Ning Que looked at the fist print on the tree and asked, "What's wrong?"
Sangsang did not say anything. She walked back to the small courtyard with her hands behind her back, and he followed her.
It was early spring and the tree in the courtyard did not have many leaves. She walked to the tree and looked at the trembling branches. She said, "Since it's not true, then let me go."
Since Ning Que thought that they were just living together, and it was not a way for him to keep her in the human world, then he should not stop her when she wanted to leave.
"You can leave at any time," Ning Que said behind her.
Sangsang looked at the branches. Amidst the flapping of its fan, a black crow landed where she was looking.
She said, "If I really want to leave, you will kill yourself."
Ning Que did not say anything.
Sangsang turned around and looked at him. She asked, "Do you want me to die so badly?"
This was the sixth time she said this to Ning Que, or thought of it in her heart.
"I just don't want you to go."
Ning Que did not avoid her eyes and said, "Even if you leave, where can you go? You have been to the human world, how can you sit in the cold Divine Kingdom for a long time? "
Sangsang said, "I should be there."
Ning Que said, "Where is that? You often say that this is the world of Haotian, and the Divine Kingdom must be in this world. Then what is the difference between the Divine Kingdom and the human world? "
Sangsang said, "Now your teacher is there."
Ning Que said, "Why do you have to stop my teacher? Why do you have to stop us? Don't you want to know what is outside this world? "
"This is my world. I am the rule of this world. My existence comes from the unique characteristics of this world. If you want to destroy the characteristics of this world, then I cannot exist."
Sangsang looked at his eyes and said calmly, "This is the most fundamental contradiction between me, your teacher and the Academy. It cannot be solved. If you insist, you will kill me."
"Do you want me to die so badly?"
This was the seventh time.
Ning Que looked at her quietly and said, "Don't go back. Become a real person, and we will live together."
Sangsang said, "People will die."
Ning Que said, "Cultivation can lead to longevity. We will cultivate together."
Sangsang said, "I want to maintain the existence of this world."
Ning Que said, "I don't understand. There are obviously other ways to solve this problem. Why do you have to guard this old world? What are you guarding?"
Sangsang said, "I don't understand either. Why do you and some humans in history have to leave this world? What do you want to know?"
Ning Que said, "What we want to know is very simple. We want to know what's out there."
Sangsang said, "I don't want to know."
All of her logical thinking, to be more precise, all of her life carried the objectivity of rules. If the human instinct was to yearn for freedom, then her instinct was to be self-contained and self-consistent.
Ning Que took a step forward and stood in front of her.
The crow on the branch cawed coldly.
He held her hand, looked into her eyes, and said, "Become human, then we will live together, cultivate together, buy groceries together, eat together, and do many things together."
Sangsang had never looked at herself in the mirror since she came to the human world. She was not very happy with the face she made according to the most mediocre human face and the tall body she made according to her own will. So at this moment, she felt strange and confused when she looked at the woman in Ning Que's eyes.
"Why do you want to do this?"
"Even if it's for human beings, and of course, most importantly for me, please stay."
In Sangsang's eyes, the ordinary face in his eyes suddenly shattered into countless pieces of light and shadow, unable to gather together again, so her eyes returned to indifference.
"No." She looked at Ning Que and said calmly, "Countless years ago, human beings chose me and woke me up from the chaos. They wanted me to bring them eternal peace."
Ning Que didn't know what to say. He didn't understand why his words made her react so violently. He thought it was the choice of human beings that made her wake up, but after hearing her next words, he realized it was because of him.
"Now I can understand that imagination and curiosity about the outside world are instinctive desires of human beings. But those people don't include you, because you are not from this world."
Sangsang looked at him and said, "You come from outside the world, so you know very well what the outside world is like. You have been telling me about that world since 20 years ago. I haven't forgotten it, and I can clearly see the picture of that world in your consciousness."
Ning Que felt his body gradually become cold. He said, "That world … is very beautiful and full of vitality. There are countless real suns, and it is full of warmth."
"You are lying."
Sangsang's voice was still so calm, without any extra emotion. But her words were like thunder exploding in the sky above Chaoyang City. Countless people were shocked and looked up at the sky.
"Your world is full of danger. The burning sun may explode at any time, and it may go out at any time. Most of the places are as cold as the Netherworld. Be it the weak ordinary people or the stronger cultivators, none of them can survive in that world. "
Ning Que said, "The life of a star is hundreds of millions of years. How can it explode at any time? I admit that most of the places are cold, but that world is really big, and it can always find a suitable place. "
Sangsang said, "Even hundreds of millions of years is just a very short time for life that needs eternal life. Not to mention that your world will eventually go to nirvana, and nothing will be left."
Ning Que was silent for a long time, and then said, "Or, there will be some memories left?"
