Ning Que returned to the Old Brush Pen Shop and found that the door did not creak when he pushed it open. Then he remembered that it was Sangsang who had fixed it. He walked into the kitchen and reached into the rice jar to take out a few eggs. Then he remembered that this was the method he had taught Sangsang when they were young. He walked to the water jar and prepared to boil noodles. Looking at the full water jar, he remembered that Sangsang had finished all the housework before she left home in the morning.
He walked out of the kitchen and stood silently in the courtyard for a long time.
He still had the black umbrella on his back, the arrow box in his hand, and the hatchet at his waist. For the whole day, he had been running and standing. He did not sit down, drink a cup of tea, or eat anything. But at this time, he was not in the mood to cook noodles. He was only thinking about his own matters.
The neat pile of firewood in the corner and the clean table and chairs in front of him evoked many memories. As for what exactly he recalled, only he knew.
Without Sangsang, every corner of the house had a sense of desolation. He couldn't get used to it. He couldn't help but think that he was already so lonely in just one day. How did Sangsang spend her time alone at home during the half a year when she left Chang 'an for the Wilderness?
There was a cat lying on the wall.
The cat looked up at the stars in the night sky.
Ning Que glanced at it, pulled out a piece of firewood from the pile at the foot of the wall, and threw it over.
The cat, who was pretending to be lonely, was disturbed. It turned its head and screamed angrily at him, then jumped off the wall and disappeared.
Without Sangsang's house, there was no smell of smoke and fire, and there was a chill everywhere.
Ning Que could not stay in such a house, so he left.
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Ning Que went to the Guest Yard first.
The disciples of the Black Ink Garden of the Great River Kingdom lived here.
Shanshan also lived here.
There was a large bamboo forest in the Guest Court. Even though it was winter, it was still faintly green. At this time, when it was illuminated by the light at night, it seemed even more tranquil.
Ning Que did not enter the Guest Court. He stood between the fake rocks of Jin Mountain opposite the gate of the court, silently looking at the light and the figure in the light. His eyesight was very good and he could vaguely see the silhouette of a girl by the window in the deepest wing room. She was concentrating on writing something.
Was he writing the name Ning Que, which was difficult to write well?
She quietly looked at the girl's silhouette by the window for a long time.
Then he turned and left, heading south of the city.
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South of Chang 'an City, at the Yanming Lake at the foot of Yanming Mountain.
Ning Que stood by the lake and looked at the surface of the lake in silence. The ice on the surface of the lake had long melted. But because winter was still around, the ice did not completely disappear. Instead, it turned into something like willow catkins. Under the illumination of the distant lights on the opposite shore, it looked like countless soft golden threads.
Thump! Thump!
He picked up a stone and threw it at the dim money on the lake, piece by piece, until all the ice in front of him was smashed into pieces.
Previously, he had used firewood to smash wild cats, and now, he was using stones to smash ice floss. It was not because of anything else, but because he was very unhappy. He felt that his world had been destroyed beyond recognition, so he would not allow others to hide in their own world and secretly laugh at him.
Throwing the last stone in his hand to the ground, Ning Que held his waist and panted for a long time before he calmed down. Looking at Yanming Lake under the night sky, he complained in a slightly hoarse voice, "The eggs are in the rice jar, put less oil when frying them? You're not even here anymore. Why do you care how much oil I put when I fry eggs? Is there anyone as stingy as you? The eggs are in the rice jar, and the water is in the water jar. Why don't you say the rice is in the pot? Where are you? "
"What do you mean by you're supporting me? I've killed the Horse Gang and robbed the hunters. I've done all the evil things in my life. I've painstakingly robbed some silver and I've given it to you. In the end, you're the one supporting me? "
"Don't say that I spend a lot of money. Did I drink when I was in the City of Wei? Gambling … it was indeed gambling, but wasn't it also to increase the family's income? When did you see me drinking and whoring? When did I ever give money when I visited the brothels in Chang 'an? Are you still not satisfied? "
Ning Que looked at the big lake under the night sky, held his waist and stretched out his index finger. Like a shrew, he scolded angrily, "What do you mean I can't marry you even if you don't let me? Tell me clearly, what are you trying to do!? You little girl, what do you want! Tell me clearly! "
"You're asking me if I've ever thought about marrying you?"
"Well, I admit that sometimes I've thought about marrying you when you grow up. But you're still a little girl. It's okay to think about it, but can you really say it? If I really say it, what if you're so shy that you want to chop me with a chopper? Even if you don't chop me, who knows how many people want to chop me? "
"And even if I want to marry you, it won't affect me from liking other people, right?"
"Why should I like others?"
"Hey, I like to eat meat, but it doesn't mean I don't like to eat shrimp. Humans are omnivores. I like to eat more, so what? What can you do to me? "
"Then what about you?"
"You eat with me."
"What did you say?"
"I like women. Are you going to like women with me?"
"Well, it doesn't seem to make sense."
The hoarse voice kept ringing in the quiet lake.
In the Grand Secretary's Mansion, such a conversation would never happen.
