She was the most beautiful Flower Addict among the three addicts in the world. After hearing the sad news, she did not hesitate to change into a plain robe and rode a white horse into the Wilderness. She galloped for thousands of miles without rest. Her face was covered with frost and dust, but she was not haggard. Compared to her usual beautiful face, she was indeed ugly.
Prince Long Qing did not turn back to look at her face. His gaze moved from the morning light in the east to the dark night in the north. He sniffed the slightly sour smell and felt a slight sourness in his heart. He knew that his fiancée loved cleanliness the most. For her to have the stench of sweat in such a cold winter day, one could imagine how she had endured the entire journey.
Because of the sourness in his heart and the exhaustion in his body, he suddenly felt tired. He looked down at the ugly wound on his chest and said indifferently, "I once had a dream."
Lu Chenjia did not know what he wanted to say. She only hugged him gently and pressed her face against his thin and dusty face.
"When I was climbing the last few steps in the back of the mountain of the Academy, I had the deepest dream. In that dream, I faced the most difficult choice in my life. However, I did not have much time to think before I reached for the Taoist Sword at my waist."
Prince Long Qing looked at her hands that were wrapped around his chest and said in a hoarse voice, "Then, I pulled out the sword and pierced it through your chest. Even though you looked at me so sadly, I still did not turn back."
A gust of morning wind blew. It was cold even though there was no snow. Lu Chenjia's body stiffened and she hugged him tighter. This was because she could hear some emotions in his indifferent voice that made her feel afraid.
"In fact, I was in pain too. However, I did not regret it because I firmly believed that it was the right choice."
Prince Long Qing raised his hand with difficulty and pointed to the black hole on his chest. He said, "After many years in that strange dream, my chest was pierced through by a wooden sword, just like how I pierced you in the dream. I did not die. A flower grew out of my chest, a flower made of gold. That golden flower was so beautiful and could even be said to be perfect. It reflected the light of Haotian and was incomparably solemn."
"The Golden Flower on my chest is my compensation for giving up everything to serve Haotian. I hold the Taoist Sword in my hand and walk on the path of light with the Golden Flower blooming on my chest. However, what makes me sad, regretful, and even angry is that I paid so much in my dream but still could not walk to the end. Why is that?"
Prince Long Qing's eyes reflected the brightening morning light in the east. His eyes were as dark as a will-o '-the-wisp, without the slightest emotion that a human should have. There was only endless despair and confusion about God.
"Why is this happening? Is absolute light absolute darkness? But what I see and what my Dao heart feels is light! Why did Great Heaven give me such a harsh trial? Does he think that my Dao Heart is not firm enough? I have been so perfect since I was young. Why do I have to suffer so many setbacks? "
The light in his eyes gradually faded and became as dim as the first rays of dawn in the north. After a moment of silence, he laughed somewhat crazily and raised his right hand with difficulty to cover the pitiful hole that looked like the lips of a dying old man. He said, "Until Ning Que pierced through my chest with an arrow on the snow cliff. There was no flower made of gold outside the hole, only a flower of despair. Only then did I realize that there is no such thing as perfection in this world. All the pride and glory in the past was just a footnote for the final destruction. Just like the Taoist temple on the Peach Mountain, the more beautiful the carvings are, the more emotional it will be when it collapses."
Lu Chenjia's arms, which were hugging him, began to tremble slightly. She could not understand what he was saying. The words were clear, but the meaning behind them was so fragmented and illogical. It was so fragmented that she could not understand it. She could only feel the despair and self-abandonment in it.
Prince Long Qing said slowly and desolately, "I know that you truly pity me. But the current me and the future me do not have the right to accept your pity. So don't pity me. Just accompany me for a while."
He slowly pulled Lu Chenjia's hands away from his neck and said, "Don't worry about me committing suicide. Even though I have nothing left in this world and have already given up all hope, I will not seek death. Haotian seems to think that I have not been punished enough and does not want me to die just like that."
The heavily injured Prince Long Qing did not have any strength at all. But when his fingers touched the back of Lu Chenjia's hand, she did not resist at all and let go.
Lu Chenjia knelt beside him and looked at the side of his face, which was no longer handsome and even looked exceptionally cold and ugly. There were no tears or sadness in her eyes, only love and pity that came from the depths of her heart.