Sangsang's words left no room for warmth. "There is no temperature, and there is nothing. Nirvana is the end. There is no eternity, and that is the greatest horror. "
Ning Que shook his head and said, "It's not like that … I admit that you are right. The outside world may really go to nirvana, but in the long years before that, life can walk to the edge of the world, or directly break the world, and find the way to a new world."
Sangsang said, "What if it can't be found?"
Ning Que didn't know why he was a little angry. He said in a low voice, "You have never lived in that world. How can you be sure that human beings can't find a new world?"
"Because I am not a human being. I never deceive myself as a comfort."
Sangsang looked at him and said calmly, "Compared to my world, the outside world is more like the Netherworld. What you want to do will make me think of you as the Son of Yama."
Ning Que hadn't heard of the Son of Yama for a long time. Many years ago, including some people in the Great Divine Priest of Light, had been guessing that he was the Son of Yama. Later, the title fell on Long Qing for a short time, and finally Sangsang took over the name.
Now he naturally knew that there was no Yama, and Haotian was Yama. But at the same time, he had to admit that Sangsang was right to some extent.
The world he had lived in was so cold, so turbulent, and so dangerous compared to this world, just like the Kingdom of Yama.
He came here from that world, brought the information of that world here, and strengthened the belief of the Academy and the Headmaster of the Academy. If the Haotian world was really broken and went to a wider universe, but was eventually destroyed, then his arrival would bring the shadow of Yama to this world.
This speculation made him very cold, and he subconsciously became angry. He looked at Sangsang and shouted, "You always want to win in everything, even in a discussion. You have never admitted defeat, not even once. Why?"
Sangsang looked at him quietly with a slightly pitiful expression.
Her expression made him even angrier. He walked to the tree and slapped it heavily. The black crow on the branch looked down at him, but didn't fly away, nor did it make an unpleasant sound.
"It's been so many years. Ever since you could speak, I've always listened to you. In other people's eyes, you're my little handmaiden who serves me every day. When I say go east, you don't dare to go west. When I say eat dry rice, you don't dare to boil the rice. But you should know very well what the real situation is. Before I say go east, you look to the east first. When I say eat dry rice, that's because you poured out the leftover porridge the night before!"
Ning Que turned to look at her and shouted angrily.
"In Min Mountain, I risked my life to catch a deer. You just looked at me, and I let it go! When you were eight years old in the City of Wei, the fat aunt proposed marriage for you on behalf of her distant nephew. You were not happy, and I almost killed that boy that night! You said you wanted to go back to Chang 'an, so I went back! You said you wanted to sell your calligraphy, so I wrote for sale! "
"You said you wanted to rent the shop on Lin 14th Street, so I rented it! In the end, I almost sold my life to Chao Xiaoshu! For you, I slapped Long Qing's face swollen. Just because he used you to threaten me, I didn't care if I offended the West-Hill Divine Palace or caused trouble for the Academy. I directly shot him into an idiot. Well, well, well, well, well, well, I was chased by Ye Hongyu like a dog! And this, this, this, this broken place! "
He pointed to the small courtyard, looked at her and said in a trembling voice, "Was it fun to turn yourself into the Daughter of Yama? For me, it was really not fun at all. The whole world wanted to kill you, and I was the only one who carried you on my back. I was really scared at that time. I couldn't beat them, did you know that? But I still fought them, didn't I? "
Sangsang did not speak, but just looked at him quietly.
"I have never disobeyed your opinion. I will do whatever you want, and I will not hurt you. There is no such possibility in my mind. It has been like this since the day I found you in Hebei Province. I pity you, I love you, and I value you more than my own life."
Ning Que's voice gradually became lower, but his emotions became more agitated. He said, "Because I was also abandoned by the whole world at that time. At that time, only you were by my side. You survived because of me, and I survived because I had to support you. What is natal? This is natal. "
Sangsang looked up at the sky, which was gradually being invaded by the darkness, and did not speak. The black crow perched on the branch slightly tilted its head to look at the two people in the courtyard, as if it wanted to figure out the current situation.
"Youngest Uncle was killed by you, but I was not born at that time, so I could ignore it. But … I can no longer say that I have nothing to do with my teacher's death."
Ning Que's voice became a little hoarse, very low, and very tired, as if he would collapse at any time. She did not know whether it was because he had talked too much or because he was too emotional.
"At that time by the Sishui River, I could have stopped you, because you are my natal, but I didn't … I thought it was because I forgot, but later I found out that I didn't. It was just that I instinctively let myself forget it, because I was really afraid of your death."
He looked up at the stars in the night sky and the moon that was about to appear. After a moment of silence, he continued, "I have never told anyone about this. But in fact, everyone knows about it. Even the Senior Brothers and Sisters in the Academy know about it. But they have never mentioned it."
