Knowing that the diary entries that Queen Mystic had carefully chosen definitely had rather important content, The Fool Klein focused his mind and casually cast his gaze at the yellowish-brown goatskin in his hand.
"11th September. Ever since I became an angel, I've had a feeling that my personality is split. In my heart, my soul, and deep in my mind, there's always a voice urging me and influencing me, creating an uncontrollable coldness, bloodthirstiness, cruelty, and madness.
"This doesn't come from the outside world, nor is it the influence of a deity on one's pathway. I can clearly sense that it comes from my genes, from the collective subconscious that humans have passed down from generation to generation. It comes from the Beyonder characteristic itself, and not from the remnant mental influence.
"It makes me have a strong desire to hunt and kill. I want to devour all living beings with Beyonder characteristics around me. This makes me need to spend most of my energy to resist it. Even though I'm already acting and digesting the potion, I don't see any improvement.
"It's no wonder Mr. Door said that reason is temporary, while madness is eternal."
"28th September. I haven't written a diary in a long time. In the past half a month, I seemed to be watching myself being replaced by strangers bit by bit, becoming cold and terrifying. Even my daughter, Bernadette, could only make me feel a tiny bit of fatherly love, very, very little.
Just as I was about to go crazy, I seemed to hear countless praises. They were from my subjects, all the people who had benefited from my reforms. They were believers who viewed me as the Son of Steam. They were praising me, singing my praises, erecting statues for me, writing stories for me, and creating poems for me.
"Their voices were like the anchor of a ship, helping me to 'locate' myself.
"I began to have the ability to resist that desire and that cry from the bottom of my heart. Bit by bit, I walked out and once again had the normal emotions of a father, a husband, and a man.
"Just at Sequence 2, there's already such a change. At Sequence 0, at the level of a true god, how terrifying would the madness I have to resist be?
"Perhaps" They "also need to" locate "themselves to resist the Beyonder characteristics and the strong inclination to lose control deep in the collective subconscious.
"I roughly understand why" They "established a Church, why" They "spread their faith, why" They "wrote chapters for the saints of" Their "faction, and why" They "left legends for the corresponding angels …
"But why don't" They "have human forms and are just symbols?
"I don't understand.
"I'll ask Mr. Door next time. 'He' knows a lot in the domain of deities. If 'He' hadn't been exiled back then, there might've been one more deity."
"29th September. Rereading yesterday's diary, I recalled the rituals that corresponded to my Sequence 4, Sequence 3, and Sequence 2. They clearly had a hint of madness and cruelty, just like the ones held by villains in novels.
The Sequence pathway might very well be a path destined for madness and despair.
"And this is the only way for humans to obtain extraordinary power.
"It's really funny and ironic.
"We try so hard to save ourselves, just to destroy ourselves better and more thoroughly?"
The contents of the first page of the diary left Klein's heart heavy and repressed. Rosell, who had written those words, was no longer an ordinary person. He had already become an angel and joined the Twilight Hermit Order. He had seen the Blasphemy Slate, and his understanding of the mysterious World's Beyonder characteristics far exceeded the present him. However, he was even more pessimistic than him. He seemed to believe that the World was fundamentally distorted, crazy, and destined to self-destruction.
However, the seven deities seem to have found a way to maintain their rationality. Ordinary humans aren't completely useless. Their knowledge and spirituality can be gathered, and it's possible for them to help the deities "locate" their original form, retaining the memories and rationality accumulated over the years … This can be inferred from Rosell's personal experience … However, why did the seven deities abandon their original human form and use a symbolic and abstract Sacred Emblem? This doesn't match my judgment … I can't understand it … Klein didn't waste any time as he flipped to the next page of the diary.
"5th December, night of the Blood Moon. Communicating with Mr. Door.
"'He' is still the same as before. 'He' will always make a request for me to help 'Him' return to the real World, but 'He' won't be too insistent. 'Furthermore,' He 'will randomly answer some of my questions.
"Heh heh, 'He' is like playing a game, trying hard to raise 'His' favorability. However, sorry, I've already locked this option ahead of time.
"As I already know the legends of the Kings of Angels, I consulted Mr. Door with the mindset that I wouldn't lose anything by asking. The main point is what level the strength of the Kings of Angels is at.
"Mr. Door said that some Kings of Angels have accommodated a Uniqueness, some have consumed two Sequence 1 potions, and some have both.
"The word 'accommodate' is used very strangely. I raised my doubts about this, but Mr. Door didn't directly answer. He only told me that if there's no way to 'accommodate' a Uniqueness, then before the ritual is held and the advancement to Sequence 0, the Uniqueness will only be a burden to a Sequence 1 angel and not a help.
"Yes, it's understandable. It's just like using a Grade 0 Sealed Artifact. The negative effects are always terrifying, and the Uniqueness is definitely more exaggerated than that.
