In the evening, Lu Yiwei left home after dinner. Before leaving, Fan Chunfang specially went forward to straighten his clothes, and even took out the scarf she had knitted for him. She said with concern, "It's cold outside, don't catch a cold."
Lu Yiwei looked at Fan Chunfang's complicated eyes, smiled, touched his cheek, and turned to leave.
After Lu Yiwei left, Fan Chunfang felt empty and quickly ran to the balcony to look for him. She was very afraid, afraid that Lu Yiwei would leave her and go far away with Xia Jinhe. But even if she was afraid, she still hoped that the two could meet. Perhaps everyone would feel better if the knot in their heart was untied.
Even so, Fan Chunfang had to be on guard. She quietly kept Lu Yiwei's ID card with her, naively thinking that it could keep him. If Lu Yiwei really wanted to leave, would a mere ID card be able to stop him?
Lu Yiwei did not drive, but chose to walk. Although it was the beginning of spring, the weather was still cold. Usually, when he went out, he would get into the car, not knowing how cold it was outside. Today, he came into close contact with nature, and everything was so beautiful.
At this time, Xia Jinhe had received a call from Fan Chunfang, and was eagerly standing at the window, looking for a familiar and strange figure in the crowd. More than 20 minutes later, the familiar person finally appeared. Before seeing him, Xia Jinhe was already in tears.
He was still so handsome. Tall and straight, with a cold and handsome face, wearing a khaki coat, he walked slowly in the crowd. Thinking of the first time she saw him, he was also dressed like this, and he had not changed at all.
When he came downstairs of Donghu Hotel, Lu Yiwei subconsciously looked up. It seemed that they had a telepathic connection, and he happened to see Xia Jinhe standing in front of the window. A warm smile completely melted Xia Jinhe's heart.
If one were to find the most charming part of Lu Yiwei, perhaps it would be his smile. When he smiled, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and the strength was just right. Like the golden point, it seemed natural and warm. It was this faint smile that had captivated many women.
Lu Yiwei went upstairs with a perturbed heart. He walked to the door and took a deep breath. Just as he was about to knock, the door opened.
"You're here." Xia Jinhe flashed an extremely unnatural smile.
"Mm." Lu Yiwei returned the compliment with a smile and stood there silently.
"Come in." Xia Jinhe stepped aside and slowly moved his eyes away. She had imagined countless scenarios of meeting Lu Yiwei. Perhaps the other party would give him a warm hug out of excitement, or perhaps they would glare at him with resentment, or perhaps they might even give him a slap on the face … but there would only be a smile on his face.
When Lu Yiwei passed by, Xia Jinhe could smell the faint smell of tobacco on his body. This smell was so familiar that she was a little lost.
Lu Yiwei sat in front of the sofa. Xia Jinhe brought a cup of tea to him and said, "This is your favorite scented tea. I know you like to drink strong tea, but it's not good to drink strong tea at night, so I only put a little in it. Try it and see how it tastes."
Lu Yiwei took a sip and nodded. "It's pretty good."
"You haven't changed." Xia Jinhe sat on the other side and said, "You're still the same."
"Is that so?"
"Mm." Xia Jinhe tried to avoid Lu Yiwei's eyes, but from time to time, they would meet each other's eyes. It seemed quite unfamiliar. She kept rubbing her hands and didn't know what to ask next.
"How are you doing?"
"I'm alright. I'm pretty good."
"Lang Lang should be very cute, right?"
"Mm, he's quite cute."
Xia Jinhe stood up and took out several bags from the cabinet and put them on the coffee table. She said, "I bought you two sets of clothes, but I don't know if they'll suit you. There's also one for Uncle and Auntie, and one for you … "
"Thank you."
Xia Jinhe opened another box and took out a shiny watch. She said, "This is the watch I bought for you. Do you like it?"
"It's okay. I made you spend a lot of money."
The two entered a short conversation, which made Xia Jinhe very embarrassed. She didn't know how to break the deadlock. She desperately tried to find a topic, but she couldn't talk about it. Lu Yiwei took the initiative to ask, "Is Jinpeng with you now?"
"Mm." Xia Jinhe nodded and said, "He works in a company now."
"Is he OK?"
"He's recovering quite well." Xia Jinhe said, "Yiwei, I don't know how to thank you. If it weren't for you, Jinpeng … I don't dare to think about the consequences."
"It's all in the past. Don't mention it. As long as he's fine." Lu Yiwei wouldn't use this to morally blackmail Xia Jinhe. For him, all this was what he should do.
Xia Jinhe started to talk and said, "Yiwei, do you hate me for leaving without saying goodbye?"
Lu Yiwei said expressionlessly, "What do you think?"
Xia Jinhe quickly avoided his eyes and said in a panic, "I also regret making such a decision. I really regret it. I know you hate me, and I hate myself. Yiwei, can you forgive me? "
Lu Yiwei lit a cigarette in distress and said with his head tilted, "In fact, there's nothing to hate. It's been so many years. I have my life, and you have yours. As long as we both live well, it's fine. Let's forget all the things in the past."