"You just said that there is nothing perfect in this world. That means that there is nothing that cannot be changed. Whether it is your arrow wound or your future cultivation, it will definitely return to normal. The Hierarch Lord can cure you, and I can also ask my aunt to find the way to the Xuankong Temple. The Bhadanta of the Buddhism Sect will definitely have a way to cure you."
Prince Long Qing said, "When a person is about to die, his Taoist Heart must be clear. I have never been as weak as I am now, but I have also never understood myself as well as I do now. When my sense of perception was destroyed when I broke through the realm, I have no hope of cultivation in this life. The Hierarch Lord cannot do it. Even the Divine Priest of Light in the You Prison cannot do it, and those silent fellows in the Buddhism Sect cannot do it either."
"Don't have any false hopes. No one can change my fate."
He looked into the distance and said faintly, "On the stone outside the Firewood Gate in the back of the mountain of the Academy, the Headmaster of the Academy should have left four words for me. I had originally forgotten them, but a few days ago, before I died, I somehow remembered them. Those four words were 'a gentleman does not fight'. At that time, I did not understand the true meaning of these four words, but I thought I understood it very well. That was why I felt unreconciled and even contemptuous towards it. Instead, I wanted to fight even more. Only now do I understand that the Headmaster of the Academy was talking about my character, and a person's character determines his fate. "
"I have been fighting all my life."
"Although you all do not know the true relationship between my brother Chongming and me, I have indeed been fighting with him, and the whole world knows that I am fighting with him for the throne of the secular world."
"In the Revelation Institute, I also fought. I wanted to fight for the position of the chief disciple, because I was not willing to accept that I would be humiliated and ridiculed once the Divine Priest who doted on me lost his power. I fought for my dignity then."
"In the Judicial Department, I fought even more. Facing a crazy woman like the Tao Addict, if I did not fight for power, how would I be qualified to sit opposite her? How would I be qualified to sit on the Seat of Heavenly Black Jade in the future? "
"I was once glorious and victorious. I thought that was the result of fighting. Now that I have fallen into the abyss of despair, I finally understand that the Headmaster of the Academy has long seen through everything. All the sins and despair are the result of my own fighting."
"It is better not to fight."
Lu Chenjia knelt beside him weakly. She lowered her head and listened to him muttering to himself. The hair floating in front of her forehead swayed like lifeless grass in the Wilderness. Her face was pale, without a trace of blood.
Prince Long Qing smiled foolishly. His pale smile looked abnormally desperate. He said, "Do you know? I used to really think that I was the Guardian of Light. No matter how many people I killed or how many bloody things I did in your eyes, my Taoist Heart was still clean. Because I believed that I was carrying out the will of Haotian. "
"Since I was the Guardian of Light and carrying out the will of Haotian, of course I had to be a perfect person. That was why I paid great attention to my appearance, dressing and speech. I rarely drank to prevent myself from messing up. I was gentle to others but strict to myself. I was particular about my demeanor. Even when I was dealing with the troublesome remnants of the Devil's Doctrine, I did not make a sneak attack. That time at the back of the mountain of the Academy, I was the first to arrive. But in order to maintain my demeanor, I waited for a long time for Ning Que. In the end, the most troublesome and shameless enemy of my life came."
Prince Long Qing looked at the dimly lit sky and said, "After I was injured, I thought I would die. But I did not die for no reason. So I thought that maybe Haotian did not abandon me. It just pointed me to a different path. So I wanted to try to go into the darkness. I didn't want to care about my demeanor anymore. I gathered a lot of strength and courage. I picked up the hunting knife and chopped at the head of a 12-year-old Desolate Man boy. But do you know what happened? I did not succeed. "
"I was even willing to give up the light. I was already shameless. I had already planned to surrender to the darkness and walk to the other side of the absolute. But why did I not succeed?"
There was great fear in Prince Long Qing's eyes. He murmured, "It turns out that this is not a story of Haotian's trial of believers. It is not a story of falling from light to darkness. It is not a story of pain but still hope. This is just a story … forgotten by Haotian."
"It is indeed painful to struggle between the light and the darkness. It is even more painful to surrender to the darkness. But that kind of pain is alive. It is alive. But what about me now? Even if I want to surrender to the darkness, I am still rejected. It turns out that I am not qualified to be abandoned by Haotian. I am just a small figure forgotten by Haotian in the north of the Wilderness. "
He coughed painfully. His skinny body was as hunched as an old man's. It was as if he was about to become a pile of snow in the Wilderness.
