(Yesterday, I forgot to post my request for leave. It's really … a sin. Although I often stop updating, I have never stopped updating without asking for leave. That's because I'm worried that the readers will wait for me to update and waste their time. I didn't expect to make such a big mistake. I'm really sorry. I still have one more chapter today. I'll be writing very slowly. Write slowly and seriously. Also, this chapter is quite sour and kind of … but I really like this style.)
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There were some leftover chicken bones under the tree.
Ning Que looked at those chicken bones and was silent for a long time.
The Big Black Horse snorted uneasily and looked back at the wooden hut, feeling a little uneasy.
Ning Que suddenly turned around and led it back to the wooden hut. He pushed the door open and entered.
The hut was still dark without a trace of light. It was empty and there was no one.
Ning Que let go of the reins and walked to the window, looking at the Snow Sea.
The oil lamp on the table was lit. Sangsang looked at him quietly.
He still couldn't see her, but he knew she was here. So he began to speak.
"Long Qing is dead."
He paused for a while and continued, "In the North of Yan Kingdom, I killed him … I didn't expect it to end so easily. In my original plan, I was going to disable him and then lock him in the Front Gate of the Devil's Doctrine so that he would never be free, just like what Youngest Uncle did to Lotus."
"But after thinking about it, it didn't make sense. He didn't really offend me, except that his attitude towards you was a little bad and he tried to threaten me with you. But none of that happened … Lotus killed Xiaoxiao. He didn't hurt you. My reaction was a little too intense."
Ning Que turned around and looked at the dark room. He said, "Ever since I found you beside that barkless mulberry tree, the most intense emotions in my life have been because of you. At first, I wanted to kill my grandpa. Then, I came to Longqing. Now that I think about it, when I first entered the City of Wei, I fought several times for you."
Sangsang was very close to him. If there was no barrier, they could hear each other's breathing. Listening to his words, her expression was still cold, but her eyelashes fell slowly. She seemed a little tired.
"I went to the Lanke Temple and carved a lot of stone statues … your statue."
Ning Que took out the stone statue from his arms and put it on the table in front of the window. He said, "I don't know if you still remember what you said in the temple when you were sick. But I still remember it."
Sangsang looked at the table and at herself, who was sleeping on her side, with a curious look in her eyes.
"Of course, I went to the City of Wei first. I always thought that it was more important to you and I, and you might stay there. Unfortunately, I couldn't find you. Well, I killed a lot of people there."
Ning Que suddenly stopped. After a long silence, he said, "I don't want to talk anymore … It's meaningless to cry and stab myself to force you to come out. Anyway, I'm here …"
He looked at the empty darkness in front of him and said, "Come out."
There was no need to be emotional, no need to reminisce, just a calm request, just like in the past many years. You bring me tea, you pour me water, you put your feet in my arms, and let me touch them.
In the quiet wooden house, there was an almost inaudible sound, as if the thinnest paper was cut by the sharpest knife, or the most brittle glass fell from the sky to the ground, breaking and then opening.
The dim light gradually filled the whole room, from a trace to tens of thousands, and finally illuminated the whole wooden house, the stone statue lying on the table, Ning Que's face, and her figure.
Ning Que looked at her, who he hadn't seen for a long time. He looked at her swollen waist and her simple animal skin clothes. He felt inexplicably sad and stepped forward to hold her tightly in his arms.
Sangsang expressionlessly let him hold her. She raised her head, looking extremely arrogant, or perhaps dull.
"Let go," she said.
The indigo lion rushed out from the corner, its forelimbs bent, and it was about to pounce, growling threateningly.
The big black horse stared at it from above. Its eyes were violent, and its meaning was clear.
The indigo lion quickly stopped growling and became well-behaved.
Ning Que held Sangsang and buried his head in her neck. His voice was a little muffled, but it was very clear. The muffled tone meant that it was clear, and the meaning was unquestionable.
"No."
Sangsang said coldly, "Let go."
Ning Que said, "No."
"Let go."
"Let go."
"Let go."
"No … I said I won't let go, and I won't let go."
The big black horse and the indigo lion looked at each other and sensibly walked to the corner, pretending that they didn't see or hear anything.
Ning Que held Sangsang like this, as if he would hold her until the seas ran dry and the rocks rotted.
After an unknown period of time, Sangsang's slightly raised head finally fell back down. Their cheeks touched each other warmly.
After a long time, Ning Que was sure that the handle of the axe had not rotted into dust. He finally let go of his hands, grabbed her right hand, and led her to the bed to sit down.
They sat side by side on the bed, not to share the fruits equally, but if Sangsang put on the cape, it would look like the night of their wedding. It was here that they had consummated their marriage.
"Come home with me." Ning Que said to her.