Xia Jinhe suddenly squatted on the ground and cried with his hands covering his face. Then, he burst into tears. It seemed that he had vented all the emotions he had suppressed over the years, but he didn't know how to get Lu Yiwei's forgiveness.
Xia Jinhe's cries were like needles, stabbing Lu Yiwei's heart. His face twitched slightly, and his fingers trembled a little. He didn't stand up to comfort her.
After a while, Xia Jinhe stood up and said, "Yiwei, do you remember what happened in the past? Jinpeng was detained because of everyone. My mother left with hatred, and our child passed away before he was born. At that time, I was completely desperate about life. If it weren't for you taking care of me carefully, I might have jumped off the building. You changed me, and I left you. "
"I know you've always had a knot in your heart, and you want to know why I chose this path." Xia Jinhe wiped his tears and said, "Today, I can uncover this mystery. Now you know that Jinpeng has congenital heart disease, but I didn't expect that I also have it. I didn't know it until the last time I was hospitalized. The doctor whispered to me and told me a shocking news. She said that I couldn't get pregnant with my condition. So, under the doctor's advice, I aborted the child. "
Hearing this, Lu Yiwei couldn't sit still. He grabbed Xia Jinhe's arm and said, "What did you say?"
Xia Jinhe was unmoved and said calmly, "Yiwei, I hid this fact at that time because I didn't want to make it difficult for you. You know how painful it is for a woman to be infertile. This is very unfair to you. I know you very well. Even if you know my condition, you will never abandon me, but I can't do it. Instead of not being able to give you a complete family, it's better for me to choose to leave early. "
Lu Yiwei slowly released his hand and sat there in a daze. In fact, when Xia Jinpeng was found to have congenital heart disease, he had already guessed that Xia Jinhe would also have it, but he didn't expect it to be true. He suddenly thought of Tong Huan. Why were the two women's fates so similar, and why did they leave him with the same excuse? Why?
Xia Jinhe felt a lot more relaxed after he said the words that he had been suppressing in his heart. He continued, "Yiwei, my heart has been suffering all these years. I wanted to come back to you several times, but I didn't have the courage. But you didn't leave my sight, and I've been watching your every move. Moreover, I still love you until now. "
Lu Yiwei's heart felt like it was pressed by a stone, and he couldn't breathe. He calmed down for a while and said, "Jinhe, you're too stupid. You're so stupid that you're a little angry, so stupid that you're a little headstrong. Have you considered my feelings? Have you considered how I've spent all these years? After you left, I felt like the whole world collapsed. So what if I don't have a child? Do I care? Have you asked me? Why did you make such an arbitrary decision and leave so cruelly? In fact, I've been waiting for you. I'll be satisfied if you just call me and let me know whether you're dead or alive. "
Xia Jinhe felt relieved when he heard this. His words were full of love, which meant that Lu Yiwei still cared about her very much. That was enough. She said, "Yiwei, as you said, it's all in the past, and it's impossible to go back to the past. I'll bear all the consequences that led to the current situation. I only hope that you can forgive me. "
Lu Yiwei was silent for a long time, and then he got up and said, "Jinhe, there's no such thing as forgiveness between us, because I've never hated you. I'm satisfied now that I know you're living well. Live a good life with Chen Zhongqi in the future, and tell me that you're safe when you have time. I'm leaving. "
"Wait!" Seeing that Lu Yiwei was about to leave, Xia Jinhe became emotional and even lost her mind. She said, "Yiwei, come with me. Come with me to the US, and we'll start a new life together, okay?"
Lu Yiwei was stunned. After a long time, he turned around and said, "Jinhe, if you said this five years ago, I would've gone with you without any hesitation. But today, I have my career and family, and I can't be an irresponsible husband and father. Chen Zhongqi is a good person, and I can see that he loves you very much. Don't let him down. Perhaps he has given you more than I have, and there are some things that I can't give you. "
Xia Jinhe suddenly pounced over and hugged Lu Yiwei tightly from behind. She pleaded, "Yiwei, please don't leave me, okay? I know that I'm wrong. Give me time to make it up to you, and I'll definitely treat you better. "
Lu Yiwei's five viscera and six bowels were in intense pain. He closed his eyes and calmed himself down for a while. Then, he pulled Xia Jinhe's hand away and said, "Jinhe, I admit that I still love you, but I can't go with you. Forget about me, and it'll be a kind of happiness to have a memory of each other in the future. As for right and wrong, is there a right and wrong in love or not? "
"No!" Xia Jinhe shouted with a heart-wrenching voice, "Yiwei, I've already bought the plane tickets. We can leave tomorrow morning. Come with me!"
With his back facing her, Lu Yiwei finally chose to open the door and leave after an intense struggle in his heart.
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