It was already late at night.
After chatting with September Frost Leaf, Lin Feng closed the chat window and turned off his computer.
Then, he continued to sit quietly in front of the table, thinking back to the conversation with his old friend. He was slightly dazed.
Reuniting with an old friend was supposed to be a joyous occasion.
Moreover, seeing that September Frost Leaf was able to achieve such a high popularity on DouYu TV after his retirement and successfully made a name for himself in the streamer circle, as a friend, he should be happy for him.
But …
Lin Feng wasn't happy at all.
No, he was happy for his old friend's current state of life.
But at this moment, his heart was filled with even more complicated and indescribable emotions.
Regret.
Dissatisfaction.
Disappointment.
Perhaps all of them. All kinds of emotions and thoughts swirled in his mind, making Lin Feng feel tired but not sleepy at all.
After thinking for a moment, he picked up his phone and dialed a number.
… …
Du — Du — Du —
The call connected.
A pleasant female voice came from the other end of the line. She sounded a little out of breath.
"Hello? What's up? Why are you calling me so late? "
Lin Feng called An Xin.
In fact, at this late hour, the only person he could talk to was An Xin, his childhood sweetheart.
Lin Feng hummed in acknowledgment. Then he felt a little puzzled.
"What are you doing?"
"You're panting so hard."
The girl on the other end took a deep breath and smiled. "It's nothing. I was just working out at night. I'm done now."
Lin Feng: "Huh? You're still working out this late? You're still up? "
The girl pursed her lips in disdain.
"What's wrong with that? You're still up this late, aren't you?"
"Oh …" Lin Feng was speechless.
The observant girl could tell from Lin Feng's tone that he was depressed. She softened her tone and asked in a soft voice,
"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?"
"Yeah."
"I didn't know a big idiot like you would be in a bad mood. Tell me, what happened? Hey, isn't Sister Xue's first broadcast on DouYu TV tonight? Could it be that things aren't going well? "
Lin Feng shook his head. "No, Sister Xue, DouYu's premiere episode did very well tonight. It exceeded my expectations by a huge margin."
On the other end of the phone, An Xin was slightly delighted. "Is that so? That's great. Oh yes, what are you unhappy about?"
"It's not that I'm unhappy …"
Lin Feng hesitated for a moment before slowly opening his mouth.
"Yesterday, I contacted Ye 'zi to help Sister Xue on DouYu. Tonight, I played two games with him and chatted for a while."
"Leaf?" An Xin paused for a second before she realized what it was. "September frost leaf?"
Lin Feng nodded: "Yes."
The girl was a little puzzled. "Haven't you two always had a good relationship? After not contacting each other for so long, you should be happy to be able to contact each other and play games together."
Lin Feng shook his head and thought for a moment. He carefully told her about his conversation with September Frost Leaf that night, as well as some of his own thoughts.
…
"Well, that's basically it."
Lin Feng felt a lot more relaxed after telling An Xin all the things that had been buried in his heart.
There were some words that he couldn't even say to the person in question.
But he could tell Steamed Bun.
They had been childhood sweethearts for so many years, and he had long since come to view the girl on the other end of the phone as the person he could trust and rely on the most. There were many things he couldn't figure out, and his first reaction was to ask An Xin for her opinion.
This time was no exception.
Lin Feng let out a sigh of relief. He remembered that An Xin had been listening on the other end of the line and hadn't spoken for a long time.
"Steamed Bun?"
The girl's voice came from the other end of the phone.
"Yeah, I'm here."
"So … are you unhappy because of Ye 'zi?"
Lin Feng nodded. "Yeah. I'm not really unhappy. It's just that … I'm feeling a little regretful and disappointed."
The girl asked softly.
"Then why are you disappointed?"
Lin Feng thought for a moment, then gave his honest answer.
"I don't think he should've retired so early. If he wanted to, he could've played another season or two.
"He has won the World Championship Trophy once, but it is not the World S-League Championship. If he continues to work hard, he might really be able to win it —"
Before he could finish his words, An Xin interrupted him.
"But there's a chance he won't, right?"
"That's the risk."
Lin Feng still wanted to say something, but the girl on the other end of the phone had already continued to speak.
"One is to fight for the S-League championship for another year or two. But at the same time, he'll have to bear the pressure of not being able to play well, not having a good income, and having to train hard.
"The other is to retire at the peak of his career and become a streamer. It's an easy life with a good income.
"In these two situations, anyone would be able to easily make a choice."
"Isn't that right?"
Lin Feng fell silent.
Anxin continued to speak softly, "Don't worry.
"Not everyone has the determination and courage to advance bravely in the face of a torrent."
It's a gamble. You can't see any hope, but you still have to grit your teeth and fight for another year or two.
"That's too much to ask."
"Also, for a former professional esports player, it is already very difficult to make such a choice to say goodbye to the arena where they shed their blood and sweat, and to say goodbye to their dreams."
"If it's Ye … he probably won't be in a good mood either."
Lin Feng was astonished.
Thinking back to the conversation he had with September Frost Leaf, as well as the few times she had remained silent, Lin Li's heart was finally stirred slightly.
Perhaps …
He was indeed too subjective.
There were some things that Ye probably had his own difficulties.
At this time, An Xin, who was on the other end of the phone, seemed to be touched by this topic. She sighed softly.
"The lifespan of professional esports players is still too short …"
"It's rare for a Gold Peak to last more than two years."
"If I have to watch my strength fall from its peak without being able to do anything about it, I might as well retire earlier. That way, I can relax a little …"
An Xin seemed to have thought of something. She chuckled and asked Lin Feng a question.
"By the way, what if you?"
Lin Feng: "Huh? What? "
An Xin chuckled. "What would you do if you were Ye Ye?"
Lin Feng replied without hesitation, "You're right.
"Of course I wouldn't retire. I would definitely continue to be a professional esports player."
The girl asked.
"Even if your strength falls from its peak, it'll still be the same. Is it okay to watch as you walk further and further away from your dreams?"
Lin Feng pondered for a moment.
"Then I'll still keep playing."
"If your strength has fallen, then you'll just have to work harder to make up for it."
These simple and pure words represented an incomparably serious and firm belief and determination.
The girl on the other end of the phone paused for a moment, then smiled.
"Yeah."
"You stubborn, hot-blooded idiot. As expected, this is your style ~"
"Everyone has their own choices. There's no need to criticize others for their decisions."
"As long as you know you're still following your heart and working hard for what you truly want, that's enough."
"Isn't that right?"
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