"I also asked which Kings of Angels have 'accommodated' a Uniqueness. Mr. Door similarly didn't directly answer. He only said that Amon and Adam made all the angels jealous from the bottom of their hearts. This is because 'They' were born with a Uniqueness, so there's no need to consider the problem of 'accommodating.' From another angle, it means that Amon and Adam have consumed the Uniqueness of a Sequence 1 potion? As expected of the Creator's son!
"That Creator, also known as the ancient Sun God, is actually so powerful that he can pass on a Uniqueness to his two children, as well as a Sequence 1 Beyonder characteristic … Is' He 'purifying' Himself 'to eliminate unnecessary interference?
"Then, did Mr. Door also 'accommodate' a Uniqueness and even consume two Sequence 1 potions? I didn't ask, because I knew that 'He' definitely wouldn't answer.
"During the exchange, Mr. Door reminded me not to directly say Adam's full name, or it would be discovered and our conversation would be discovered.
"I roughly understood the reason and asked 'Him' with a smile, 'Didn't' He 'already say Adam's full name?'
"Mr. Door replied that it was fine because the Apprentice pathway's Sequence 4 is called Secrets Sorcerer. It has a certain meaning of keeping secrets. Although it's inferior to the Servant of Concealment of the Evernight pathway, it's enough for an existence at 'His' level to shield 'His' senses.
"I asked many more questions regarding deities, but Mr. Door didn't answer. 'He' only said that when I have the ability and opportunity, I'll head to the moon to take a look and understand many things.
"This matches some of my previous thoughts, but I suspect that 'He' is tempting me to use this opportunity to return to the real World. After all, 'His' every appearance is related to the moon!"
As long as Mr. Door appears, there will be a lot of information. It will always take up an entire page … Yes, his explanation of the strength levels of a King of Angels is very consistent with my theory …
In a broad sense, a King of Angels refers to a quasi deity that exceeds Sequence 1 without reaching Sequence 0 through various means. This includes accommodating a Uniqueness and consuming additional Sequence 1 potions. In a narrow sense, a King of Angels refers to the Creator that the City of Silver worships — the eight kings who lead all the angels by the side of the ancient Sun God. Of course, "They" definitely match the broad definition … Many thoughts flashed through Klein's mind.
As for Rosell's guess about the ancient Sun God, he strongly agreed with it. He believed that the Creator that the City of Silver worshipped had "recycled" too many authorities of the ancient gods, resulting in signs of chaos and madness. Hence, "He" decisively gave birth to two children, using this to eliminate a portion of the "miscellaneous items."
To put it simply, Amon and Adam were given to them by drinking the potion … From the looks of it, Angel of Imagination Adam clearly has the Spectator pathway's Uniqueness. "He" should be the mysterious leader of the Twilight Hermit Order. From ancient times to the present, "He" has interfered with the changes of the times in order to revive "His" father … I wonder if "He" has advanced to Sequence 0 … Even if "He" hasn't, the number of angels that the Twilight Hermit Order can mobilize will probably exceed my imagination … Hmm, Secrets Sorcerer actually has the meaning of guarding secrets and concealment … Klein immediately thought of the symbol behind The Fool's chair.
The Pupil-less Eye that symbolizes concealment, and the Contorted Lines that represent change!
He quickly reined in his thoughts and flipped to the third page of the diary.
"28th November. I dreamt of Grimm again.
"He was the smartest one among my subordinates. Unfortunately, when he was exploring that nameless island, he was infected by an unknown force and died in the Fog Sea. He didn't even leave behind a child.
"Back then, I knew that the nameless island hid secrets and unimaginable dangers. However, my level and strength were lacking, so I could only forcefully endure it.
"This dream was likely a reminder from my spirituality that I could explore that island and grasp its secrets to completely end Grimm's matter."
"On the 29th of November, I gathered three of my subordinates, and with Benjamin Abraham's help and a period of searching, I finally found that nameless island again.
"We didn't directly enter and decided to rest in the periphery for a day.
"Edwards said that he often dreamed of Grimm, and he felt deeply guilty for not being able to save him.
"'This isn't your responsibility. It's my problem,' I said to Edwards because I'm their leader."
"30th November. We went deep into the island.
"There are a large number of Beyonder creatures that are said to be extinct here. They didn't fight but gathered together as though they were worshiping something …
"Such a group of Beyonder creatures without much intelligence seemed to be holding some kind of ritual!
"They were praying to an unknown deity?
"During the ritual, I saw Grimm …"
PS: Recommend a book, "I Pretend to Have Superpowers." It's said that many readers will laugh themselves to death from the middle of the novel.
PS2: Recommend another book, "Dungeon Players." A Devil Lord tricked Earthlings into working for free to build a dungeon. I've really been reading this book. It's quite interesting.
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