A Letter
When Qin Sheng was in Shanghai, he had already sorted out the situation of the Qin Family. He knew which figures and forces were involved in it. He did not dare to say anything else, but he might be clearer than most people about the internal disputes of the Chang 'an faction. After all, Qin Sheng had been in the center of such a storm many times, so he had some experience.
As for the Song Family, Qin Sheng also had his own considerations and plans. Even if his sister Qin Ran had any reservations, Qin Sheng would still give it a try. However, he did not tell his sister his reasons.
Qin Ran did not ask, and Qin Sheng did not say much either. He had already made up his mind to meet Old Master Song first and test the Song Family's attitude. As for the result, it was not important. Liu Bei had to pay three visits to the thatched cottage to invite Zhuge Liang. If such a big matter could be settled in one go, it would be too unbelievable.
After Qin Sheng and Qin Ran finished their conversation, Gongsun suddenly brought Qin Sheng into the study alone. He said that Master Qin had left him a letter. As for the content, he did not know. Maybe he would understand after reading it.
This was not the first time Qin Sheng walked into the old man's study. The old man's study was not smaller than the living room. Other than a lot of books, there were more antiques and artworks collected from all over the place. However, Qin Sheng did not agree with the old man's taste. No wonder his sister often mocked him. However, his mind was not on this at this time.
Gongsun took out a letter from one of the interlayers of the bookshelf. The envelope was made of yellowed kraft paper. It had been sealed to prevent outsiders from opening it. Gongsun slowly passed it to Qin Sheng.
This morning, when Qin Changan got into trouble, the joint investigation team searched the whole study and took away a lot of documents and related things. Fortunately, this letter was not found. Gongsun was still capable of this.
"Young Master, take your time. I'll go out first. If you need anything, just call me. I'll be waiting at the door," Gongsun said respectfully. After Qin Changan got into trouble, Gongsun seemed to have naturally treated Qin Sheng as the master of the Qin Family. He treated Qin Sheng the same way he treated Qin Changan. His loyalty to the Qin Family was beyond doubt.
After Gongsun left, Qin Sheng did not rush to open the letter. He closed his eyes subconsciously. Until this moment, he seemed to feel the pressure that the old man had been under recently. He did not know how many nights the old man had spent in the study and how many cigarettes he had smoked to relieve the pressure. He heard from his sister that the old man's hair had all turned white. Although Qin Sheng did not see it, he could imagine what it looked like. He must have aged a lot.
After a long time, Qin Sheng opened his eyes and walked to the desk unhurriedly. He slowly sat on the seat that the old man used to sit on. From today onwards, he would play the role of the old man. He would bear all the responsibilities and pressure. He did not know if he would make everyone satisfied or disappointed.
He opened the envelope and took out the letter. Although there were only a few pages, Qin Sheng felt that it was unusually heavy. He did not know what the old man would say to him. What he definitely did not know was that this letter was written by Qin Changan last night. All the words that he wanted to say to Qin Sheng were written on it. This was a conversation between a father and his son. This was the inheritance of two generations of the family. It contained Qin Changan's guilt, expectation and worry towards Qin Sheng. It also contained the escape route that Qin Changan had arranged for Qin Sheng.
Opening the letter, Qin Sheng's most intuitive feeling was that the old man's handwriting was really beautiful.
It was not inferior to his at all. It seemed that the Qin Family had this tradition. Although he had not seen the handwriting of his Big Uncle and Big Sister, he estimated that it was definitely not bad.
At this time, Qin Sheng took a deep breath and finally began to read this letter seriously. He estimated that the words in this letter were more than what the old man had said to him. The communication between father and son was always like this. Even if those things had not happened in the past, with their characters, they would definitely not get along like Qin Changan and Qin Ran.
"Son, I'm sorry."
These were the few words at the beginning. It was the first time that Qin Changan had called Qin Sheng in this way. This touched Qin Sheng's heart a little, especially with the apology at the end. Qin Sheng was more or less at a loss. He did not know what the old man was thinking when he wrote this letter at that time.
"When you read this letter, something must have happened to me. Because I feel that what should come has finally come. Otherwise, I would not have written this letter. So please forgive me, as a father, for I can no longer take care of you and your brother in the future."
Qin Sheng's expression was serious, and his eyes were full of determination. He could imagine how much pressure the old man was under at that moment.