Because Ning Que did not dare to say these words to Sangsang. He knew that if he really said so, the stubborn girl would definitely turn around and leave, not giving him any chance to save the situation. And Sangsang would definitely not ask those questions. But he knew what she wanted to ask.
So he could only stay at the foot of Yanming Mountain in the middle of the night, by the quiet lake. He could not understand and could not refute the lake water. His voice startled the lake birds.
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The Grand Secretary's Mansion was quiet at night. The lady's boudoir, which had been prepared a few days ago, was decorated luxuriously. Her makeup box was filled with cosmetics from Chenjinji Cosmetics Store.
Sangsang used to love cosmetics from Chenjinji Cosmetics Store. But today, she did not even look at them, nor did she pay attention to the complicated greetings of the maids. She just looked at the bronze mirror silently.
The bronze mirror was very smooth, and there were complicated flowers and plants engraved on the side. One look and anyone could tell that it was an expensive item.
Sangsang did not look at the bronze mirror. She only looked at the face in the mirror.
It was a small, slightly tanned face. Her brows and eyes were plain and unremarkable. Her hair was clearly a little yellow and soft due to malnutrition. Her pair of bright willow leaf shaped eyes had also become a little dim. No matter how one looked at it, this small face could not be considered beautiful. It could not even be considered delicate.
"You're really ugly."
Sangsang looked at herself in the mirror and said.
From hearing Ning Que's words last night, to leaving the Old Brush Pen Shop in the morning, to meeting Ning Que again in the afternoon, she did not cry. She did not even show any expression of sadness. Because she had been reminding herself not to cry, no matter what.
Those weak and slender young ladies could hold flowers and shed tears because they were beautiful. But even though you are weak, you are so ugly. What right do you have to cry?
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Sangsang rarely looked in the mirror because she did not care about her appearance other than being white. And because Ning Que, as a man, did not know how to dress up a little girl.
When they were in Min Mountain, the little girl would occasionally look at her face in the still water in the stream. When they were in the City of Wei, the little girl would wash her face and comb her hair in a wooden basin. When they came to Chang 'an, Ning Que bought her a powder box, and she finally had a mirror.
But the mirror in the box was too small, and it was difficult to clearly reflect the whole face.
So Sangsang felt that the small dark face in the bronze mirror was a little strange.
She felt that the person in the mirror was a little strange.
She suddenly felt that the person in the mirror was a little strange.
Sangsang shook her head and said, "You are really a very annoying child."
Sangsang in the bronze mirror lowered her head and said, "Why do you say that?"
"Because you make him worry."
"I want to make room for him to get married."
"But you clearly know that he will not leave you alone, so you are forcing him to make a choice. He has been good enough to you, how can you be so cruel?"
"But he said that he will spend the rest of his life together. Since he said that he will spend the rest of his life together, can one more person be together? Can he spend the rest of his life with one more person? "
"Why do you have to fight with others?"
Sangsang in the bronze mirror answered sadly, "But it was originally mine."
Sangsang outside the bronze mirror said silently, "But he will be very sad."
"I have never fought with others, but this time is different. Even if he will be sad, even if I become an annoying child, even if I become uglier, I will still fight with him."
Outside the bronze mirror, Sangsang wiped away the tears on her face and said stubbornly like a child.
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The morning light was bright, and the lake at the foot of Yanming Mountain reflected a faint luster.
Ning Que stood by the lake, holding his waist and panting tiredly. From time to time, he muttered a few words.
He had not eaten or drank for a whole day and night, and he had cursed at the lake for a whole night. His throat was already extremely dry, and his face was very haggard.
"Youngest Uncle used to curse the heavens and the earth, and he was so heroic and magnificent. You curse at this small lake, what can you feel? What's more, you are still struggling with those small things. "
A voice sounded in the forest by the lake.
Ning Que turned to look at the fat man and said angrily, "You have been sexually abused since childhood, so you have a psychological shadow. How would you know that the relationship between a man and a woman is the real important thing?"
Chen Pipi shrugged and said, "I know you are in a bad mood. I will not argue with you."
Ning Que asked, "Why are you here?"
Chen Pipi said, "Because of a certain matter, the Academy held a big meeting. In the end, everyone quarreled but came to no conclusion. In the end, Seventh Sister said that they should take you back for interrogation to see what you really think. But you didn't go to the Academy yesterday, so everyone sent me to catch you."
Ning Que's thoughts were very chaotic at this time, and he did not understand what he was trying to say. He thought about the question that he had been thinking about for a whole night, and looked at Chen Pipi seriously and asked, "I have something to ask you. What do you like to eat?"
"Crab porridge?" Chen Pipi touched the back of his head and asked, "Why do you ask?"
Ning Que said, "I like eating noodles with fried eggs the most, but if you eat crab porridge every day, will you get tired of it?"
Chen Pipi thought for a moment and replied, "How can I not get tired of eating it all the time?"
Ning Que frowned and suddenly thought of a more suitable metaphor. He asked in a slightly hoarse voice, "What about water? Will you get tired of drinking water? "
Chen Pipi said angrily, "What bullsh * t question is that? If I don't drink water, I will die!"
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