminded him of the time when he was addicted to Chu Luoxun, or Ah Yu's songs. The short-haired Zhao Youyue gave Han Leng an unforgettable feeling of first love. At the same time, this form made him feel closer and more approachable.
To be honest, the long-haired goddess Zhao Youyue's aura was too strong. She would become the center of attention wherever she went. The feeling of a pampered lady with a slight smile was really stressful. Men who were not extremely confident would be easily crushed by Zhao Youyue in this form. They would not even dare to look at her directly.
If this was in those wuxia novels, it would be the so-called "Confrontation of Qi." A face-to-face encounter could cause people to "lose their Dao heart." This was the scary part of the long-haired goddess Zhao Youyue.
Han Leng was not a confident man. He was a coward and a coward, especially in front of Zhao Youyue. It was as if he had met his natural enemy. When Zhao Youyue transformed into a goddess and went on a killing spree, he watched from afar. Although he really wanted to know the relationship between Zhao Youyue and Chu Luoxun, he did not dare to do so. He felt that listening to Zhao Youyue's music to sleep was a blessing.
Now that he saw Zhao Youyue with her short hair again, he finally regained his courage. He had regained some of the courage he once had when he went against Zhao Youyue. He really wanted to please Zhao Youyue, but he was too clumsy when it came to relationships. He would always be at loggerheads with her. He even felt inferior because of the difference in status and identity between him and Zhao Youyue.
All in all, Han Leng's feelings towards Zhao Youyue were too complicated. The word "like" was not enough to describe it. After all, he had met Zhao Youyue more than once.
Yet, every side of her fascinated Han Leng. He tried to "fall in love" with Chu Luoxun to break free, but in the end, he found out that Zhao Youyue was the 3D Chu Luoxun …
Han Leng did not know how to describe the despair he felt when he found out about this. Of course, there was also an indescribable surprise. He thought that he had "fallen in love with someone else," but in the end, he found out that he was more loyal than anyone else.
His world was filled with Zhao Youyue. Even though he could only look at her from afar, it was enough to make him feel happy.
He was probably the only man in the world who clearly liked someone and even loved them deeply, but he didn't want to do anything out of the ordinary to pursue them. He just didn't want to regret anything. He would maintain a suitable distance. He felt that love wasn't possessive. Love was to appreciate her blossoming.
Love was simply writing for her.
Ordinary people would never be able to understand the brain circuits of hipsters. Therefore, it was easy for ordinary people to fall in love and be happy. If they really liked someone, why would they bother with so many superficial things? They would just go straight for it. Even if they were rejected, it was better than doing nothing, or even taking the initiative to distance themselves.
Han Leng was not an ordinary person. He felt that ordinary people did not understand love at all. Ordinary people probably knew that they had to get married and raise their children. That was why ordinary people had no choice but to get married when they were old enough, even if it was just to make do with it.
Such a life was meaningless!
Ordinary people had no talent. Therefore, they could only prove that they had lived through reproduction. They hoped that their descendants could worship them after they died.
But Han Leng did not need to do so. His works were his children. He never doubted that he could write a masterpiece in the future, and let the whole world remember him. Why would he need to live a meaningless life like an ordinary person?
The more he thought about it, the stranger Han Leng became. He felt that he was no longer an ordinary person. Otherwise, a normal man would not be so happy to cross-dress in front of Lady Zhao, right?
No matter how popular cross-dressing was now, for most men, it was still too shameful. It even made them feel like they had lost their dignity. It was completely perverted.
This could not be helped. After all, most men were not as talented as Han Leng. They were more beautiful than girls after cross-dressing. This was the embodiment of justice …
"It's all thanks to you that my work could sell so well … I've also listened to those songs. They're really good. If there's an album, I'll definitely be the first to buy it." Han Leng thanked her sincerely.
In the past, Han Leng always felt that Zhao Youyue was purely using him, treating him as a tool. Although he was very willing to be used, he would always feel awkward in his actions. Now that he thought about it, he felt that he was too immature.
Now that Han Leng knew Zhao Youyue's identity as Ah Yu and had quietly done so much for him, he felt that he owed Zhao Youyue too much. He even felt that if he was in Zhao Youyue's shoes and met a man like him, even if he had a good impression of him at first, he would be completely disappointed later on.
Therefore, Han Leng abandoned some of his improper thoughts. He simply felt that he should be more respectful and humble towards Lady Zhao. He wanted to do something for her, to repay her.
When Zhao Youyue heard Han Leng not throwing a tantrum, she felt that Han Leng had completely grown up. She was very pleased about this. She always liked everyone to go along with her wishes.
"The music is just a small matter. Don't take it to heart." Zhao Youyue was still magnanimous.
She suddenly thought of something and smiled, "The Great Scholar Han, what's the price of your love letter?"
Han Leng's expression changed. Zhao Youyue was actually writing a love letter to someone else?
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