"Son, I'm sorry that you have been wronged all these years. Maybe you already know about the unforeseen event in our Qin Family more than 20 years ago. No matter what the final reason was that made you leave for so many years, in the final analysis, it is my fault that I, as a father, did not protect you well. This is one of the things I feel the most guilty about. I am sorry to you, to your sister, and to your mother who has passed away for many years. Because of me, you were separated for so many years. What I am more sorry to you is that I made you lose your mother's love. I know how painful it will be when you come back and know that your mother has passed away for many years. I can understand how painful it will be for a son to want to raise his mother, but his mother is gone. I can understand that God gave you hope and disappointed you. It is really cruel to you. If God gives me another chance, I will not become Qin Changan in the eyes of others. I only want to be a qualified husband and father. I don't want to have any power or money. I just want to have a warm family. With your mother and you, this life is enough. "
"I know it is useless to say these now, but I still want to say it. Because these years, I really miss your mother, and I really miss you. I don't know how many nights I have thought of you. When I think that I can never see you again in this life, I feel a little painful and sad, which makes me feel that I have been a failure in my life. Fortunately, God wasn't that cruel. He sent you to me again. When I heard about you, you don't know how happy I was. It was just like how happy I was when I saw you being born. I was happier than if I had earned a million, ten million, or a hundred million. "
"But son, with the status and influence of our Qin Family, you are destined not to live like an ordinary person. Because we have too many things beyond our control, because we are related to the fate of too many people. You definitely don't understand why I don't have time to bring you back to the Qin Family. Because I can't. If I bring you back casually, it will only put you in more danger. Maybe I will get you back, but I will lose you again. I have to consider everything for you. This is a responsibility that a father must have. That is why there are so many things after that. I can only observe you in secret and train you, hoping to see what kind of person you are, so that I can arrange your future. "
"Son, I'm not a man who knows how to express his feelings, and I don't know what to say to you, but I want you to know that if there's only one man in this world who loves you and your sister deeply, it's definitely me. If there's only one woman, it's definitely your mother, because we're your parents, and we can give up everything for you."
When he read this, Qin Sheng's eyes turned red. He never thought that the old man would say such words in another way. Maybe he didn't know how to say it in person, so he wrote such a letter to express his feelings.
"Well, I won't say more about these things. I think you can understand my feelings. Now, let's talk about what you will face next. When you chose to enter the Chang 'an school, I already knew your life choice. You didn't run away from everything, but chose to face the storm calmly. Because you are a man of the Qin Family, and there are no cowards in the Qin Family. The current you is the me from back then. The me from back then might not have been as good as the you now, but I've already made it through. What's impossible for you? So believe in yourself. Everything is possible. Even if you fail, no one will blame you, not even me. Perhaps this is the fate of our Qin family. "
"Now, let me tell you what on earth happened. Who are the opponents and enemies of the Qin Family? What kind of predicament is the Qin Family facing? And what kind of situation will you encounter? I will only tell you these, but I won't tell you how to do it, because I don't know how to do it, because no one told me how to do it in the past. Anyway, if you can really get through this, I think in the future, your achievements will definitely not be lower than Qin Changan's. You have to believe that setbacks and tribulations will never defeat the Qin Family. Only we can defeat the Qin Family. "
When he read this, Qin Sheng had put away his emotions just now. He adjusted his breathing and calmed down, and began to read the following things seriously. These were the important things, which were related to what he should do next, and related to the future of the Qin Family.
A few minutes later …
Qin Sheng finally finished reading what the old man had told him. He finally understood the storm that the Qin Family was facing. However, his mood was heavier than before, because the situation was more serious than he had thought. He seemed to think of what the old professor of Tsinghua University had said by the lake. It seemed that this was the real problem of the Qin Family.
What should he do?
No matter what, Qin Sheng would not give up …
At this time, Qin Sheng had already read the last part of the letter.
"Son, I have said what should be said. I think you already know what to do, so I won't say anything more. Otherwise, it will only make you more stressed. Finally, I just want to say one thing, that is, no matter what happens, you have to take good care of yourself and your sister. This is my only request for you, because I have already lost your mother, and I don't want to lose you too. Otherwise, after I die, I really don't know how to face her. After all, I already owe her enough, and I can't repay her in a few lifetimes … "
After reading this sentence, Qin Sheng's heart was even more touched. He thought that the old man had already said what should be said, but he did not expect that there would be another sentence at the end. After reading this sentence, Qin Sheng instantly burst into tears.
Because this sentence was: Son, how I want to hear you call me dad.
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