I Miss You, Do You Know?
Qin Sheng was not a heartless scumbag. He just buried the pain deep in his heart and endured it silently. He would not let the outside world guess his feelings. Moreover, after he had made his choice, he had to move forward without hesitation and act as if nothing had happened. He knew what others would think of him, including his relatives. But he would not care about what they said, because he knew what he was doing.
Qin Sheng believed that there must be someone in the Song Family who knew about the relationship between him and Lin Su. If he was not resolute enough this time, how would the Song Family think of him? How would they agree to marry Song Ruyu? After all, the Song Family was opposed to it. If he was overcautious and hesitant, someone in the Song Family would definitely stand up and oppose it. At that time, the loss would outweigh the gain.
Secondly, Song Ruyu must have known about it, but she did not mention it. But it did not mean that she had no opinion. Because she was a smart woman, she knew what would happen if she mentioned it. Song Ruyu did not care about the past and only cared about the future. In that case, Qin Sheng's attitude was the most important.
Therefore, Qin Sheng did this.
Although Qin Sheng had broken up with Lin Su, he did not remove the people who had been protecting her. They were all arranged by Bao Fan. If Qin Sheng wanted to know, he could totally know Lin Su's recent situation. Before he left, he even told Bao Fan to protect Lin Su's safety and make sure that she would not have any accidents, let alone let anyone bully her. Unless something like this happened and Qin Sheng might intervene, Qin Sheng did not want to know about other things.
Because even if he knew, so what?
…
Since the day Qin Sheng left, Lin Su felt that her world had collapsed. Qin Sheng's departure also took her soul with him. She knew what Qin Sheng was going through. All the pressure and responsibility were about to crush him. Every time she saw it, she felt sorry because Qin Sheng was really tired. So Lin Su did not blame Qin Sheng. She really did not blame him.
She only felt a little regretful, really regretful. She had thought that they would be able to walk to the end, and that they could live peacefully for the rest of their lives. She had imagined the scene of them getting married and even secretly tried on wedding dresses with her best friends. Her best friends all said that she looked really beautiful in the wedding dress. She secretly took a photo and wanted to send it to Qin Sheng. But in the end, she held back because she wanted to save the most beautiful moment for last and give Qin Sheng a big surprise.
She had even planned where they would go for their honeymoon. She wanted to go to Palau or Tahiti. However, if Qin Sheng had a place he wanted to go, she could give up and accompany him to the place he wanted to go. This was because when she liked a man, all her habits, principles, and everything else could be changed for this man. This was her, she could not like someone for the rest of her life, but once she liked someone, it would be for life.
But she knew that Qin Sheng would definitely give up first, because Qin Sheng would go along with her in everything. Every time she thought of this, Lin Su would secretly laugh. It seemed that every time they had a disagreement during dinner, Qin Sheng would also go along with her.
Lin Su had also thought that if they had children one day, she could totally give up all her career and go back home to take care of her husband and children. She wanted to be a good wife and a loving mother, a daughter-in-law who could cook well. Anyway, their family was not short of money. She must take good care of Qin Sheng and their children, because she knew that Qin Sheng might be very busy.
Therefore, when she found out that she was pregnant that day, Lin Su was really very happy. She wanted to tell Qin Sheng this good news immediately and tell him that he was going to be a father. She believed that Qin Sheng would also be very happy. However, she was a little hesitant, because she knew that this child might not come at the right time, because the Qin family was really too difficult during this period. If Qin Sheng knew about it, he would definitely be worried about her. She did not want to distract him, so she secretly thought about aborting the child. But in the end, this idea flashed through her mind, because this was the crystallization of their love. She really could not bear to give it up, and she knew that Qin Sheng would definitely not.
Therefore, she wanted to wait for a period of time to tell Qin Sheng. When there was some change in the Qin family, or when the Qin family's affairs were completely over, or when Qin Sheng was not so busy, then she would tell Qin Sheng. She was already looking forward to Qin Sheng's reaction at that moment.
What a pity, what a pity …
Unfortunately, there was no need for it now. Unfortunately, it would never happen again.
However, Lin Su had already decided that she would secretly give birth to this child. She would raise the child alone. She would not tell Qin Sheng, nor would she use the child to threaten him, etc. She just wanted to keep this child. When the Lin family's affairs were almost done, when her belly was too big to hide, she would go to the United States to raise the child in peace.
Why?
Because Lin Su knew that she would never meet someone like Qin Sheng again. She would never like anyone else again.
These two days, Lin Su was very, very tired. If it were not for the fact that she was really too busy with the company's affairs, Lin Su would just stay by herself quietly. She did not want others to find out what was wrong with her. She really needed time to ease these feelings. She was afraid that she could not take it anymore. She was afraid that she would completely collapse.
However, the company's affairs were too busy. Lin Su could only carry her exhausted body to work. As a result, there were a few times when she was in meetings or chatting with clients. Everyone also found out that her spirit was really too low. They even thought that she was really sick.
At the same time, Lin Su had to tell herself that even if it was only for the child, she had to be strong. She had to be strong.