Sangsang did not answer him, nor did she pull her hand out of his. She looked at the wind and snow outside the window, lost in thought.
Ning Que knew that she was not lost in thought, because she was a god, and she was still here.
"Come home with me." He repeated.
Sangsang looked at him and asked expressionlessly, "Which home? Your first home? "
This time it was Ning Que's turn to be silent.
Sangsang said, "The Headmaster wanted to break my world because of his irresponsible desire for freedom. You are so persistent in breaking my world because you want to go back to that home? In fact, I have always wanted to know, when were you sure that you could go back to your hometown after breaking my world? "
Ning Que held her hand tightly, thought for a while and said, "In fact, I have guessed this a long time ago, because there are also stars here, and the Headmaster finally became the moon."
Sangsang slightly raised her eyebrows and asked, "What does this mean? He became the moon because you told him about the moon on the sea that year, and he thought the moon was beautiful. That's all. "
"There is wind and snow."
Ning Que pointed out of the window and said, "And the sky full of stars. These are all very unnecessary things … If your world is a closed and self-contained system, you don't need the four seasons. But you have all these long ago."
"Your world is very similar to the one I came from."
He withdrew his gaze from the window and looked at her. "There is only one explanation … This world is still in the world that I am familiar with, and it is interconnected, or at least observable, because only by observing can one imitate and be so similar."
Sangsang said indifferently, "You can observe, so I know what your world is like."
Ning Que said, "It is a vast and free world."
Sangsang said, "It is a cold and dead world."
The passionate sun spread life, and the boundless universe was waiting to be explored, so it was a vast and free world. But most of the space was filled with absolute coldness and silence, so it was also a cold and dead world. Ning Que and Sangsang were not wrong, because they had different standpoints.
Ning Que was silent for a long time, and then said, "The fate of human beings should be decided by human beings. You don't have to continue to bear this responsibility, it is too tiring."
Sangsang said, "I once told you that I love the world, and only the people who love me. The ancestors of the world chose me, so I have to continue to bear this responsibility."
"This discussion is meaningless."
Ning Que forcefully stopped the conversation, grabbed her shoulders, and said, "You are my wife, and you are pregnant with our child. You should go home with me."
Sangsang looked at him quietly for a long time, and then said, "Do you want me to die so badly?"
Ning Que said, "That day when you sailed to the Divine Kingdom on the other side of the sea, I tried to do something, but in the end, I did nothing. You should be very clear about my attitude."
Sangsang said, "But I also warned you that I am the aggregation of the rules of this world. If you want to destroy this world, I can no longer continue to exist."
Ning Que said, "I used to be very worried, but not now … because there is Haotian in the Divine Kingdom, and you have become a person now. You will be fine."
Sangsang looked at him and said expressionlessly, "How can you prove it?"
Ning Que looked at her bulging belly and said, "Isn't this proof?"
Sangsang stood up and walked to the window. She looked into the distance and said, "The New Stream has been spreading in the world for a long time, and Taoism is gradually declining, and I am becoming weaker and weaker. What does this mean?"
It meant that she was still Haotian.
"Or maybe it is because of … pregnancy?"
Ning Que walked behind her and said, "Pregnant women are always weak. You should remember that year in the City of Wei, when the fat aunt was pregnant, she didn't even have the strength to curse."
"But you can't prove it."
Sangsang turned around and said, "Then I may still die."
When she said this, there was no emotion on her face, and she looked extremely calm and indifferent. But Ning Que saw great fear and sorrow deep in her eyes.
Because of the fear and sorrow, his heart was aching.
"I am really … afraid of death." Sangsang said expressionlessly, "From the moment I woke up in the Divine Kingdom, I began to fear that I would die. I don't want to die."
She said this calmly, and tears wet her face.
Sangsang rarely cried.
Haotian never cried.
Ning Que forgot how many years it had been since he last saw her cry. Maybe it was years, or maybe thousands of years.
He held her in his arms again and whispered, "Don't be afraid. It's okay. I won't let you die."
Sangsang let him hold her like before, and put her hands behind her back.
But this time, she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"They all want to kill me … They want to kill me, and so do you. I can be killed now, so I am afraid. I am afraid that even you want to kill me."
She looked calm, but she kept crying. She was strangely sad.
"I won't."
Ning Que hugged her tightly and said, "If you are really afraid, then don't do it. We will go back to another home, not the City of Wei, but Chang 'an. The yard of the Old Brush Pen Shop is still there."
Sangsang asked, "What about your home?"
Ning Que said, "I have long forgotten."
My home is where my heart is at peace.
Wherever my heart is at peace, that is my home.
Sangsang was his home.
It was like she wanted to go to the other side, but could not return to the Divine Kingdom.
Because her other side was where he stood.
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