"The recording of the phone call was released to the public, and the first person to find me was my teacher.
"At 5 am, I was sleeping in the breakroom with my jacket over me. Then I heard the sound of the door opening, but I was too sleepy, so I didn't think too much about it.
It was not until noon when I opened my eyes that I realized my teacher was sitting at the table in the breakroom. He was reading Menninger's Man Against Himself. It was a book that studied the psychology of suicide.
"The sun shone into the room. At the time, I had no idea what was happening outside, but I felt like my teacher was acting weird today.
"He was the most experienced counselor at our school. He was the one who taught me, so no matter what, I would always call him teacher."
From the man's tone, Chen Ge could hear the respect he had for his teacher.
"Did your teacher tell you about this? What was his attitude? " Chen Ge was curious. To build a good relationship with a Red Specter, he had to get to know the man's personality and obsession before he died. Only then would he be able to convince the man to work for him willingly.
"He did not tell me anything related to that incident. He only asked me one question." The man looked at the dark sky. "If one day, when he stands at the edge of the building, how should I persuade him?"
"I've never thought about that before. In my eyes, my teacher is a very strong person. This kind of situation is unlikely to happen, so I told him my thoughts honestly. If that day really comes, I will use everything that I have learned on him and try my best to save him. If that still doesn't convince him, then I will respect his decision.
"I have never thought of my job as sacred. I just feel like my job is very important, just like the doctors at the emergency room. I will use my most serious attitude to save the patients, but at the same time, I will respect the patients. "
As the man spoke, his voice slowly lowered. "After the teacher heard what I said, he smiled with satisfaction. He was like an old friend. He sat next to me and said something to me."
"He felt that I was a very good person, the student he was most proud of, but I was not a completely qualified suicide intervention operator."
"Teacher has already noticed that my emotions are not quite right. He wants me to go out and walk more often to clear my mind."
"Being a suicide intervention operator is a very special job. Excluding the harassing calls, each person will receive an average of about twenty moderately dangerous calls and one to five emergency calls every night. Under the continuous impact of the emotions, the operator himself would sometimes be affected. He would become depressed and cry with the other party. Every time this happens, you have to tell yourself that you have to calm down and convince the other party. "
"The human body is like a balloon filled with water. Good, bad, and all kinds of emotions will be injected into it. If one is unable to adjust himself, when the balloon bursts, it will be the time when a person completely collapses."
"As a suicide prevention hotline operator, my brain is soaked in tears and grief every night. Many people leave after working for a while, so I didn't really understand what my teacher meant."
"When I was about to ask him again, the teacher patted me on the shoulder and left, but he left the book he was reading behind."
"Later, I found out that the recording of my phone call had been uploaded to the internet, and I became the first suicide intervention operator to persuade someone to commit suicide."
"Many people were criticizing me, but at the time, I was actually very calm.
"What other people say has nothing to do with me. I only recognize right and wrong."
"From this aspect, I am indeed a very stupid person. I will cry because of the story of the person asking for help. I will chat with these strangers until the sun rises, I will cry with them, I will play their role, and I will feel their pain."
"I do not see myself as a rescuer but as their friend."
When the man said that, his expression was confused.
However, the confusion in his eyes was soon replaced by blood, and red blood seeped out from his skin. "Before this matter could come to an end, something new has happened."
"During a crisis intervention, if you forcefully stop someone who is determined to die, even if you succeed this time, they might use a more decisive method to commit suicide next time."
"To prevent this from happening, we sometimes allow them to try within a controllable range. For example, when there is an air cushion, ambulance, and fire department around, if the building is low, we will not forcefully stop them from jumping."
"I know this sounds hard to accept, but if you think about it from another perspective, there are very few people in this world who can empathize. Even biological parents find it difficult to do so. Most of the time, forceful persuasion will have the opposite effect. This is a sign of not understanding the other party's pain."
"Allowing them to try is a kind of respect, to make them feel real and tangible respect."
At this point, Chen Ge had a bad feeling. "You haven't really done that before, have you?"
"I have done something like that during a crisis intervention. Actually, it's not as scary as you think. We try it within a controllable range. Let me give you another example. There was once a person who wanted to commit suicide by swallowing sleeping pills. His emotions were extremely unstable, and he could not communicate at all. At the time, after I communicated with the police, we found a low concentration sleeping pill and had him try it. "
"After experiencing death once, he changed a lot, and he started a new life."
"I have many successful examples, but this method sounds like it's going against our duty. After the recording was released, this method attracted a lot of criticism from the public. "
"I was saving people, but everyone thought I was killing people."
"I started to think. My teacher came to find me, and many friends consoled me, but the key was not me but whether it was right or wrong."
The man looked about the same age as Chen Ge, but his voice sounded much older than Chen Ge's. He looked at the endless night for a long time.
The expression on his face slowly twisted before returning to normal. Finally, his lips curled up into a nonchalant smile.
"Perhaps I am not a qualified suicide intervention operator, but the people that I have helped have treated me as the last friend that they can trust in their lives." The man's shirt was completely dyed red, and the red half of his face kept changing. "I only understood this after I died — so much hope had been placed on me."
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