"No one in the family is willing to do anything. I do everything! I have to take care of all of you. I have to cook, take care of the whole house, and take care of Ah Jing. I have to do everything. I don't have a day of freedom or freedom. I don't even have time to be sick. Nothing can do without me … "
Chen Shengdi suddenly cried and shouted hysterically. Her words were very messy, as if she was complaining about something.
These words seemed to be old words. Compared with Lin Qianfei's casual words, it was obvious that these were Chen Shengdi's daily complaints. She didn't know how many times she had said it.
This was probably part of the real situation of this poor family. All the housework was put on Chen Shengdi's shoulders, which had already overwhelmed her nerves.
At the same time, Lin Guowei's face became darker. In the blink of an eye, he seemed to have aged a lot. He slumped on the chair, very confused.
Seeing the changes of the couple, Gu Jun, Wang Ke, Cao Yicong, and others knew that it was them who were directly related to Lin Jing's disappearance.
Gu Jun's heart tightened. A bad premonition was slowly being proven to be true, and a tragedy was slowly surfacing. He didn't even want to think about the truth. Some dark images were surging in his mind, making him unable to tell whether it was imagination or illusion …
Taken to the deep mountains and abandoned … pushed off the cliff … buried in the pit dug with a hoe …
He took a deep breath and said, "Auntie Chen, please calm down and tell us everything that happened that year."
"If you tell us clearly, we will deal with it." Wang Ke added more pressure to the two people. The square face had a dignified face that had been cultivated for a long time. "If you don't tell us clearly, Lin Qianfei and Lin Longxuan may need to cooperate with our investigation for a period of time, which will definitely affect their studies."
"We really don't know how Ah Jing disappeared!" Lin Guowei suddenly said anxiously. He was nervous, afraid, and a little angry. "It has nothing to do with Feifei and Longxuan. They don't know anything. If you want to arrest us, then arrest us. If you want to shoot us, then shoot us!"
The middle-aged man yelled very loudly. He slammed the coffee table angrily with nowhere to vent his anger. The loud bangs echoed in the old and messy living room.
If it was another villager, he might have been startled by Lin Guowei, but Gu Jun and the others didn't move. They didn't say anything and just watched.
Chen Shengdi, on the other hand, gradually calmed down or became depressed. She mumbled something, but she did not make any sound that could be heard clearly. Her red, teary eyes flickered with a complicated expression. She seemed to be looking at the old certificates of merit students on the opposite wall.
"It's me …" She suddenly said with a trembling voice, "It's my bad mouth, it's all my fault … I shouldn't have said that to him … it's all my fault …"
Gu Jun frowned slightly and exchanged glances with Wang Ke. Things seemed to be different from what they had expected.
While Lin Guowei became stiff and silent again, Chen Shengdi told him some things that no one knew about in the past.
Three days before Lin Jing disappeared, Chen Shengdi scolded her son. The reason was that Lin Jing used his feet to kick other children's basketball on the basketball court in front of the village. He got into an argument with the other children and was pushed by them. They almost got into a fight, and then a parent came to complain.
Lin Jing said that he just stood there and wanted to help kick the ball back. If he had hands, he would have caught the ball and thrown it back.
But the other children insisted that he was causing trouble, that his feet were dirty, and that he was a monster …
Chen Shengdi didn't stand on her son's side. She scolded Lin Jing in front of the parent. After the parent left, she was still very angry and continued to scold Lin Jing. "What are you doing on the basketball court all day? You can't play. You quarrel with others and cause trouble. It's annoying enough to wait on you, but you still cause trouble!"
In fact, in the past, Chen Shengdi often complained and scolded her eldest son like this. She didn't understand, and she felt very bitter in her heart. She thought that it was fine.
"Ah Jing is also my son, and I raised him. It's not his fault that he doesn't have hands. I know how hard it is for him, so how can I really blame him …"
At this time, Chen Shengdi who was recalling the past choked with sobs. But that day, she also scolded him viciously. She had never scolded him like that before. At that time, she actually regretted it after she scolded him, but she didn't want to admit that she was wrong. Until now, it was too late for regrets.
"I said … I should have listened to people and thrown you away when you were born. Then you wouldn't be a burden to me for the rest of my life …"
Listening to this, Gu Jun's heart couldn't help but sink. His breathing became heavier, as if he could feel Lin Jing's pain at that moment.
But he knew that he might never truly understand that feeling, even if his original family wasn't very good.
Chen Shengdi continued. Three days later, in the evening, when she returned home on the tricycle carrying two children and a few bunches of bananas, Ah Jing had already disappeared. She said that she didn't lie about that part, and Lin Guowei didn't lie either. That afternoon, he was indeed out of town, and he came back to join the search for Ah Jing.
After searching for a few days, they couldn't find him … so they didn't insist on continuing the search.
But they were very sure that Ah Jing had left home on his own, and he should still be alive for a period of time.
Perhaps the handless beggar that people from the neighboring village saw on the streets of Eastern State was him …
For this reason, the couple had purposely gone to Eastern State, to the rumored street, to look at the beggars from afar.
But they didn't see any sign of their son, and they didn't go up to ask. Perhaps their son was not there, or perhaps they just didn't see him. After that one visit, they stopped looking for Lin Jing. They pretended that their son was no longer in this world, that this person did not exist …
They found a kind of release, and the family became less difficult. Qian Fei and Long Xuan's lives became better.
But after so many years, when had the couple ever truly let go of their missing, handless eldest son …
After listening to the story, Gu Jun and Wang Ke decided not to make any further judgments. They watched as Lin Guowei smoked the cheap cigarette, and Chen Shengdi stood up and walked to the master bedroom that was connected to the living room. Gu Jun and Cao Yicong followed. They saw Chen Shengdi take out something from an old-fashioned wedding suitcase that sat on the dresser beside the bed.
"This paper was left behind by Ah Jing … That day when I got home, the paper was on the coffee table …"
Chen Shengdi's face was blank, and she was holding a small piece of white paper in her hand.
Gu Jun accepted the old paper and saw a line of words written with a blue ballpoint pen. The handwriting was crooked and laborious, but the writer tried his best to control every stroke.
It was Lin Jing's handwriting, but it was hard to tell how he wrote it.
"I'm leaving. Don't look for me. When I've lived enough, I'll commit suicide."
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