Lu Chenjia looked at him in a daze. Suddenly, the sadness in her eyes faded. She slowly stood up and steadied herself after swaying a little. She said calmly and firmly, "I will kill Ning Que first."
"Is there any meaning to this?" Prince Long Qing stood up with difficulty. He turned around and held her haggard but still beautiful face. His dirty fingers caressed her skin slowly. He said, "There is no meaning to this."
Lu Chenjia looked at the face that was so close to her. She realized that this face had become extremely unfamiliar. Her heart ached and she bit her lower lip. She knew that if she could not get rid of the despair and inner demons in his heart, she would not be able to bring him out of the Wilderness. But she also knew that there was no way for him to return to the way he was before.
Prince Long Qing had known her for many years. From the palace of the Yuelun Kingdom to the Revelation Institute, they had been in love for many years. He knew very well how passionate the Flower Addict could be. He could guess what she wanted to do just by looking at her expression. He took two steps back with difficulty and distanced himself from her. He shouted coldly, "Don't try to knock me out!"
"I am a useless person. But I don't want to be like those useless people who say things like don't pity me and please stay away from me! I just want to say a few simple words to you, can't I? Why do you have to do such disgusting things like those scholars and beauties? Do you want me to cry like an idiot? "
Prince Long Qing's voice was hoarse as he roared angrily at her.
Lu Chenjia looked at him with a pale face. She held her hands in front of her chest as if she was begging. It also seemed like she was trying to use this action to soothe the pain in her heart. It also seemed like she was trying to show that she would not knock him out.
There was a deathly silence in the cold Wilderness.
After a long period of silence, Prince Long Qing restrained the crazed anger on his face. There was no life or hope on that once perfect face. He spoke slowly, coldly, and with a despairing gaze, he said, "Don't pity me. Don't make me think that you pity me. It would have been better not to have met you today."
Lu Chenjia did not say anything. She slowly lowered her hands in front of her chest.
Long Qing turned around and picked up the broken branch. He continued walking towards the north.
Lu Chenjia was silent for a moment. Then, she followed him towards the north.
Long Qing's injuries were too serious and his walking speed was too slow. After a long time, he had only walked a few hundred feet. He fell three times along the way. The branch flew far away and he no longer had the strength to pick it up. The wound on his chest split open again. Blood began to seep out of his thin clothes and condensed into beads of frozen blood when it came into contact with the cold wind.
Lu Chenjia followed behind him. Her face grew paler and paler, but she did not go forward to help him.
Prince Long Qing was tired. He sat on the hard ground of the Wilderness. He grabbed a handful of snow with his right hand and stuffed it into his mouth to chew. Then, he tried to stand up and continue walking north. Unexpectedly, he did not stand firm and fell heavily to the ground again.
He angrily hammered the ground beside him. However, because he was too weak, the remaining snow on the ground did not even splash up.
Lu Chenjia looked at him silently from behind.
Long Qing knew that she was behind him. After panting for a moment, he suddenly roared, "I've said what I needed to say. You've already met me. Why are you still following me? If you continue to follow me, I'll die in front of you. "
Lu Chenjia's body swayed slightly, but she quickly regained her balance. A look of determination flashed across the girl's beautiful face. Even the most delicate flower had thorns and stems. She had her own limits.
She looked at the back of the dog-like man in front of her and shouted, "Then die in front of me!"
Prince Long Qing's body stiffened slightly.
Lu Chenjia's face was pale, but she stubbornly refused to cry. She shouted, "We've been together for so many years, but you still won't let me see you clearly. So, you won't even let me see you die? But I really want to see you. So, if you want to die, then die in front of me. I'll collect your corpse and then go back to the Central Plains to remarry. "
Long Qing was silent for a moment. Then, he laughed crazily. "What a crazy woman. Even if you remarry, no one would dare to marry you."
Lu Chenjia shouted, "Remarrying is marrying someone else. You'll be dead by then. You don't have to worry about that."
Long Qing was silent and continued walking north.
Lu Chenjia did not speak either. She silently followed him north.
The Great Snow Horse followed behind them tiredly.
From dawn to dusk, the wind and snow rose again in the Wilderness.
The cold wind was biting.
The snow pressed down on them.
They continued walking together.
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(I should be able to write more at night. It should be around eight or nine o 'clock.) (To be continued. If you like this work, please come to Qidian.Com to vote for me. Your support is my greatest motivation.)
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