Xue Qingyan came over today. As she happened to be working nearby and was closer to Lin Su's company, she came over. After all, she had promised Qin Sheng that she would take care of Lin Su. She was also worried about Lin Su being alone. Most importantly, she knew that Lin Su was pregnant. It was because she was the one who accompanied Lin Su to the hospital that day. However, Lin Su had reminded her not to tell Qin Sheng first. She would tell him later.
Xue Qingyan did not greet Lin Su. She and Lin Su became closer later on and often came to Lin Su's company. She was already familiar with the way. She went directly to the company. Even the front desk did not stop her and let her go directly.
However, when she was at the door of Lin Su's office, Lin Su's secretary suddenly stopped Xue Qingyan and whispered, "Sister Xue, Boss Lin has been a little off these days. I don't know what happened. Do you know? "
Xue Qingyan was very surprised and said, "What's wrong? Is she sick or …? "
"We don't know. She looks like she's out of her mind. She is often in a daze and her expression is very bad. We asked her to rest, but she did not rest. We asked her to go to the hospital for a check-up, but she did not go. You should hurry and persuade her," the secretary explained with a frown.
After hearing this, Xue Qingyan frowned slightly. She nodded and went into the office.
In the office, Lin Su sat on the sofa and looked at the scenery outside the window. She was in a daze. No one knew what she was thinking about. She did not even know that Xue Qingyan had come in.
After Xue Qingyan came closer, she found that Lin Su was indeed a little off. After observing for a long time, she asked, "Susu, what are you thinking about?"
Lin Su heard the voice coming from behind and was shocked. Then she came back to her senses and found that it was Xue Qingyan. She smiled subconsciously and said, "Sister Qingyan, why are you here?"
Xue Qingyan explained casually, "I'm doing something nearby. I just finished my work and got bored. So I came to see you. I haven't seen you for a few days. How are you?"
After that, Xue Qingyan raised the things in her hands and said, "These are the tonics I bought for you. You are not alone now. Take care of yourself."
Xue Qingyan was the first to know about this. It was estimated that she was the only one who knew about it. Last time when she went to Beijing, she almost spilled the beans. Fortunately, she held it back in the end. Otherwise, Lin Su would definitely blame her.
To be honest, when Xue Qingyan knew about it, she was happy and envious. Because Qin Sheng was Lin Su's real girlfriend, she was naturally happy. However, her ambiguous relationship with Qin Sheng made her envious of Lin Su. Because she liked Qin Sheng silently, she also believed that Qin Sheng knew about it.
"Sister Qingyan, thank you." Lin Su chuckled.
After Xue Qingyan sat down, she asked, "I heard from your secretary that you are not in a good state recently. You look a little pale. What's going on?"
"Nothing. Maybe I'm a little tired recently." Lin Su smiled bitterly. She did not want to tell anyone about her breakup with Qin Sheng, let alone Xue Qingyan. Because if Xue Qingyan knew about it, she would definitely look for Qin Sheng. At that time, Qin Sheng would also know that she was pregnant. Then there would be more trouble.
She did not want Qin Sheng to worry, nor did she want Qin Sheng to be in a dilemma. She did not want to drag Qin Sheng down.
Xue Qingyan did not believe it. "Really? Did you quarrel with Qin Sheng? If so, tell me. I'll teach him a lesson. "
"Sister, really. I'm just a little tired," Lin Su replied quickly.
Xue Qingyan felt that something was wrong. She said, "Then what's wrong with you? Could it be that you are sick? If you are really sick, you must go to the hospital for a checkup. You have to know that you are pregnant now. You have to be more careful. "
"Sister, I know." Lin Su was touched.
Xue Qingyan added, "If you are tired, you need to rest. Don't work so hard. Think about your child."
"Okay, okay. Sister, I'll get off work now." Lin Su did not know whether to laugh or cry.
After making sure that Lin Su was fine, Xue Qingyan was slightly relieved. Then she asked, "Are you not going to tell him yet? How long do you want to hide it from him?"
Lin Su lowered her head and shook her head. "Let's wait for a while. Don't worry. Wait until he is not so busy. Otherwise, he will go back and forth again."
"Okay. Since you said so, I won't say anything more. It seems that you have to go for a checkup in two days. I'll go with you then." Xue Qingyan thought of this and said.
Lin Su refused politely. "Sister, it's okay. I can go by myself."
"No, I have to go with you. I promised Qin Sheng that I would take good care of you. I can't rest assured if you are alone," Xue Qingyan said firmly.
Lin Su had no choice but to agree.
They continued to chat until Xue Qingyan felt that Lin Su was really a little tired. She was about to drag Lin Su to eat. However, Lin Su said that she was really too tired and wanted to go home to rest. Xue Qingyan did not insist and left first.
After Xue Qingyan left, Lin Su stood in front of the French window again. She touched her belly and looked out of the window at the lights. Finally, she silently shed tears.
Because she knew that no matter how big and lively the city was, no matter how brightly lit the tens of thousands of houses were, not a single light was lit for her, and no one was waiting for her to come home.
Qin Sheng, I miss you. Do you know that?
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