"For you, I can give up everything, I can be shameless, I can give up my life, not to mention loyalty, righteousness, honor, and morality. If it was in the past, I could kill everyone in the world for you. As long as you are alive, as long as you are well, I don't care what others think of me, how they talk about me, how they laugh at me, how they hate me, and how they are afraid of me. "
Ning Que looked back at her and said with tears in his eyes, "But … not this time. My Senior Brothers and Sisters in the Academy, and those people in Chang 'an, they are very good to me, and also to you. If I let you go back, my teacher will die, the Tang Empire will be destroyed, and there will be no Academy in the world. So I can't listen to you. "
The moon finally appeared in the night sky, just behind him, but it was not bright, because the moon waxed and waned. The moon tonight was so dim, as if it could be extinguished at any time.
"I will die, too."
When Ning Que spoke, Sangsang had been silent until now.
She looked at him and said calmly, "If it weren't for the Academy and you, I wouldn't have been forced into such a mess by those monks in the Xuankong Temple. You should know that I am getting weaker day by day. If you don't let me go back to the Divine Kingdom, I will die one day. Don't talk about becoming a real human and then cultivating. I have said that I don't like to deceive myself. I am Haotian, how can I become a human? If I become a human, will I still be who I am now? How can you guarantee that I will be alive? "
The Headmaster of the Academy was the first person in the world of Haotian for tens of thousands of years. Haotian's coming to the human world was also something that had never happened in history. As for him, the guest from the outside world, he was even more special. No one knew the final ending of the story written by the three of them.
Haotian didn't know, the Headmaster didn't know, and Ning Que didn't know either. So he couldn't answer this question. He could only walk to the door of the kitchen and turned back to ask her, "Shall I cook a bowl of noodles for you?"
Sangsang looked at him quietly. There was no disappointment in her eyes, only indifference.
"I have no appetite."
After saying this, she walked back to the bedroom and covered herself with the quilt. Like a child who was angry, she pulled the quilt up high to cover her face, as if it would make her feel better.
After a while, Ning Que walked into the bedroom, lifted the quilt and helped her up.
She said, "I said, I don't want to eat noodles."
Ning Que said, "Warm your feet before you sleep."
Sangsang then saw a pot of hot water in front of the bed.
Ning Que squatted down and took off her shoes. He tested the water temperature and found that it was just right. He put her white feet in the water and carefully washed them, not even the gaps between her toes.
It was a quiet night.
Sangsang didn't get up when she woke up in the morning. Instead, she continued to lie on the bed and look at the roof. A spider web was formed on the clean beam, and the spider waited quietly at the edge of the web. When an insect bumped into the web, it would crawl over and kill the food in the most enthusiastic way, and then greedily suck the delicious juice.
"We can't go on like this. We need to make a decision." She turned sideways and looked at Ning Que's face. She said, "If you don't let me go, I will kill everyone."
Ning Que rubbed his eyes and said, "There is no rice left. Remind me to buy a bag of rice when you buy vegetables."
They cooked a pot of porridge with the remaining rice in the rice jar. After they finished it, they went to the market. They went to the rice shop first. When Ning Que was about to pay, he suddenly found that there was a head in the bag of rice.
It was the head of the rice shop owner.
Blood seeped out of the bag. As for the rice in the bag, it had long been dyed red. It looked like the blood rice of the Kingdom of Qi, and it gave off a disgusting smell of blood.
The shop assistants and the women who bought rice screamed at the scene and rushed out of the shop. However, they became dead before they could step over the threshold.
Haotian had countless ways to kill a person. She could make a person die quietly, with a happy expression, as if he was still sleeping and in the sweetest dream.
But obviously, Sangsang did not choose this method. In order to make Ning Que feel more direct and show her determination, she used a very bloody method. The rice shop was full of broken limbs.
Ning Que looked at her with a pale face. He wanted to say something, but he could not.
He walked out of the rice shop and did not dare to buy vegetables again. He lowered his head and walked quickly between the stalls. No matter how those familiar vegetable sellers called him, he ignored them and even forgot that he was still carrying a bag of rice stained with blood.
Sangsang did not want to let him go. Although he did not do anything, as he moved, the vegetable stalls he passed turned into a pool of blood. Those vegetable sellers died miserably.
"Enough!"
Ning Que stopped at the entrance of the market. The street in front of him was full of people. He did not dare to take another step forward. He could only turn around and shout at Sangsang angrily.
There was blood everywhere in the market. It had already reached the soles of his shoes.
Sangsang walked in the sea of blood without any emotion on her face.
Looking at this scene, Ning Que's body trembled.
Then, he gradually calmed down. His pale face was full of exhaustion.
He looked at Sangsang and said, "It doesn't work on me."
Sangsang said, "I want to try. Besides, what if it was a Tang who died?"
Ning Que did not say anything. He began to feel nervous.
Because she had already thought.
Thought was anger.
Anger was anger.
And anger came from different places.
…
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(Four chapters, 15,000 words completed. I wish everyone a happy weekend. I am a little tired from writing, but I am satisfied with the content, so I am in a good mood. Please vote for me. Thank you.) (To be continued. If you like this work, please come to Qidian.Com to vote for me. Your support is my biggest motivation.)
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